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we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get
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[22 Dec 2007|04:23am] |
One of my all time favorite things to do is to either convince you that I care, or to convince you that I don't care. This varies from day to day and even from conversation to conversation. I have a lot of little empty lines that I like to use when I'm trying to pretend that I care, and even more empty lines that I use when I'm trying to pretend that I don't. I generally try not to blow people off if they feel the need to dump their pent up shit on me, because if you need an ear I'm here for listening purposes. However, I'm reaching maximum capacity on the number of secrets I can hold before I spontaneously combust and end up spilling them all over the place.
Sweet things about life at this moment
- Warm weather
- Good friends
- A lovely lady
- Christmas and presents
- Holiday treats like egg nog and pie
- No drama of my own
Not so sweet things about life at this moment
- Eventually returning to the cold
- Good friends in not so good places
- A lovely lady being far away
- Jewish friends who don't celebrate Christmas
- Feeling sick from holiday treats like egg nog and pie
- Lots of drama not of my own
The last thing on my mind right now should be other peoples problems but they are unavoidable. Some peoples problems become mine without saying. Those problems aren't problems if they belong to someone who matters. Some people force their problems onto everyone. Tis the season to be jolly. Please stop bothering me with your bullshit until after the new year. I am trying to enjoy my tropical island homeland. I left the mainland behind to find some peace and calm. I am looking for some clarity and I'm not finding what I need when I can't seem to leave behind the mess.
I am missing people like Billvy and Santi Carden and our good friend Michael Guy Chislett. As much as I would love to stay here in St. John forever I am also looking forward to the time when we are all reunited again and will really begin the process of album number 3.
I saw Hard Candy. Fucking good. I saw Juno. Fucking good.
I can't believe that mini Spears is pregnant.
Happy Holidays,
Your friend, Adam Siska
Adam T Siska's song of the day: Christmastime - the Smashing Pumpkins
Adam T Siska's name drop of the day: Victoria Asher
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| that's me in the corner |
[18 Nov 2007|01:19pm] |
i have come to realize the following...
- Sobe green tea is too sweet and doesn't have enough minty flavor, just like those Mojitos bill got that didn't have enough mojito
- Holiday Cookie air fresheners may smell better than actual holiday cookies but they just make you hungry
- breaking your bass sucks. breaking your face sucks even more.
- girls are more trouble then they're worth but i already knew that
- winning an award and being called famous all in the same week is scary
i was in a gas station the other day with the Butcher and the rest of our friends. he and i were buying drinks and i had Sobe green tea for the first time in my life. we were standing in line and the chick ringing things up was taking a really long time, talking to these dudes she obviously knew and we were getting kind of impatient. the kid behind us was too because he eventually walked right out of the store with his Doritos and Dr. pepper and the chick was too busy flirting with her boys to even notice. neither the butcher or myself even said a word.
tour is coming to a close and i have to say the Sleeping With Giants tour was everything i could have imagined it to be. the past two weeks have been some of the craziest in my life, but also some of the best. i will be sad to see it end, but i will be glad to have some time off at home in Chicago to see friends and family and to prepare for the holidays. i don't know what my family has planned yet but i know that we have a show with our friends in Fall Out Boy in December to celebrate the holiday season.
it has come to my attention lately that a lot of things have started to change. a lot of my very good friends are very happy right now and have a lot of wonderful things happening in their lives. i am really happy for them, but i am sad to see that some people are letting things in their lives change them. i recently had a problem with a girl that i was afraid was trying to change me but with some talks things got figured out and in the end Sisky Biz came out on top.
i still haven't seen Across the universe. total bummer. i still haven't heard Britney's new flop. total bummer.
that's all i have for you this week, readers. i am distracted by Bill talking about religion and hypocrites and i think it's time for some lunch.
adam t siska's song of the day: losing my religion - REM
adam t siska's name drop of the day: Damian Fahey
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| we need your escape |
[05 Nov 2007|09:47pm] |
so this post is going to be all over the place and will hopefully make you rethink the way you look at me as a person.
i've been doing a lot of thinking lately about a lot of things in my life. so many things are so great right now. touring is wonderful of course. we are all enjoying the sleeping with giants tour and getting to spend our days hanging out with our good friends from armor for sleep, the rocket summer, and sherwood and of course our new addition cobra starship. the shows are some of the best we have ever had the honor of playing and it has been great to meet so many new friends and too see old ones along the way. this tour is one of our longest and best we have ever done and it will be sad when it finally comes to an end. sometimes i feel like i've accomplished all i can in my life and that what i'm doing at the time is the best thing i've ever done, and then life comes back to kick me in the ass and surprise me with something even better.
everything i do has a purpose. i said that just now to some friends and i feel like there isn't anything more true. too many people walk through their lives without looking at what's going on around them or without ever really doing anything. some people i know never think about their actions or their words and then they hurt people. but everything i do i do with a reason. if i say something that hurts you i was probably trying to hurt you and i'm not sorry. if i tell you something nice i am not bullshitting you, i mean what i say and i say what i mean. i think that pretty much covers it.
a lot is changing right now. i am changing. soon i will no longer be a teenager and while it was fun to spend this last year being as angsty as possible in order to go out with a bang, i am ready for this project to end. i have had a lot of angst this year, i guess it came to balance out the good. a lot of it was my own creation, but a lot of it was caused by girls. a lot of times girls can be pretty rad but other times girls can be a lot of work. it's hard to see something that you worked hard at for so long come apart in front of you, even if you know it's for the best. it's hard when you want to hold someone and you are missing them but you know that you never will again. of course we will always be friends but it's different afterwards. i'm starting t sound like a pussy now so i'll talk about something badass.
recently we were on trl with our good friends ben, anthony, pj, and nash from armor for sleep. they were debuting their video for williamsburg and i was showing off my santi tattoo. maybe you saw it. on november 8 we will be attending the mtvu woodie awards. we are nominated for two awards. i think winning something would be pretty sweet. our fans have been nothing but amazing about voting for us and i know we all appreciate them more than anyone can possibly know.
anyway, i love pizza and i love the butcher. good night.
adam t siska song of the day: chemicals - armor for sleep
adam t siska name drop of the day: perez hilton
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