sometimes, i wonder why i came back to new york city. i mean i know i came because i missed riley and i missed our old golden days but there's days i wake up here and feel like i'm lost. sometimes, i feel lonely. she has her own life now, it's not the same like before, where we spent every waking hour together doing stupid things. i miss my best friend. she's still the same but she's different now. she's a bit more responsible and mature. she is with roxan and that girl matters to her, so she won't be reckless with me and i respect that. i mean when you find something that matters in your life, you shouldn't fuck it up?

but i miss my partner in crime, like clothes miss lady gaga these days. (i know i'm not the only one that noticed she's always running around barely clothed now right?) i guess everybody gets lonely these days. this is a lonely ass world. everything is cold and emotionless. so what i fuck a bunch of girls every week? i still get bored and sometimes lonely. that is why, i decided to bring one of my friends from texas to live with me. her name is ruthie anne. super country or whatever right? nah but she's a fucking blast. we use to get drunk and run around with rifles and shoot shit.

i spent the day shopping for her room. it's going to be amazing. i got so many things. i made it real western themed or whatever. that's my kick ass desperado. she knew how to have fun when there wasn't shit to do. we made something to do. it was weird, the bars there had crazy tranny shemales with donkey dicks. i dont know but she was always really cool.



that's a picture of the cowgirl right there. we ride bitches like we're at a rodeo. like she would say "giddy up...or giddy down." yeah but she is pretty awesome. she should be here by the 26th of this month so. that's like thursday right? i guess. i'd check my calender but the last girl i fucked ripped it off the wall and i'm not sure what happened after that...if she ate it to stop from screaming or shoved it up her ass but it's not here anymore.

oh and if you're wondering about the girl i mentioned before who's my match. mmm well i been dreaming about fucking her still. i'm almost there. i had shoved her against the wall in the back alley and was finally kissing her and everything was going great, until they tried to mug us. so we stopped getting all hot and heavy and got hot and violent instead, we set that fucker and his friends on fire. damn, i want to marry her. i never met another pyro that was without the freddy krueger type burns.

he ran and looked like....a shooting star i guess. so i made a wish. then when i finally turned around she was on her motorcycle and blew me a kiss and totally ditched me. whatever, i know she's into me. i like that she runs like that. it's pretty hot. i like that she doesn't just give in like everybody else. she's special.

anyway....RUTHIE is staying on the same floor as me. she's gonna take the guest bedroom. as you may know, there's 6 floors here. i finally now have someone to use the attic with. i'm going to turn that into the spy room. i swear, it'll be the surveillance room, i'm going to hook up security cameras and everything around and be able to see in that room what's going on. and i'm going to have a telescope to spy on the universe while everyone is sleeping. and i'm going to have binoculars to spy on my neighbors and catch them having sex by their windows or maybe catch them catching me having sex by my window...or something OUTSTANDING like that.

i'll have someone at my house always, to fucking do cool shit with. like....my house is so fucking cool with so much cool shit in it, but no one to really do cool shit with. because riley's too busy sucking roxan's face because they dont suck each other's pu------nching bags. hahaaaaa...

but yeah, watch i bet when ruthie's here we'll have fucking movie nights and shoot outs right in the second floor and have orgies. guns or orgies! gorgies!