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Thursday, April 3rd, 2008
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12:59p - A better day.
I had my bloodwork done this morning. I forgot the paper where the nurse puts down all the things that they need to check from my blood, but luckily the folks at the health care center had my info on the computer so they could still do the bloodwork. I got the coolest bandaid ever, a translucent one. Looks very "modern". Hehe.
Had a good lunch, tested this new kind of chocolate and found out it isn't as good as I thought it would be.... Took my dog out.. Now thinking of going back outside to blow bubbles if the sun starts shining again.
I always know spring is coming when my parents start doing more things outside. Now they're washing our carpets.. My dog vomited on them a few weeks ago. I think it was because she missed me. She's still not eating very well, she has to be handfed (what a fussy girl) and she'll only eat sausages and coldcuts from her own bowl. I think it will get better when I move back home in May.
Well, I just looked out of the window and I don't think there is going to be any sunshine anytime soon.
Yesterday I got new nail polish, it's clear with sparkles in it, it's from a Finnish small brand that I support, I usually use Pout or Urban Decay, I'm a make up addict, I confess... But anyway, the new nail polish is so cool, the sparkles are multicoloured, and now I can make my own version of Avon's Ruby Slipper out of any colour I have! I am excited to try new shades! Right now I'm wearing Baby Doll from Maybelline's Colorama, and the sparkle polish as a top coat. It's funky. Baby Doll is a sheer pink with a blue shift.
Inside my head it has been a good day. They're all calm, staying in the shadows. Some depressed but relieved we're not in school today, and some are just being. I'm enjoying this day. My dad is sober now, mom isn't ignoring him, all in all life is good. I almost feel normal. Better enjoy it while it lasts...
Lyra
current mood:  okay
current music: The Smashing Pumpkins - Beautiful (comment on this)
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9:31p - Making decisions together.
So, I got off the computer around 4:30 pm, since my mom told me to (rofl!), and I just watched TV, then retreated to my room, which has no computer, no TV, absolutely nothing, and I decided to tidy it up a bit and then play around with make up. And I had fun! Listening to the radio, I don't even have a radio or a CD player in my room, I just have my cell phone which has a radio in it. It was just great.
Yeah, I redid my nails, and Katie chose to go with black. To symbolise the insecurity and depression inside, but I put glitter on top so it wouldn't look so gloomy. x) Now my nails look like a starry sky, and I love astronomy! This, truly is harmony. I'm glad Katie took over and put on the black, my options didn't look too good with the glitter on top.
I realised that I have skipped so much that I will probably not pass my courses. But I have tried my best, and I can't change what's been done. I'll just have to take the accusations and all the shit from my teachers, and try to get to the courses in the next period, tell them I'll try again next year or do the extra excercises.
I'm taking a deep breath, and mentally preparing us all for a big struggle. But I know that we can make it. I know a few of us choose life, like me, and we're ready to fight and convince the rest of the system.
Summer's so coming, to make up for the difficult months, the depths of psychosis, everything. It will all be paid back.
Lyra
current mood:  calm
current music: Justin Timberlake - Cry Me a River (comment on this)
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