Current mood:

thoughtful

How Boring
I miss Matt. I miss knowing he was someone I could talk to everyday about anything. I sent him a text telling him I miss him being that friend I could counton cuz he called me randomly (after not hearing from him for months) Just to say hi and chit chat He was excited to know we were coming up in July but I wish it'd be the same. I just miss not feeling like he could give a shit less now.

Anyway, I really wanna get my shit back from Josh but he says he is busy 24-7 which is crap since I can see him online playing XBOX all the time. and I know he has plenty of fucking time to go to BUNGALOWS on Thursdays.

*sigh* I haven't seen Brendon in a while. Makes me feel distant....my feelings are all loopy. I like him but when we aren't around eachother i miss him like crazy then i times I think I might not care....but I know i do...I don't know what that's all about.

Mike Called me. Haven't seen him since the last Masquerade Ball in the summer and haven't spoken to him for a couple of years (on the phone or in person) so it was a surprise hearing from him. He asked me to go to Georgetown with him for a bit on Thursday, I didn't go, then he invited me to EXPOSURE and i didn't go...idk I don't go because i know that he used to have a thing for me and me seeing brendon, it can't be good to hang with another guy who i think may have feelings for me though when we see eachother he does his own thing so ...idk....

This is him btw.


Always loved that pic. I feel free these days though. California was good, going to Jersey in july for a week. been goingt o new places and having a life again. It feels good but there are many things I miss from my past but it's not worth getting in to.

Sayonara for now.