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§ha§ha ƒuиky §hake™ ([info]zellywellywoowo) wrote,
@ 2008-04-23 00:34:00


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Current mood: frustrated

Where did it all go? What do I do now?
A few things.

1. My Hair. I can't do a damn thing with it anymore. It's like it HAS to stay short or something it just won't fucking grow. I'm tired of black...thinking about going real blonde or something. I dont fucking know i need to change EVERYTHING.

2. My body. I need to star excersising and running but I don't know any good work out routines for stomach and legs. I need to get my ass in gear because im not getting any younger and I need to get healthy.

3. Location. I am serious when i say I need to get the fuck out of here. Suhail was on his way to London today and told me if I didn't have the wedding to go to he would have paid my way to go with him for a week. Do you know how awesome that wuld have been? I could have met james, checked out living there and had a good week to get shit off my mind. As soon as I can get financially set and maybe find a different job I'm fucking out of here. New hair, new look, new location, new body, new start.

4. Josh. I can't help that I still love him but I am going to try my best to grow the fuck up and move on.

5. Matt. I was doing a survey earlier and it said what was the nicest text you recieved in your inbox? And I went to the first text in my inbox and it was when Matt and I were really into eachother. he was always saying really nice things to me and it made me really sad...we are still friends but where did that spark go? WHY is it so different now? It was really hard for him because of the distance but I did what i could to work things out. He used to tell me he was lucky to even be my friend because he thought guys were just dying to be with me and he didnt know what he did or how he got so lucky to get me to like him ...

He would tell me it was hard for him to leave when i was with him. It was hard for him to wake up and know that i wasn't there. Hard for him to sleep at night. He used to tell me he misses me so much and I should go see him because he was feeling ill without me. All these things....why can't I find a guy who says these things and can stick around or be closer?

WTF happened to DUES? he dissapeared and I REALLY had high hopes for him....



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[info]kuroitenshi
2008-04-23 08:17 am UTC (link)
I can relate to a lot of these things. I'm not even sure where to begin. I do wish luck on working on all of that! *hugs*

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[info]yellowsubmarine
2008-04-23 08:23 pm UTC (link)
Oh God. The Deus [wait, the guy with mohawk from club....are you talking about HIM or MATT? xD] thing happened a looooooong time ago back on GJ O.O

Aw. Matt used to be a cutie. I'm sorry things have changed; regardless, that always seems to happen, huh?

DYE IS PURPLE AND WE CAN BE TWINNIES. <3

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[info]zellywellywoowo
2008-04-23 08:48 pm UTC (link)
LMFAO!!! omfg i cant believe you remembered!!! lmfao! yeah i still like him but wtf u know and Dues was very promising and he was busy but he always made time to call or text and he said these really nice things to me then BAM he's gone. think i'll try his old number sometime soon. but yeah it was a bar that i had my pink mohawk at and met him that night lol

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[info]yellowsubmarine
2008-04-23 11:52 pm UTC (link)
Well, I didn't spell his name right, so evidently I didn't remember too well. ;DD

Man, you really liked him too.

He sounded pretty awesome.

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[info]half_pain
2008-04-24 03:06 am UTC (link)
I know of an exercise that works all of your core muscles. It's called "The Plank". You start in standard pushup position (hands and toes, legs together/straight back, back straight) and hold it for up to two minutes. It doesn't sound like much but trust me, if you do it correctly you'll be pleasantly sore the next day.

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[info]zellywellywoowo
2008-04-24 03:50 am UTC (link)
ahhh thank you!

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