As you may have gathered, I recently undertook to watch the entire series of Supernatural, ie, every episode so far (that being up to season four, episode ten.) I watched about the first half of the first season when it was originally aired, but I wasn't very impressed and gave up on it after the one with their mom [ep 1.12, Home, which I only know 'cos I just looked it up because I'm anal about things like that.] (Having watched it all now, I'm unsurprised I gave up at that point- I almost did again, because the show really is pretty lame for most of the first season, and it definitely doesn't hit it's stride until AFTER that episode, when Dad really shows up. So if I'd held out for like another ep or two..but I'd given it twelve already, and I was a college freshman with, like, drinking to do, so whatever. I only watched as far as I did because of my long-term love affair with The Ackles, which started when he was the ex-alkie on Dawson's Fucking Creek, so he's totally mine, bitches.) But I have friends who adore it and I'd heard good things so I gave it another shot.

I finished yesterday. And sobbed like a baby several times, not the least at 4.10, because...Dean. In fact, it's always because of Dean, with whom I am in love in a way I have not been in love with a fictional character since Sirius (and I only came to love Sirius this way AFTER writing him, so my rabid!Deanlove is a bit weird since he's like...not in my head. IDK.)

I'm only mentioning this because it's now been over 24 hours since I had an infusion of Deanlolz. And I just had to go look him up on youtube (!!! And yes, I realize that's technically Jensen, not Dean, but !!! HE PLAYS AIR GUITAR USING HIS THIGH, I LOVE HIM.)

I am not sure how I am going to make it to January 29th, is what I'm saying THAT IS OVER A MONTH OMG. Somebody send help. Or get me into a program. Or something.