urn:lj:scribbld.com:atom1:5ironfrenzied 5ironfrenzied 5ironfrenzied 2010-12-12T17:29:45Z urn:lj:scribbld.com:atom1:5ironfrenzied:513 2010-12-12T17:29:45Z 2010-12-12T17:29:45Z I hate my husband.<br /><br />end of story. urn:lj:scribbld.com:atom1:5ironfrenzied:366 2010-11-11T20:44:41Z 2010-11-11T20:44:41Z It's like an illness that I can't shake<br />a crippling pain that I can't take<br />a growing fear that I can't break<br />a deep sadness that makes me quake<br />and leaves me shattered in its wake<br /><br />I woke up this morning with a stone <br />in my stomach and a thought in my head<br />the day already over for me before <br />I stretched my arms and left my bed<br />the hurt used to be a passing thing<br />that I could shrug and lift away<br />but now it lives in my heart and mind<br />to swell with doubt every waking day<br /><br />It's a gnawing ruin, this jealousy<br />I fight it but cannot break free<br />it's spreading further within me<br />I want the fury to leave me be<br />but there's no escape I can see<br /><br />I drift asleep with a dampened spirit<br />weighing heavy inside my chest<br />and dream of all the little signs<br />that prove me lost at second best<br />I crave the joy that it would bring<br />to know your love for me is not a lie<br />and feel the peace of heady relief<br />breathe out this tension like a sigh<br /><br />because... it's like an illness that I can't shake<br />a crippling pain that I can't take<br />a growing fear that I can't break<br />a deep sadness that makes me quake<br />and I am shattered in its wake.