everything i want to say, by the sound of music ♫ so, here we are, harry. today marks us officially being together for a month, 31 days to be precise - although the both of us have admitted that it seems like so much longer than that but that is probably because we've known each other for so long before we came clean about how we really feel about one another, or maybe it's because we literally spend every single day with one another so it just seems like it's been so much long. either way it seems kinda weird that i'm writing this and saying it's been one month of you and me - even though this month has been probably one of the greatest months that i've ever had and i'm not even exaggerating on that. this month, i'm not even sure if i can put it into words but this is me about to give it a bit of a failed attempt. every day that i wake up now, i treat it as a true blessing because i know i get to spend it with you, i know i pretty much got that before we decided to make us a couple but i see you in a new way now. i don't just see you as harry, one of my best mates. i see you as harry, my curly, my giant - the one person who can make me smile at any point in time, even when i'm not wanting to smile. you look at me and you show me that smile, i see those dimples, the sparkle in your green eyes and i turn to complete mush, i'm like putty in your hands and i never thought anything like that would ever happen to me in a million years. you bring out a whole new side to me that no one has ever gotten to see before, i've always been a lad that has been all about maintaining my reputation. i used to care so much about what people perceived me to be like, i liked that people thought i was the edgy, bad boy, the diva with swag or whatever else i was seen as but you. you completely swept all that away from me and you bring out this side to me that i didn't even know was part of who i really am. you see me for the real me, you've made me feel comfortable with showing the loving and caring side of me that was always hidden away from the world. you've also brought out that vulnerable side to me that i've never had exposed before, i know i was reluctant to let you see but only because i've always been the strong one, it's how i was comfortable with being and i was scared, scared to let down my walls. i think that's why we had those couple of blips in our perfect road. i think i've always been afraid to let someone completely in the way i've let you in. i'm okay with showing you that i'm not always perfect, i'm not always so strong, i'm just as weak as everyone else. i'm okay with showing you it because i know i have you to pick me back up and help me when i fall, just like you're here by my side with everything with my family and you don't know what it really means to me to know you're right there, you're there to hold my hand and even though we're both on this new journey together. you're there, you're always there and i think you've always been there. i live everyday of my life as if it's some fantasy, i get to fall asleep in your arms and wake up to your beautiful sleeping face, but it's not fantasy, it's real life and for that reason alone i know i'm truly blessed. we've had a ridiculous amount of obstacles to overcome already and i know we're probably going to have a million more but i don't care, this is worth it because what we have is real love, it's raw, it's passionate, it's intense. we have the kind of love that people write books about and the kind of love you see on the big screen and think to yourself, that doesn't really exist but it does. it exists between you and me. i never knew that falling in love would feel this way but now that i have it, i never want this feeling to end, i need to live my every day with you. you already knew it but i want to live the rest of my life being yours and with you being mine. you are perfect and you complete me in every way that i needed completing, i love every single thing about you and there's nothing i would ever want or need to change. i love you, harry edward styles and i plan on showing you that day in and day out in as many ways as humanly possible. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ these are some of my favourite romantic quote from films that make me think of you, for different reasons, some are obviously a lot more straight forward than others lmao :-[ "love is always patient and kind. it is never jealous. love is never boastful or conceited. it is never rude or selfish. it does not take offense and is not resentful." a walk to remember. "the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." moulin rouge "he saved me, in every way a person can be saved." titanic "i love that you get cold when it’s 71 degrees out. i love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. i love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like i'm nuts. i love that after i spend day with you, i can still smell your perfume on my clothes. and i love that you are the last person i want to talk to before i go to sleep at night. and it's not because i'm lonely, and it's not because it's new years eve. i came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible." when harry met sally "you had me at hello." jerry maguire "catherine earnshaw, may you not rest so long as i live on. i killed you. haunt me, then. haunt your murderer. i know that ghosts have wandered on the earth. be with me always. take any form, drive me mad, only do not leave me in this dark alone where i cannot find you. i cannot live without my life. i cannot die without my soul." wuthering heights "so it's not gonna be easy. it's gonna be really hard. we're gonna have to work at this every day, but i want to do that because i want you. i want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day." the notebook i have your real gift in my hand and waiting to give you, i felt it would be better to give you it in person instead of showing you it here so, i'm gonna wait till we are together for that so i'm officially wrapping up this complete and utter sap fast now. i love you, zayn |
