she moves through moonbeams slowly

crazyferblink @ 2008-11-08T14:12:00

2008-11-08T18:12:48Z

i finished my RIT application today and submitted it.
now i wait.

& yesterday was mine and jason's 3 month anniversary =)
he got me red roses and sponge candy
he's awesome.

crazyferblink @ 2008-10-26T13:54:00

2008-10-26T17:54:07Z

i was doing my euro homework and i thought of how the 4 reasons for the fall of empires also applies to greatestjournal...

-too big
-failure to modernize
-wars and revolts
-nationalism

it's mostly the first 2. but still.

i'll post an actual update sometime.

crazyferblink @ 2008-09-13T23:31:00

2008-09-14T03:32:55Z

grr sarah palin. why would you vote against a road that connects alaska to russia? can you say COOLEST THING EVER?!?!

i hope obama wins.

crazyferblink @ 2008-09-04T20:48:00

2008-09-05T00:50:50Z

i miss AP bio =(

unless you have friends among fish. but there'll still be no air to breathe.

2008-09-02T19:45:18Z

holy fuck. i used the wrong form of "there" in my away message. and it's been that way for 3 hours. i'm so ashamed of myself. "they're'll still be no air to breathe"?! what's wrong with mee?!?!
and this afternoon, my phone didn't know the word "sundae" so i just typed "sunday."
hahaha i'm such a nerd.

i went to school today bc i had an appointment with my counselor. the original plan was to take a class instead of having late arrival, but then jason told me that he has late arrival on even days too, so i figured i'd just make something up to tell my parents and keep my late arrival. then jason texted me and said that he read his schedule wrong, and only has late arrival on odd days. so i went back to the counselor and signed up for accounting for block 1 even. and jason said he'd drive me to school on even days. =D
so i'm still happy.
i sorta wanted to take accounting anyways.

BUT i have AP Euro first block TOMORROW, and i still have to finish doing that homework. i didn't realize how long it would take...
and this hw better be due tomorrow. because i have better things i could be doing today.

crazyferblink @ 2008-08-21T18:52:00

2008-08-21T22:52:42Z

this afternoon, i was laying on my bed, and it hit me.

this is my life.

crazyferblink @ 2008-08-18T02:20:00

2008-08-18T06:21:05Z

haha. i win.

crazyferblink @ 2008-08-12T23:05:00

2008-08-13T03:06:02Z

ok seriously.
what the FUCK is your problem?

crazyferblink @ 2008-08-10T00:06:00

2008-08-10T04:07:02Z

my original plan was to go slow for awhile.
....oops.

crazyferblink @ 2008-08-09T13:08:00

2008-08-09T17:09:12Z

he is so cute.
i love it.

crazyferblink @ 2008-08-04T10:29:00

2008-08-04T14:30:20Z

it's august and the clock is ticking on so many things.

=D

2008-07-30T23:38:46Z

i am always where i need to be
and i always knew i would end up with you eventually

what's that sound, it's so loud.

2008-07-06T01:40:03Z

this cannot be happening to me.
not now.

i can't just leave for 2 weeks in the midst of all this.

i'll keep it simple for obvious reasons.

2008-07-05T19:37:12Z

all i really wanna do
Is tear straight into you
explode, unload a hail of insults
until you finally
get it.

the situation isn't getting any better.

2008-07-04T03:12:17Z

i just don't know.
=/

crazyferblink @ 2008-06-29T23:23:00

2008-06-30T03:24:50Z

you knew days before i did. so don't give me any of that "why didn't you say something sooner?" shit.
since when is it MY responsibility?
you could have done something sooner too.
fuck you.

crazyferblink @ 2008-06-27T19:12:00

2008-06-27T23:25:41Z

this is probably my favorite part of the book.

"And my sister started talking about how the way a woman looks is not the most important thing. I agreed, but then my brother started saying how my sister was just a "bitchy dyke." Then, my mom told my brothe rnot to use such language in front of me, which was strange considering I am probably the only one in the family with a friend who is gay. Maybe not, but one who actually talks about it. I'm not sure."
a paragraph later-
"I asked my brother if Kelly drank cocoa.
"Are you high?"
And again my mom asked my brother not to use such language in front of me, which was strange again because I think I'm the only person in my family who's ever been high. Maybe also my brother. I'm not sure. Definitely not my sister. Then again, maybe my whole family has been high, and we just don't tell each other these things."

and they're all made out of ticky-tacky and they all look just the same.

2008-06-27T04:03:45Z

things used to be a different way
whatever happened to the golden age?
it's gone, yeah it's gone away
so don't ever turn your back again
(one false move and we're all dead)

here i am, here i am, here i am
i'm back at the crossroads again
oh let me stand, let me stand, let me stand
on top of the mountain again

i wanna walk away
remember better days
we watched the death of something beautiful.

....just don't ask.

breathe deep and easy.

2008-06-23T02:21:25Z

1) this morning, my mom told me and my brother that our family had to "eat more fruits and vegetables." so we picked what fruit we wanted with dinner. then, me and my mom went tanning, then to wegmans.
my mom is the most annoying person to do grocery shopping with.
she's used to going by herself so there's never room for me to stand somewhere. so i just kinda chill and block the aisles. and she constantly backs up when i'm behind her and makes sudden turns. all sorts of stuff. it drives me crazy. so i was standing behind her just being miserable. and i was looking at the back of her shirt and it seemed kinda weird. so finally i said, "is your shirt on backwards?"
and it was. she put it on backwards when she was done tanning. it was so embarassing. i don't think anyone else noticed though.
then when we were in the checkout line, we spent like $5 on discontinued candy because it was on sale.

2) Rise Against are currently working on another album. i'm so excited. you don't understand.
i still have to get the This is Noise EP....it came out in january...but it's digital only. jerks.
but it used to only be available in canada. so i'm happy.

i kinda wanna move to canada when i'm older.

OH MY GOD THAT ALSO MEANS THEY'LL BE TOURING SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-DIES-

oh and...i had this really creepy/scary dream last night.
i was watching the discovery channel in my living room and it was about how the world's gonna end. and it sped up what would happen to the oceans so it would all be crammed into 4 days. so on day one, the guy says that there will be a huge tidal wave, then the ocean level will drop. and the tv shows the oceans swelling and people screaming. then the water level drops and people are stranded on huge cliffs and it shows this terrible ocean below them. and then it zooms in on this guy in his car, stuck on a ledge. and he's screaming and his skin is turning brownish tan and papery. and it just stays on that. and you can see the ocean 100 feet below just churning and looking violent.
then it talks about day 2. and all of a sudden, i'm there and it's actually happening to me. i don't know where the rest of my family was. but we lived in a house on the lake. on an isthmus. so there was lake on either side of the house. and the water level's rising again. this random family drives up and asks if they can stay there too. so i said yes but that it wasn't safe. and i was gonna go walk down the road back to the mainland but it was flooding. so now the water's up to the porch. i'm crying and my sister calls my cell phone. so i start crying into the phone and telling her that i love her and to tell everyone else that i love them too because i knew i was gonna die. the last thing i saw was the water rising out the window.

then i woke up in a cold sweat.

no one listens to the damned

2008-06-21T01:16:00Z

i knew you had it in you.

or rather...didn't.

-snicker-

why would you even think to say that?

2008-06-11T01:54:58Z

at least i tell the truth.

realization.

2008-06-09T02:37:30Z

i should have been nicer to people in my grade.

you never hear of any seed deprived of sunlight.

2008-06-07T02:29:17Z

summer retreat is usually the first weekend in august.
it got changed this year. to july 25-27.
guess who's plane lands at midnight on the 26th?

i've talked to my parents and there's no way i can come home early. our last stop is in the rocky mountains and it's 3 hours to the nearest airport.
so i'll probably have someone pick me up at the airport and take me to retreat. because people will still be up at 1 am.
but i'll miss friday and saturday.

i start crying just thinking about it.

sunday's going to be terrible.

all my friends are leaving.

and in case you were wondering...

2008-05-11T14:47:22Z

well uhh...prom was fun.

i'm super pumped for ball.
life is wonderful.

crazyferblink @ 2008-04-21T21:48:00

2008-04-22T01:51:28Z

i like boys with strong convictions.