CFBW: cedrella fabiana black weasley

013. BABY BOOMING

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 05:49:36 GMT

On the baby front, I'm not sick anymore but I've gone wee more times this morning than I've gone in an entire day. I've grown huge as houses, and I don't want to believe that it gets worse, that I'll get larger in the weeks to come. I'm sure I look hideous (you can't ever deny it, Sep, I refuse to listen), I haven't gone out in days. There's not much else to report on my end but-

Oh, I nearly forgot: now I can feel the baby move! It's amazing, to feel him (I'm positive it's a he, I just know it--he's as persistent as Septimus) pressing against my belly. I like putting my hand there whenever he starts in, it's like a little thump against my hand, like he knows it's Mummy there and he's impatient to see everyone and everything. Sep's mum was there the first time I felt the baby move, and we both cried--from happiness, of course.

PRIVATE TO C3
But as much as I love being here and appreciate Septimus' family for putting up with me, I still wish I might have had this moment with my own family. For all our differences and arguments I can't help but- I'm still scared and I'd rather I wasn't going through this without you all. Mum included.

012. Apologies

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 06:17:03 GMT

PRIVATE TO LUCRETIA
Lucretia,

I wish to apologise for my unruly behaviour in the last few days. I wish I could say I didn't know what came over me, but the truth is I've been extremely careless and offensive in my increasing days as a soon-to-be mother. I hope you can understand at least a modicum of what I'm going through, having lost everything in one fell swoop and how to learn to live without all that I once had. I also hope that you believe me sincere with this apology, because I truly did not mean to make such a scene. I hope this letter finds you well.

Fondly,
Cedrella Weasley

010. NEW BEGINNINGS

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 04:42:00 GMT

It's all finished now.

PRIVATE TO CALLIDORA AND CHARIS
I spoke with our parents and though it was not as terrible as I imagined it could be, it was still very unpleasant. I am no longer welcome in our family's home, and Mother said I am never to speak to her again. That was to be expected.

PRIVATE TO SELF
I don't know what I was expecting, exactly. I thought Daddy would be more reasonable, that he'd be able to see past all of this trite nonsense. I thought he loved me more than all of that, or at least enough to look at this as me choosing what makes me happy. Why did he refuse to say a word to me, or even look at me? Am I never to speak to him again? What about my sisters? I promised that sisterhood would last forever, no matter what. And yet I find myself in a position where some choices have been made for me and I've made my choices upon those positions. I am not despicable because I love a certain person who doesn't meet his and Mother's standards. I am finished. This is finished.

009. BABIES

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 07:45:44 GMT

PRIVATE TO CHARIS
Charis, I have something really important to tell you, because I know I can trust you.

PRIVATE TO SEPTIMUS
Nolan believes I should tell Charis first, which I will. I'm telling Charis, and I wasn't sure how to tell Callidora until just a bit ago. My parents are another story entirely. I think we should tell them together--what do you think? Additionally, Nolan offered to give us starting money. What are your thoughts on that?

PRIVATE TO CALLIDORA
Do you remember when we were growing up, all three of us said we'd get married, have babies and visit one another with our beautiful babies?

008. BETTER HEALTH

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 05:59:44 GMT

PRIVATE TO SEPTIMUS
I'm feeling better. No Healers.

007. HOUSE GNOMES

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 04:46:57 GMT

Hah! Victory is MINE.

006. RECONNECTIONS

Mon, 04 Feb 2008 19:46:14 GMT

PRIVATE TO CALLIDORA
Callidora, are you still upset?
END PRIVATE

PRIVATE TO CHARIS
Charis, how are your studies going? You're not falling too deep into the library, are you? You should make the best of everything by sticking around with friends; as enjoyable as they are, books will only carry conversation so far when your friends are interested in other things.

I wanted to ask you a question about something important. Callidora and I had a bit of a disagreement, and I'm concerned she's taking it to heart. Has she said anything to you? Or has Nolan, for that matter?
END PRIVATE

005. CHASTISEMENTS

Fri, 01 Feb 2008 07:31:02 GMT

PRIVATE TO CLOSE FRIENDS AND FAMILY
Kevin Broadmoor is an absolute disgrace; I'm not talking about his blood or what-have-you, I'm talking about his personality. He's a cad, and I can't stand him, or the way he treats women, or the way he treats anybody! He's revolting, and judging from the way he writes, I can't even believe he's still in Hogwarts. He just sounds so uneducated that I can hardly believe he's bright enough to still be there.
END PRIVATE

PRIVATE TO CALLIDORA
Calli, dear, you do realise that it's not Nolan's fault, and you shouldn't yell at him? I only ask because he seems to be under the impression that he's to leave me alone, as per your instructions, and that's not on. Nolan and I are friends, and I don't appreciate you trying to set the terms of that relationship. Please apologise to Nolan at the next available opportunity.
END PRIVATE

004. ILLNESS

Thu, 31 Jan 2008 05:23:40 GMT

SOMEWHAT WEAK PRIVACY HEX TO SEPTY
~~I am so sick--~~ Can we meet another day, Sep?

003. WEDDING PLANS

Fri, 25 Jan 2008 05:13:21 GMT

PRIVATE TO SEPTY
For the wedding, I think yellow roses, and yellow dresses for maid of honour, would be suitable. What do you think, Sep? We also need to begin composing a guest list for the ceremony and the after party. I'm making a presumption now, but I reckon most of my family and friends won't be there.

END PRIVATE

002. APOLOGIES AND NON-APOLOGIES

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 05:16:10 GMT

PRIVATE TO CASSIOPEIA
I won't forgive you for the things you said. They were mean-spirited, cruel, and unbefitting of any polite conversation. You should have kept your opinions to yourself, Cassiopeia, and though I think you owe an apology to Septimus, I know you're too proud of an individual to actually do it. So neither shall I apologise for what I said in retaliation to you. It's a closed issue, as far as I'm concerned, and I will not mention a word of what you said again, and I expect you to abide this agreement.
END PRIVATE

PRIVATE TO CALLIDORA
I just wrote to Cassiopeia. Hopefully this will be a closed chapter.
END PRIVATE

I hate it when Lysandra tells me what I'm going to do. I'm twenty years old, I'm an adult by wizarding standards and I am fully capable of making decisions for myself. If I don't want to go to Diagon Alley for a day of shopping, I expect to do something other than that. And yet this is seemingly an issue that required lots of arguing and shouting and broken things before she left me alone.

001. DINNER AND ENGAGEMENT

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 04:47:23 GMT

I had dinner with Septy last week at this really lovely place we saw on New Years and it was absolutely delightful though ~~I worried he might not be able to afford~~ it was so cold, and so wet. I had to cast a few quick spells to keep my shoes from getting wet.

I miss my sisters since they've gone back to Hogwarts and once again I'm left to wonder at how empty this house becomes once they've left. I'm the only one up here and it's like a bloody dungeon. I've been talking to the mirror for company, for Merlin's sake! I might go down to the kitchens and make a pot of tea since I haven't been feeling well for a few days. I think I might have caught something.