 so here it is, our one month anniversary. i can't even believe we're here. first of all because it feels like you and i have been together for so much longer, which i guess is because i've never been this happy with anyone, ever, in my life before. and secondly because for the first time in a relationship i really care about doing all the little things like this. celebrating anniversaries, writing love notes, buying presents. before those were things i did because i felt like i should do it, but with you i just want to. i always want to see you happy and smiling and know it's because i've done something right. you are literally my entire world, you mean everything to me. so your happiness comes before my own. and that is a slightly scary thought, that i care more about your happiness than mine. but i guess that's just what happens when you really and truly love a person. their needs come before your own, because that is exactly how it is with me when it comes to you. i wake up smiling every morning. something that i never used to do, but i can't help myself. i glance over to my right and see your beautiful and perfect face lying right next to me, your body curled up against my side and i just can't help but wonder how i got so lucky. really. because despite what all the fan girls like to think about me, i really just am an ordinary guy. i didn't do anything amazing, so how did i get blessed to have the most incredible person on the planet? i don't think i'll ever know. but i'm so glad you chose me, that you spoke up about your feelings. it's because of you that we're here today and i will be forever grateful to you for that. i've been doing a lot of thinking about everything that has happened to us - all the fights, almost break-ups and breaks, just all of it. and i really am glad that they happened. i know that's a bit weird to say, but honestly? i feel like it has brought us even closer and i know i just keep falling more and more in love with you every day. so i'm glad that they happened to bring us closer together and stronger than ever. i don't know what i would do without you now and that's something i never, ever want to find out for real. my heart aches just even thinking about it, i don't like it. i can't wait for our day to begin later, because it's going to be nothing short of amazing. everything is all booked and set on my end. i hope you like the present i got you - it's really kind of sappy, but i thought it might be nice too. i'm so anxious to see what you worked on all day and see what you got me too, even though i know i'm going to love it. i'm also so excited to see what the future is going to bring us, i know we can only go up from here. i can't wait to grow old with you and get married one day, have lots of kids and the nice house with a dog - all that cheesy stuff. there's no one else i want to have that with, and there never will be. i would give you the world if you wanted, i'd give you anything and everything to keep you happy. basically, i don't know what else i can say besides i love you. i love you so much it hurts. i love you more than anything and everything in this world and i always will. i hope you enjoy our day together because that's all i want. 
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