They Say That What Doesn't Kill Us

_rawrz @ 2008-06-09T17:44:00

2008-06-09T21:47:03Z

I just had the best dream. I was talking to you on aim. you were so happy and wanting to talk. it was like it was. I try not to think about you but something always reminds me or my mind just wanders. If all those memories weren't so good I wouldn't be so nastolgic. Thinking about those times makes me smile. from when you opened the car door for me to sitting on a bench with your head in my lap looking at the city at night. I don't think I could ever hate you like my friends do, because I know you(for the most part). I really did mean it when I said I hope I talk to you soon and that I'm just a phone call away or a drive down the road. I really hope you took that to heart and consider it.

boredbored

2008-05-09T02:24:40Z

What happened at 10:00 am today?
schoooooool

What do you want in your life right now? happiness, positivity, and reassurance

Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
not right now. hahaha

What is the last thing someone bought you?
dinner

When was the last time you saw number 3 on your top friends?
saturday at 2 in the morning, too long ago :(

Where did you last eat?
copper dome

Name someone whose name starts with the letter "A" ?
andy

Will you ever kiss the last person you kissed again?
gahhhhhh yessss

Who's the most annoying person in your neighborhood?
everyone

Do you plan on moving in the next year? we will see.

What were you doing at 8:30 pm last Saturday night? freaking out

What did you do today?
school

What are you doing besides this survey? watchin tv

What are your plans tomorrow?
girl niiight

Who took your default picture?
me.

What is your current problem?
the boy and stupid school

Last time you spoke to someone you like? at 6

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
ah. yes

Who was the last person you saw? mom

What was the last movie you watched? some racing movie

Who is the last person you freaked out on? myself

Do you like someone right now? yup

Why did your parents give you the name you have? I am named after a cat. wooo

What is something you say when you are mad? fuckfuckfuck swearing.

Have you ever cried when you're mad? yes.

Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? hmmm.

Have you ever thought that you were going to marry a person? hahahaha

Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? naw

Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?: idk?

Are you happier single or in a relationship?: either

Have you ever been cheated on?: not that I know of

What is your favorite thing(s) about the opposite sex?: laugh, smell, the feel of them, the things they like, eyes and smile

Have you ever broken someones heart?: nawwww

Talk to any of your ex's?: no

If you could go back in time and change
things with your ex's?naaaaaw

Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?: I try....

Have you been in an abusive relationship?: no

Have you dated someone older than you?: yup

Younger?: sure

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?: yup

Believe in love at first sight?: lust at first sight!

Ever been given an engagement ring?: nooo

Do you want to get married?: suuuure when im older

Do you have something to say to any of your ex's?: uh

Ever stolen someone's boyfriend or girlfriend?: nooowaaay

Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?: ahaahahahnaw

What do you need in a relationship?: honesty, excitement, trust, acceptance/open and so much more

Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?: yeah.

Do you want to be like any of your friends?: hahah

Booty call with any of your ex's? oh my

What does the oldest text message in
your inbox say? "yeah. fuck seminar" haha

What was the last song you sang out loud? drilling- minus the bear

Do you have any nicknames? sure do

Who was the last person to message you? idk

What time did you go to bed last night? 10 & 1

Are you currently happy? slowly getting better

When was the last time you cried? last night

Who gives you the best advice? sonya

Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can? hahaa if I wanna be adventurous

Who did you talk on the phone with last night? no one

Is anything bugging you right now? a little

Who was the last to make you laugh? my mother.....weird

Do you wear toe socks? lolno

What annoys you most in a person? when someone doesn't care about anything or just thinks of theirself

Have you ever done cocaine? nooooo

What is the color of your room? purple

Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars? naw

Do you believe in the saying "talk is cheap?" uh

Who was the last person to hug you? I don't knoooooow

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed? nope

Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't? uhhuh

Do you own an iPod?yessssssss

What's the reason behind your myspace song? it's my fav right now

Ever had a drunken night in Mexico? Nope

Are you talking to anyone while doing this? noo

Do you walk with your eyes open or closed? hahahahahhahaahha open

Is there a quote you live by? they say that what doesn't kill us makes us who we are!

Do you want someone you can't have? nope

What were you doing last night at 11? sleeping

Does the person you like know you like them? I'm pretty sure

Do you speak any other language? espanol

Are you a blonde? noooo

What are you doing tonight? fuckkk nothin

I'm a stich away

2008-04-27T03:28:46Z

he's the type of guy that needs to be fixed.

I'm the type of girl that wants to fix.

we are the type that can only write emotions in words and metaphors.

it's real.

_rawrz @ 2008-04-14T13:55:00

2008-04-14T18:57:29Z

i found him.

amazing!

seriously, i've never felt this way before. haha...

_rawrz @ 2008-04-06T20:45:00

2008-04-07T01:46:43Z

i am caught between two guys with the same name.

but offer two different things.

woah, shit.

_rawrz @ 2008-03-30T21:51:00

2008-03-31T02:52:14Z

god works in mysterious ways.

_rawrz @ 2008-03-27T15:31:00

2008-03-27T20:35:47Z

my body is fucking with me so bad.

my anxiety is at an all time high.

like if I was always like this I would be CRAZY.

constant racing heart, upset stomach, acid reflex, ocd, not being able to sleep. sleeping too much, not being able to eat normally, twitches/spasms(eyes mostly), worried about stupid shit, not caring about important things, making irrational things about people, & stress.

JUST STOPPPPPPP.

_rawrz @ 2008-03-25T21:58:00

2008-03-26T03:07:45Z

a poem I wrote awhile ago for a class.

Best Friend.
someone so opposite but just like you
finally someone to talk to
share every feeling and story to
always by your side telling you
if you did the right thing
advice on family, boys, and life
talk for hours about your day
share your true emotions
finally you have a person who understands you
someone who is always there for you
fights quickly turn into forgiveness
the only person who knows who you truely are
a best friend
the one you can count on.

_rawrz @ 2008-03-22T14:43:00

2008-03-22T19:47:50Z

it totally felt like summer all over again yesterday. it was so nostolgic for me. hahaha.

i miss it so much!
plus the cherry on top of all of this is i got to see chris.

i love 11:11.

lyric heavy.

2008-03-11T01:59:13Z

You say you searching for somebody
That'll take you out and do you right
Well come here baby and let daddy show you what it feel like
You know all you gotta do is tell me what you sippin' on
And I promise that I’m gonna keep it comin’ all night long

Lookin’ in your eyes while you on the other side
And I think miss shorty I’ve got a thing for you
Doin’ it on purpose Windin and workin’ it
I can tell by the way you lookin’ at me girl

I wanna make love in this club (in this club in this club)
I wanna make love in this club (in this club in this club)

Got some friends rollin’ wit you baby then thats cool (thats cool, thats cool)
You can leave em wit my niggaz let em know that I got you (got u, got u)
If you didn’t know, you’re the only thing that’s on my mind (my mind, my mind)
Cos the way you staring miss you got me wantin to give it to you all night

Lookin’ in your eyes while you on the other side
I cant take it no more baby im comin for you
You keep doin’ it on purpose whindin and workin’ it
If we close our eyes it could be just me and you

I wanna make love in this club (in this club in this club)
I wanna make love in this club (in this club in this club)
I wanna make love in this club (in this club in this club)
I wanna make love in this club (in this club in this club)

I’m what you want, I’m what you need
He got you trapped, I’ll set you free
Sexually, mentally, physically, emotionally
I’ll be like your medicine, you’ll take every dose of me
It’s going down on isle 3. I’ll bag you like some groceries
And every time you think about it you gon’ want some more of me
Bout to hit the club, make a movie yeah rated R
Pulled up like a trap star, thats if you had
(in the car) Have you ever made love to a thug in the club with his sights on?
87 Jeans and a fresh pair of Nikes on
On the couch, on the table, on the bar, or on the floor
You can meet me in the bathroom yeah you know I’m tryna go

Might as well give me a kiss, if we keep touchin like this
i know you scared baby, They dont know what we doin
Lets both get undressed right here, keep it up girl i swear, imma give it to you non stop
and i dont care, who's watchin...watchin...watchin
(watchin watchin...ohhhh...in this club, on the floor, baby's just makin love)

I wanna make love in this club (in this club in this club)
I wanna make love in this club (in this club in this club)

_rawrz @ 2008-03-09T15:22:00

2008-03-09T20:25:26Z

Another Sunday for a weak end
Struck from the bed head first the arrow
Contact that carried further distance
Where were you when you were here?
Some memories often not quite remembered
Some memories remain stains
Train trackstar love of golf club hunting
X marks the reason X marks the reason
Sometimes the colors of my words
Upset the colors in your head
Every Sunday warning
Come back Casa Blanco
Winter was our killer, everywhere
So long and lovely
Head for the comfort of your comfort
I don't believe I still believe you
Held for the last time
Held long lasting until whether we were at all
Every Sunday morning
There's an early warning
To the way we are
Used to talk for hours
In the arctic showers of a driving rain
Almost lost control of our medicative holds
One winter wonder year
We could cut our eyes out
We could cut our eyes
But through all the changes
It's the end that made us made us
What we are so you say
The feelings remain
Face the fall we fall just the same
This is how we fall
This is how we fall

Night is young and so am i

2008-03-07T02:12:47Z

first entry, how exciting!

thanks sonya. haha