My life in words

real quick update. i hate weekends now that he's up here fulltime. he works all weekend so i have to wait until sunday nights to see him. but at least we make the time worth the wait. even if it means getting a whole 4 hours of sleep.
i love how he can be so amazingly sweet one minute and then a complete jokester the next. he always knows when i need a good laugh from him, and its scary sometimes. i just wish things weren't so complicated still....

so super sleepy but i'll say this for now... the past three days have been so amazing.  I love him so much it hurts sometimes... *sigh*  why can't one of us get an apartment already?

so I must be growing up.  A pseudo-ex of mine and i hung out tonight.  Usually we're all cutesy and a lil sexual with each other. And usually I like it.  But tonight, despite *his* insistence that i'm a free agent, I totally felt uncomfortable even kissing my ex.
*he* being the man I fell in love with, and am sort of kinda involved with i guess.  I call him my boyfriend for lack of a better word, but he's still legally married, and so we haven't made anything official. 
Back to the pseudo-ex, B....  B just seems to think of me as a set of tits, because all he did was go right for them the whole time we were on my PARENTS' couch!  Come on, you can't sit through a movie without grabbing my boobs? REALLY! 
So like i said... I must be growing up.  Either that or he's growing down....

so here's my quickie intro to the world of scribbld....
I'm 27, but i've lived the life of 40 yr old.
I work in retail, and I'm starting to hate it after 10 years.
I'm going back to school in november for a degree in psychology.
I'm in love with a man, and its amazing...
At the same time the situation is so confusing and complicated right now I sometimes really wonder about it all
My friends (the true ones) are amazing and I wouldn't know what to do with out them
I have an older pain in the ass, i mean brother, who lives 5 hours away.
I sometimes think he has the right idea.
I still live with my parents, who are still together after 37 years, but probably should be divorced already
I've moved away and come back three times since my 18th birthday
i have 10 tattoos and at the most i've had 13 piercings
i have 7 now
i write really sporadically sometimes
I'm a songwriter and an aspiring country singer
yes i live in NYC and love country music
i also love rock, freestyle, most vocal house, and even some pop
i love makeup but don't wear much when i'm not at work
i can't think of anything else right now... so bye byes! :->