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michimonster ([info]michimonster) wrote in [info]blueridgeau,
@ 2012-08-18 17:57:00


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Characters: Michi and Tatum
Setting: Tatum's room
Rating: SFW
Content: Apologizing for the train wreck of the day before

Things had not gone at all to plan. Michi had felt betrayed and angry at first but the look on Tatum's face, that was what really broke her heart. She was mad at herself, mostly for the way she reacted and again for the way she had been insensitive about Sam in the first place. If she had been more honest in the first place, maybe they wouldn't be where they were, but that was the thing wasn't it? They were there together, no matter how much Michi tried to fight, there was something about Tatum and that baby that she couldn't... she wouldn't walk away from.

She didn't know what to do. She didn't know what she could even say to make up for it so she skateboarded into town to get her head on straight. There were a thousand things to say to her girlfriend but she had to show her. After stopping in a few stores, she was sure she had the right gifts that said she was sorry and that she was in it too. She got home early enough but she didn't think she could go right over at the time. She walked around campus, punched a few fence posts, and even got into a minor fight with a boy from her building over bumping into her.

After noon though, she couldn't stand it anymore. She forced herself to cross the Commons and walk right into Shawnee house. Tatum had come to her for comfort and the one thing Michi was good for... she had failed. With a shaking fist she knocked on Tatum's door and then pushed it open, glad to find that the red head was alone. She cleared her throat and shut the door behind her. "I fucked up," she said, feeling incredibly dumb for saying it.


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[info]ojandtostitos
2012-09-01 09:32 am UTC (link)
"You sure you're on board? I don't mind if I have two baby daddies, I guess.. it's twice the people to do my running around for me," Tatum joked weakly, immediately sinking into the other girl's embrace as her arms wrapped around her. This was exactly what she had needed all along, it felt so much better not to be fighting, not to be at each other's throats anymore. Their last fight had been bad, and Tatum was still having a hard time letting go of some of the harsh things that had been said. "I really would like him to stick around," she added seriously, after a lapse into silence. "He's my best friend, and I.. I don't know, teen dads always get a bad rap, but I know he'll be a good dad. If he wants to be, then.. he'll do great at it. And I guess since we're.. probably getting a furry little surprise, it might be nice to have another wolf parent with me.. you know, moons and stuff."

She placed her hands gently over Michi's, resting them on top of her stomach. She wasn't even big yet, hardly gaining weight, but that protective streak was still rampant. It was still amazing to her that something so significant was growing inside of her. "You guys would both be super cute with a little girl, all overprotective.. but I guess a boy would be okay too. Is it too early to worry about that?" she laughed weakly, her face still damp with years as she snuggled it into her pillow again. "I don't care what it is, as long as I don't fuck it up," she admitted.

Listening to her girlfriend talk about her family was hard, even if she knew every word was true. She had lived her life, made herself miserable, for as long as she could remember just to appease them. Pushing friends away, doing things she never wanted, acting and saying things she didn't mean, feeling ashamed and pressured, just to her mother and father wouldn't get mad at her. They had always been strict. Michi was right though, she wanted and needed to be herself, to focus on the baby and their future. If her parents didn't want to help her or accept her, then she was probably better off without them. But breaking the stern hold they had over her wasn't easy. Tatum could still remember the summer before when Sera had left home, practically trashed the house, and stormed out like it was nothing. She had tried her best to act scandalized by it, but she had been and still was jealous of the brunette's courage. She couldn't even tell their dad 'no' half of the time. It had always been easier to just not rock the boat at home, easier to play the part of the perfect little heteronormative catholic girl. Until the act got her pregnant, at least. That sort of put a damper on it all, but she had needed it, the final straw had broken and now she could be free. If she just listened to Michi and tried to believe what she was being told. Her parents had ruined her, had ruined her life in a lot of ways. This was as much on their plate as it was on her own.

"I love you, and I.. I want them to know. I want them to know I can do this, and we'll have our own little family, and well if they don't like that then.. they can just fuck off, you're right," Tatum agreed after a few moments if listening. She tucked herself back closer against Michi, sighing a little. "If I'm okay with it, then why should they care? I'm the one doing like, all the hard work," she suggested quietly. "Carrying a baby around and trying to act like somebody I'm not.. it kind of sucks."

She craned her neck around a little to look at her girlfriend as she nuzzled onto her hair. "You'd really go work at the league of you had to, for me? Even though Hunter would totally make fun of you? You know she wants you to go pro with her," Tatum reminded the other girl. "You're a better player anyway though and you look much sexier in your uniform, so.. just impress the scouts before she can," the redhead half-joked.

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[info]michimonster
2012-09-05 07:48 pm UTC (link)
"Ain't nowhere else I wanna be," she muttered into Tatum's hair. "I'll kick that Sam's ass if he's got anything to say otherwise," she grumbled protectively. "He got you into this mess just as much as you and me did so he better turn right the hell around and help out."

"We are gonna be a good family for this little baby, fuck bein' proper. Fuck what anyone else thinks. We're gonna do what's right for our baby and we are gonna take care of her and raise her to know that no matter what there are three people who are gonna love her regardless. We know what not to do because it's been done to us, so we can turn it around and raise her up good. We can make her proud to be our kid," she whispered fiercely. "We're gonna love the hell out of this kid no matter what T. We are gonna be the parents we never had."

"Hunt can shut her god damn mouth," Michi grinned. "I'd do whatever it takes to make sure our family gets the proper care and attention. I'm gonna make damn sure we're all happy before I take care of anything else," she laughed into Tatum's red hair. "Yeah, I know she does. I still got a shot at goin' pro I think but if I don't make a team I aint gonna waste time sittin' around and mopin'. I got a family to provide for now."

Speaking of provisions reminded her of how she had spent her time down town. Her eyes lingered over to the bag that was laying just over to the side of the bed. "Hey... I got you some stuff... and the baby too," she reached over and scooped the bag off the ground, handing it to Tatum. "This... uh... the cocoa butter is for yer belly. I figured you got some sensitive skin and it's supposed to make it feel better when the baby starts growin' and it won't give ya none of the stretch marks, not that I would care about that stuff anyways," she shrugged, feeling slightly awkward. She had given her girlfriend gifts before but nothing as meaningful as the bag sitting between them.

"There's a little something in there... just to kinda remind ya..." she trailed off, looking away as she thought about the necklace that was laying in a small box toward the bottom of the bag.

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[info]ojandtostitos
2012-09-05 08:29 pm UTC (link)
"I think he will.. help out, I mean," Tatum replied quickly, snuggling back closer to the other girl, ducking her head under her chin. "He'll make a good dad. He's really protective and strong.. like someone else I know," she smiled. "Little girl is gonna have three people looking after her, looking out for her.. I hope. We'll make it, we got to."

She exhaled heavily, closing her eyes and cracking a little smirk. "You'll make one," the redhead assured the other girl, "You're gonna be great, there's no way the scouts will turn you down. Whatever you do, it'll be great. 'Sides, least you're not a stripper, right?" she laughed weakly. "Maybe Sera will hook me up with some of her tip money."

Tatum sat up a little, taking the bag carefully from Michi. "Maybe she could at least hook me up with some of her co-workers.. I'm gonna have to pick up the hustling," she admitted, rolling her eyes a little. "Gotta make ends meet."

Opening the bag, she had to smile all over again as how nervous Michi was looking, avoiding even looking at her. "You didn't hafta get anything," she told her girlfriend, as she began looking through the present, happily piling things out onto the bed beside them. "Gummi candy, you bitch.. making me wanna smoke a joint," she teased her. When she reached the bottom, she hesitated for a second as she saw the little box waiting there. She flicked her eyes to Michi before picking it up, carefully opening it. "Mich," she breathed, looking up at the other girl even as Michi looked away.

"Fuck," she laughed, letting out a watery sob. "I love you so much. I'm sorry for.. everything, I'm sorry I'm so shit."

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[info]michimonster
2012-09-27 11:02 pm UTC (link)
"We're gonna get through this," she assured the other girl. No matter how scared she was feeling, she knew she had to times that by one hundred to understand how scared Tatum was. Tatum was the one who was about to loose her family and probably some of her friends. Tatum was the one who was about to blow up like a balloon with a baby growing in her belly.

Michi felt herself smiling softly, her cheeks burning up as Tatum piled the gifts on the bed. She played with the ears of the baby bear suit nervously as she waited. When Tatum got to the necklace though, Michi averted her eyes and stared directly at the spot on the bed next to her own knee. It wasn't easy to admit to this kind of stuff, not even when it was just the two of them and especially when things were turning so serious. She had always taken her relationship with Tatum seriously, but she had never imagined it would work itself out like this.

However it worked out though, she knew that where she wanted to be was by Tatum's side. Through the worst and the best of it; she wasn't going anywhere.

Michi finally looked up, slightly caught off guard and put her hand on Tatum's cheek gently. "Ya aint shit," she said softly. "You're... you're my everything, my whole world. I love you so much T... I'm finally seeing that none of the other shit matters. None of it compares to the good that I feel when I'm with you," she swallowed hard. "I love you more than anything, you're my family and soon Sam and this baby are gonna be a part of our family. An'... fucked up as it is... I wouldn't want it any other way."

She wrapped her arms around Tatum and pulled her into a tight hug.

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