LILY EVANS (fieryfurnace) wrote,
@ 2009-03-07 15:32:00

Lily sighed happily to herself as she took off her bloody plastic gloves. Luckily, this hadn't been a hard procedure; there was only blood on her hands because this particular procedure wasn't really a clean one. Whether one was a muggle or a wizard, giving birth was still filled with the gory details in between. But it was all worth it in the end, Lily thought, to see the looks on the mothers' faces when they met their child for the first time.

Lily wanted that. She knew she couldn't have that, but she wanted it. Remus and her had been living together for a few months now, and though they weren't married, Lily felt like they were ready to take the next step. Lily wanted to start her life was Remus; she felt ready. And somehow, she knew that he was too. It hurt her a little that he hadn't mentioned it, though.

Once Lily had finished taking off her messy garments, she put on her hooded sweatshirt and changed from her scrubs to her jeans. It might have been plain and muggle, but Remus didn't mind and Lily was more comfortable like this. She Apparated into the kitchen, smiling to herself as she thought of the look on that mother's face today.

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bluemoon
2009-03-07 10:50 pm UTC (link)

Remus hardly flinched when the crack of Lily's apparition sounded, but he did look up from the newspaper he was reading in the sitting room. "Is that you, Lily?" he asked as he folded the Prophet and put it on the cheap coffee table, heading into the kitchen to greet her.

The smile on her face put one on Remus' in tandem, a small echo of her happiness. "Good day, yes?" he asked, leaning in the doorway.

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fieryfurnace
2009-03-07 10:53 pm UTC (link)

She nodded and set her bag down on the kitchen counter, walking over and kissing him on the cheek. Still faintly smiling, Lily sighed, "A lot of happy mums today. How was yours?"

Lily liked to hear about how his day went. Even if the simplest of things happened, it put a smile to her face. She was trying to be as supportive as possible, knowing it was hard for him because he couldn't find a decent job. But Lily didn't mind working. In fact, she'd rather be working -- it kept her busy, and it was something she really enjoyed doing.

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bluemoon
2009-03-07 11:03 pm UTC (link)

"I cleaned the kitchen," Remus said with a faint sigh, looking around at it. It did shine, but Remus couldn't help the slight frown of boredom to his expression. Staying home all day was wearing him down, not because he didn't think Lily could or should work, but because he was so bored in the house or running errands all day. But after his last job freelance writing for a cryptozoologist journal ended with the same dismissal for suspiciously timed sick days, there had been nothing on the job front for Remus, no matter how often he scanned the Prophet's listings.

He cleared his throat and nodded, looking back to Lily. "It was a good day here too."

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fieryfurnace
2009-03-07 11:12 pm UTC (link)

She mirrored his expression as he looked around frowning, and suddenly she felt slightly guilty. But when he looked back, she tried to put the same smile back on her face, inconspicuous as she thought about the whole thing. "Yeah? That's really good," Lily said.

"Sirius stopped by today on business and we ran into each other. Told me to tell you 'hi' and that you don't talk nearly enough. I think we should invite him over sometime again soon." It was something they did. She managed to try to make him feel better, and they would forget about the fact that she had a job. Lily tried to help him, but he never let her. So she made up for it by acting nonchalant about it for him.

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bluemoon
2009-03-07 11:19 pm UTC (link)

"We should, we should," Remus agreed, nodding. "He wasn't hurt, was he? Or did he just come by specifically to bother?" He smiled again, thinking of his old friend's antics. Remus moved out of the doorway and further into the kitchen, taking down things for dinner without hesitation. It was becoming a ritual between them, dinner and conversation after Lily got home.

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fieryfurnace
2009-03-07 11:22 pm UTC (link)

She shook her head, coming over to help out. Lily was sort of a lousy cook, but she did whatever she cold to help him with the meal, whether it was cutting things up or setting the table. Never mind that she once made spaghetti explode everywhere because she didn't cook it correctly. "I'm not sure," Lily said, laughing faintly. "I mean, he said he was coming over on business, but I'm pretty sure he just came to bother me."

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	bluemoon 2009-03-07 11:28 pm UTC (link)
	Remus laughed, setting a pot of water to boil. "He would, you know he would. I hope you ran him out before he started coming on to your patients. Sirius is the only one of us who will never settle down, never." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

fieryfurnace
2009-03-07 11:34 pm UTC (link)

She snorted. "Don't worry, I don't think he would have the heart to -- after all, childbirth is kind of a scary thing to boys like him." Lily wrinkled her nose. "That may be true, minus Peter. I don't know if Pete's capable of that sort of relationship." She makes a slight face. She had the faint impression that he liked her during their years at Hogwarts, and it was a little creepy.

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	bluemoon 2009-03-07 11:38 pm UTC (link)
	"Sure he is," Remus laughed, seeing Lily's face. "He just needs to meet the right woman. I am very encouraging of this." The smile on his face turned slightly boyish, sheepish, and mischevious all at once. "As long as it's not you, that is." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-07 11:42 pm UTC (link)
	The face that she made became a little more pronounced. "Definitely not me," she sighed. At least Remus saw it too. "I think he has some growing up to do, and then maybe he'll meet someone," Lily said, twisting his words a little. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	(Anonymous) 2009-03-07 11:47 pm UTC (link)
	"He'll still be settled with a wife and kids before Sirius or James get around to it," Remus said, smile lingering. "Dedicated bachelors, those two. You'll see." He shook a little salt into the bubbling water before adding a nest of pasta to it as well. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

fieryfurnace
2009-03-07 11:55 pm UTC (link)

She grinned to herself, nodding in agreement.

Lily leaned against the counter, crossing her arms as she watched him put the pasta into the boiling water. It's probably a good thing, she thinks to herself, that he can cook because she's absolutely dreadful at it. Her mind started to wander over to the hospital today and she sighed as she thought about how the two of them really should make it a little more permanent. "Hey Remus?" she askrf, not thinking about what she might say next.

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	bluemoon 2009-03-08 12:00 am UTC (link)
	"Yes, Lily?" Remus replied, turning around again as he waited for the noodles to cook. They usually ate simply, which made cooking and cleaning up simple enough to give them time to talk in between. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

fieryfurnace
2009-03-08 12:05 am UTC (link)

Lily took one look at him and smiled a little sheepishly, ducking her head as she wondered what to say. What was she supposed to say? She thought they should get married? They should go have tons of hot, passionate sex so that she could be a mother? Her mouth hung open a little, wondering what she should actually say before she looked back up at him.

"I want a baby," she said quietly.

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	bluemoon 2009-03-08 01:21 am UTC (link)
	Remus' mouth hung open. Whatever he'd been expecting -- that wasn't it. The little false-starts of logic show on his face for a silent moment before he could speak again, a stuttering, confused sentence, "You. What? Right now? With who? Not with me, surely, Lily..." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-08 06:19 am UTC (link)
	She nodded, pursing her lips because she was bracing herself for the worst. She knew where this was going. He would tell her that he couldn't, that it was too dangerous, that she shouldn't want to. Lily didn't want to hear it. "Yes, Remus, with you," she told him. "I want to have a baby with you." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

bluemoon
2009-03-08 11:35 pm UTC (link)

"Why?" he asked blankly. It wasn't that he didn't love her, didn't want a future for them, but a baby? It just seemed so...hard. Dangerous, surely, with the chance that his lycanthropy could be passed on, but immediately Remus' mind was moving on from that, trying to figure out how they would find the money, where they would put a baby, Merlin they weren't even married...

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fieryfurnace
2009-03-09 05:36 am UTC (link)

Lily stared at him for a few moments and then ducked her head again because she didn't know what to say. "I. I guess I just. I." She breathed deeply and leaned back on the counter. "I don't know. I just. I really want to, Remus. I-- I think we should start a family." Lily didn't understand why she was suddenly ashamed of saying this. She knew she shouldn't; she's always wanted a family, but something about this entire conversation made her feel so small. Of course he didn't want to, she thought to herself.

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bluemoon
2009-03-09 05:47 am UTC (link)

Remus starts to realize that his reaction probably isn't doing the best job at comforting her, but he's a little too shell shocked to really change it. "With me," he echoes. "You want to have a baby with me, of all people. Lily, darling, we're not even married, could you imagine what the neighbors would think?" He has to laugh softly at the question, serious as it was.

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fieryfurnace
2009-03-09 05:58 am UTC (link)

She shook her head. "I don't care what they think," she sighed, still staring at the floor. It was as if she was slightly ashamed of what she was thinking, as if she were a child, frightened of getting in trouble. "I want it to be just you and me, Remus. I'm not saying that we should have a baby right now, just that. Well." Lily took a deep breath. "I want to be the one that you do have a baby with, if you would ever consider it."

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	bluemoon 2009-03-09 06:03 am UTC (link)
	"Lily," Remus exhales, breathless and awed. He crossed the space between them quickly, his arms going around Lily's waist. "Who else could I possibly even think of considering? I love you. Very much." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-09 06:08 am UTC (link)
	Lily looks up at him suddenly, biting her lower lip as if unsure before quickly wrapping her arms around his shoulders. "I don't know, I just-- I love you too," she murmurs against his shoulder. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	bluemoon 2009-03-09 06:11 am UTC (link)
	"You just what?" Remus asks, voice hushed because she's so close. "You do believe me, don't you, Lily?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-09 06:16 am UTC (link)
	Lily nods into his shoulder, little movements because he's so close, and hugs him tighter. "I do," she promises. "I just. I guess I really just, you know, want to feel like we can be normal." She leans her head back to look up at him. "Because we are, in fact, normal, you know." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	bluemoon 2009-03-09 06:18 am UTC (link)
	"Oh yes, we're very normal," Remus replies with a faint wry smile. "Dreadfully normal, in fact. So normal that we just had a fight about commitment over a cooking spaghetti dinner. Have we fallen into the 1950s without anyone telling me?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-09 06:20 am UTC (link)
	Lily waggles her eyebrows. "Only if I get to wear one of those fantastic dresses that the housewives used to wear. I mean, really, I can't cook worth anything, but I want one of those cheesy dresses, Remus. And then we can fall into the 1950s." She grins. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	bluemoon 2009-03-09 06:27 am UTC (link)
	"Anything you want, Lily," Remus says indulgently, smiling. A moment passes before, quietly, he confesses, "I really would like to marry you, you know." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-09 06:30 am UTC (link)
	She swears that her heart stops beating for a few moments as she stares at him, sort of incapable of words for the time being. When she finally pulls herself back together, Lily doesn't know what to say. So she says the first thing that comes to mind. "What will the neighbors think?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	bluemoon 2009-03-09 06:33 am UTC (link)
	Remus sighs, his fingertips on her neck gently. "That's what I am afraid of," he murmurs softly, shaking his head. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-09 06:34 am UTC (link)
	She shakes her head just at the same time. "I don't care what the neighbors think," Lily says, recovering from the shock he had given her. "I want to marry you, and I don't care who knows about it." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	bluemoon 2009-03-09 06:39 am UTC (link)
	He sighs again, louder this time. It's a discussion they've had many times. "I'm glad you say that," Remus says, "Because everyone will. You'll show up on the Registry along with me. It's not fun, Lily." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-09 06:42 am UTC (link)
	She shakes her head. "I'm the best Healer they have right now, and I don't like to brag. I'm not dangerous to them," Lily says. "They have no reason to fire me. And if they do, all Hell will break loose." She smirks. "I have my ways." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	bluemoon 2009-03-09 06:49 am UTC (link)
	"Your ways," Remus echoed softly, a faint smile on his face despite his better judgement. "Of course you do. But what about our baby? What will the baby do, when it gets old enough to realize?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-09 06:53 am UTC (link)
	"The baby will be fine," Lily told him, trying to be comforting. "I think it will be confusing, but we can wait to defeat that obstacle for a little longer, I think." She reached up and gave him an eskimo kiss. "We have time." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	bluemoon 2009-03-09 06:55 am UTC (link)
	"Sometimes..." Remus starts to say, eyes on the floor suddenly. "That is. They aren't sure, if my...little problem. If it can be passed on, or not. They aren't sure." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

fieryfurnace
2009-03-09 06:58 am UTC (link)

Lily paled suddenly, thinking of that for the thousandth time so guiltily because she knew that it was a possibility. It didn't seem right to Lily. She couldn't help it if it did happen, but she tried to make light of the situation. "Remus, you don't know if it would happen." She shook her head. "And odds are, it won't. You weren't born like this, and typically, that sort of thing shouldn't happen if it isn't naturally hereditary or if only one of the parents has... it," Lily ended lamely.

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	bluemoon 2009-03-09 07:03 am UTC (link)
	"You never know," Remus said quietly, meeting her eyes through his bangs, shy and a little ashamed. "I just want you to be. Prepared. Just in case." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-09 07:08 am UTC (link)
	Lily leaned forward to catch his lips in a quick kiss that certainly didn't lack intention or affection. "I know, Remus. But I have a really good feeling about this." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	bluemoon 2009-03-09 07:13 am UTC (link)
	"Okay," Remus said, relenting to Lily's faith. "We have time." He took his kiss back, lingering at her mouth a moment. "You don't have a ring yet." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-09 07:16 am UTC (link)
	Lily smiled. "I don't need one, Remus," she whispered. "I'm happy just to be with you, you know." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	bluemoon 2009-03-09 07:21 am UTC (link)
	"I'm so glad," he replied as their noses brushed slightly. "I just want you to have one." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-09 07:26 am UTC (link)
	Lily leaned just a little forward to catch his lips again, keeping her arms wrapped around him, not even bothered when she heard the boiling water of the spaghetti start to overflow on the stove. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	bluemoon 2009-03-09 07:28 am UTC (link)
	"Mmmm," Remus hummed, regretfully pulling away when he heard the sound as well. "I've ruined dinner," he sighed, moving the overheated pot from the stove and into the sink. "The noodles are burned." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-09 07:31 am UTC (link)
	Lily started laughing. "At least it didn't explode," she countered, poking fun at her own baking skills. The last time she made noodles, she wasn't really sure what happened, but there was still a weird-shaped water stain on the wall to prove whatever happened. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	bluemoon 2009-03-09 07:33 am UTC (link)
	"Yes well," Remus said with a laugh, washing out the pot to soak the baked noodles off. "I'll never understand how you managed that." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-09 07:37 am UTC (link)
	She shrugged. "I don't know. I'm just unlucky with cooking, I've decided," Lily said with a dramatic sigh, walking over to the burner to turn it off. "You're much better than I am," she said, slight admiration in her voice because it really was a hard thing for her to cook. She's always wanted to know how, but it was a skill she'd never mastered. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	bluemoon 2009-03-09 07:43 am UTC (link)
	"And I am unlucky with employment, so between the two of us, we live very nicely, I think," Remus said, his usual response to Lily's comments about her culinary ineptitude. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	fieryfurnace 2009-03-09 07:48 am UTC (link)
	She wrapped her arms around his waist from behind, putting her face into the crook of his neck. "At least you make one heck of a grilled cheese," Lily teased, leaving soft kisses where she put her face. (Reply to this)(Parent)

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