mei

[	mood	|	calm	]
[	music	|	白夢の繭-Ricordando_il_passato- (Cocoon of White Dreams ~Remember the past~)	]

It really isn't fair for me to remain on your friends list here whenever I rarely check the site. I just can't do anything with this site without feeling a wave of negativity overwhelm my mind. This place was a great comfort to me during my stay in California with my ex-boyfriend, but it was also a great source of drama. Every comment I made, every post I made to a community, even my icon keywords were scrutinized and misinterpreted. I told myself I would continue to try because my dearest friends here were my comfort during that horrible time in my life, but even most have moved on to other blogging platforms or social networks.

For those who haven't, I apologize greatly for distancing myself from you with this. I just can't bear it anymore. I can't bear seeing his name on my friends list. I'm trying to recover and such things tend to throw me back. I thought of leaving this site with a plethora of other excuses to make me seem more like a heartless badass, but I really can't. My parting should at least be honest.

Don't think I'm going to walk in your shadow forever...
Our battle... begins now... so you had better prepare yourself!
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