My PayPal balance is growing   
01:38pm 21/11/2008
 
mood: profiting
music: Feast of Fools - FOF #885 - Chock Full of Nuts - 11.21.08
I'm mercifully unhungover, despite my Amarula-and-Valium adventure last night. Yay!

Sold the Monsterbait: Underpants on eBay last night. Sad to see it go, but money is money, and right now, if I do get $150 from my mom's side of the family and $100 Amazon gift certificate from my dad (which is my usual holiday loot) I can get an Eee 1000HA outright! Also put the spare bottle of Chanukkiyah on eBay and added Te Po to my sales post, if any of you are interested.

I need to go to the post office to mail the Underpants, but I'm waiting on Maintenance to come fix my heater so I can't leave yet :(		  
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why why why   
05:59am 21/11/2008
 
mood: ditzy
music: Coast to Coast AM
I crawled off to bed around 1 am with 40mg of Valium and a few drinks under my belt and I woke up before 5 am WHAT THE FUCK.

Put my Monsterbait: Underpants up on eBay. Wondering if I should put the Chanukkiyah spare bottle up there as well.

Thankfully nothing from the BPTP update is tempting me. I am still wibbling over Candy Phoenix, though.

I have butterscotch/vanilla shots I got at Spec's... maybe I should have one... I'm in no mood to be clearheaded.

But I'm doing not so bad. Maintenance is supposed to come today to fix my lack of hot water in the kitchen (totally his fault), broken heater, and stiff backdoor lock (get your mind out of the gutter). My wrenched knee still hurts but it's not swollen or anything. I am looking grotesquely forward to getting an Eee. Falernum is tasty and makes me want to mix Tiki drinks. Cream of coconut, falernum, and a little spiced rum, what could go wrong?

Not having a blender, cream of coconut, or rum puts a cramp in that.

God, this entry makes me sound like a lush.		  
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MOSTLY a nice afternoon/evening   
08:40pm 20/11/2008
 
mood: high
So, got to hang with [info]doombuggie this afternoon. Had an awesome time! We had a yummy meal at Jason's, some iced coffee at Epoch, hit Home Depot so he could get a watering can, went to Spec's (a big liquor/fancy foods store) for some goodies, HEB for some normal groceries, Walgreens for my Valium, and Earthbound for some crabs.

Wonderfully fun time, except in HEB, I saw my ex-husband... we walked right by him in the soda aisle. No words were exchanged, but I could tell he recognized me. Oh god oh god I am so glad I was not alone, or dressed schlumpily (I was rockin' a HolyClothing minidress and black leggings, which is my new favorite look). But oh god oh god oh god. I hadn't seen him since the divorce. I had thought that I would never see him again.

Well, after that we went to Walgreens and I downed two Valium right off. And when we were at Earthbound [info]doombuggie got me a crab to cheer me up. The crab in question is now named Dib.

The Valium is kicking in nicely, I feel comfortably blurred around the edges. If I still feel upset I have Amarula to mix with hot chocolate, or Keke Beach Key Lime Cream to mix with milk. I also have lots of good chocolate.		  
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At least I'm not pregnant   
08:40am 20/11/2008
 
mood: anxious
music: Still torturing myself with New Moon
Yep, took a peace-of-mind piss test to make sure W. hadn't knocked me up, got a nice soothing negative.

More inspection bullshit today. A bit of googling found me a local advocacy group. This may prove necessary.

I want this calendar for 2008 very badly. We'll see how my finances stand at the end of the month. They have a nifty LED menorah too.		  
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Yeah, I post a lot when I'm in a Mood. Deal.   
11:57pm 19/11/2008
 
mood: blank
The thing about listening to any of the Twilight books in audio...

Every time someone says "Bella", I follow it up with "...Lugosi's dead".

Bug or feature?


I'm debating getting a rename token for [info]i_am_an_hero. When I apped him, I didn't think he'd be more than a fringe cracky character, but now he's my fave of all the ones I play and he's made so much progress that having a mean 4chan joke about suicide for a username seems inappropriate. I dunno.

Ah well. Time for Coast to Coast and, I think, bed.		  
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Displacement   
08:56pm 19/11/2008
 
mood: emo
Made a promise to [info]doombuggie that I wouldn't self-injure through to the end of the year.

So I'm listening to the audiobook of New Moon instead.		  
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This is vital.   
07:38pm 19/11/2008
 
mood: discontent
music: Tony C. Smith - StarShipSofa Aural Delights No 51 Jeff VanderMeer mp3
I require pumpkin pie. This is not negotiable.

And, I don't know. But the pie is necessary.		  
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Sheesh.   
04:08pm 19/11/2008
 
mood: angry
The stuff they bitch about in the housekeeping inspection is petty and ridiculous. And they blow off "I'm disabled and I'm working with an agency to get assistance".		  
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09:48pm 18/11/2008
  Would it be bad to apply for a credit card?  
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Can I hate the world now?   
06:05pm 18/11/2008
 
mood: aggravated
I talked, finally, to the woman from the agency that does the visiting cleaning assistance. They'd closed my file! So I have to go throug the intake interview again. And she got snotty to me about my cats. Emptying litterboxes? Not one of the things they do.

Oh, for fuck's sake.

It's all so annoying. I need something to make me smile.		  
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Just as I thought...   
01:25pm 18/11/2008
 
mood: annoyed
music: Dan Savage - Savage Love Episode 109
...I called my mom on the quilt thing, and she totally blew it off. I'd sent her a chatty email (because I didn't want it to be all YOU NEVER MADE ME A QUILT RAWR) and I got a two-sentence response about a totally different topic.

This is why I don't try to connect with her on any serious level.

On the plus side, I slept through the LJ downtime.		  
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BPAL update, oh dear   
06:37am 18/11/2008
 
mood: tempted
music: Feast of Fools - FOF #882 - Rev. Straight Talks About Prop. 8 - 11.18.08
*wibble*

Candy Phoenix and Beaver'versary are very tempting.

Well, I'll have at least a little while to consider.		  
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A moment of cheer   
04:50pm 17/11/2008
 
mood: blah
music: Feast of Fools - FOF #881 - Eric Lutz is SO Gay - 11.17.08
My replacement backpack is here. It smells very new. The red spikes are a decently deep crimson, and show up more than the purple spikes. I'm glad to not be without a spiky backpack, it's just too cute to not have.

And hey, it'll go well with my plaid sneakers, which I am still working on breaking in.		  
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Meh. Just meh.   
11:29pm 16/11/2008
 
mood: cranky
music: Coast to Coast AM
I'm considering putting my Monsterbait: Underpants on eBay. I love it and losing it would be sad, but it'd get a good price and I do need money for my netbook. I suppose I should wait and see what I get moneywise from the family for the holidays.

Thanksgiving, of course, is coming up. I dread the hell out of it. Chances are I will load myself up with valium and just ignore it. It always ranges from mildly annoying to utterly horrific.

W. never called back. It's more a blow to my pride than actually upsetting, but it's enough to tip off a moodswing, and knowing intellectually that feeling bad is a moodswing doesn't make it any more pleasant.

I just don't know what I want right now.

On the upside, my new spiky backpack should come tomorrow.		  
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Self-pity   
12:18pm 16/11/2008
 
mood: sad
I just got an email from my mom this morning.

Some background; my mom quilts. When I was a kid she saved up fabrics in my favorite colors to make a quilt for me "when I was old enough to take care of it".

And of course, that never happened.

In the email I got this morning, she told me she was making a quilt for my cousin's impending baby.

I am debating calling her on it.

And Winamp serves me up ( this song ).


The knife, it is twisted.

I'm not sure what to do.		  
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Good crabby news!   
09:47pm 15/11/2008
 
mood: relieved
I know it's not a good idea to dig out crabs that are burrowed down, but I didn't have a heater for the kritter keeper so I sought out Magenta to put her in the main tank. She appears to be alive and well!		  
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Couldn't you just MELT?   
06:53pm 15/11/2008
   
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Whee!   
05:34pm 15/11/2008
 
mood: silly
The Conjure Oils Holiday Blends are up. They all sound yummy. Except for Little Match Girl, eww.

I need a Conjure Oils icon. Or at least a general-smellies icon. To Google Image Search I go!		  
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*flop*   
02:55pm 15/11/2008
  Home from the protest. I stayed as long as I could handle; the organizer said during her speech that she estimated the crowd at 3,000 people. That's a lot of people for me to handle. I stayed through all the speakers but left before the march to the capitol; I was stressing from the crowd and my feet and back hurt. But I was there, and I'll always be able to say I was there.  
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Because I can be sheeplike at times...   
11:04am 14/11/2008
  I think I've seen this about a dozen times on my flist. So, why not...


If you saw ME in a police car, what would you think I got arrested for? Answer me, then post to your own journal and see how many crimes you get accused of.		  
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