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Tue, 09 Feb 2010 23:06:12 GMT

Today, I got a lucky break. One of my sponsors ended up rescheduling a photoshoot that was suppose to be today. So I got to stay home! Maddy and I took Atticus to his preschool. The Manhattan Nursery School. Right now, I'm trying to just spend time with Maddy because recently I haven't been getting the chance to. She's in the shower at the moment because some random pigeon decided to poop on her. I think that's suppose to be like good luck or something. Or that bird had the ultimate runs or it's like a creepy I know what you did last summer kind of moment, except the poop touched her instead of her touching the poop.

There is suppose to be a very big snow storm tonight!!! So at 12:30 we picked up Atty from school. That's the time he gets out everyday, so no we didn't pick him up early because the storm. We picked him up and took him to see Maddy's uncle! He has his own recreation center/sports center. It's like a Chelsea Piers without the boats.

There's an ice skating rink, gymnastics area, soccer field, hockey arena, bowling, track and field, everything! Atty actually loves it there. He seems really happy around Maddy and her Uncle Jack. Atty gets extra special treatment when he goes there. Whenever he decides he wants to play anything there, he gets to do it and he gets his own uniform and locker. I hear that he's playing soccer with the team and Maddy. It's crazy. He's a little king. Jack adores him and so does Maddy. He has his own bowling ball and brand new bowling shoes. He has a locker for every department basically.

So he had a lot of fun. Right now, he's eating a Jello Chocolate and Vanilla Swirls pudding for snack. We're about to go grocery shopping and stock up on some certain snacks and foods for him, and some big dinner items. We're planning on staying up tonight to watch some movies and we need to get more movie snacks and foods so we're just taking the Mazda and buying a bunch of stuff.

Here's a list of some important stuff.

Atticus Essentials
1. Jello Chocolate and Vanilla Swirls
2. Peanut Butter and Jelly
3. Golden Oreos
4. Pringles
5. Trail Mix
6. Mixed Nuts
7. Chocolate Milk
8. Fruit Juices
9. Polly-o Cheese Sticks
10. Chef Boyardee Microwavables - Spaghetti, Ravioli, Beeforoni,
11. Cold Cuts
12. Slice Bread
13. Fruit

Movie Snacks!
1. Popcorn
2. Reeses Pieces
3. M&Ms
4. Snickers
5. Canned Soda (Pepsi and Fanta Orange)
6. Ben & Jerry's Chocolate icecream with Fudge Brownies
7. Dibs
8. Bagel Bites
9. Haagen Dazs Vanilla and Butter Peacan
10. Doritos
11. Lays
12. Nachos
13. Different Sauces

Meat
1. Porkchops
2. Ground Beef
3. Chicken Wings
4. Chicken Cutlet
5. Whole Chicken
6. Steak
7. Turkey ( Like for coldcuts but not cut)
8. Popcorn Chicken
9. Bacon
10. Ribs
11. Pork
12. Sausage

More Food
1. Rice
2. Spaghetti Noodles
3. Bazed Ziti Noodles
4. Lasagna Noodles
5. Garlic
6. Mozarella Cheese
7. Ragu Meat Flavored Sauce
8. Ricotta Cheese

Other Stuff
1. Slice Bread
2. Italian Bread
3. Hot Pockets
4. Bag of Potatoes
5. Cake Mix
6. Brownie Mix
7. Cookie Dough
8. Frosting
9. Biscuits

So now that Maddy is done we're going to get ready to go. That's just a list of some of the things we're getting. We're stocking up for sure. Maddy is going to cook pasta tomorrow! Yum! Her pasta and garlic bread is delicious. I drool just thinking about it. I can't wait!

Tonight's movie night too! And wow, I didn't realize how much clothes Maddy and I ordered for Atticus. We have lots of boxes of stuff just for him. I think we got a little too carried away.

Tue, 26 Jan 2010 00:54:55 GMT

This vacation and time spent with Maddy has been the best time I've had in my life. I have never been so happy. But at the moment, instead of tell you about all the fun we had at Pinegrove Ranch..my mind wanders. There's so much on my mind. I'm kind of stressing out and I'm not sure what to do or say about all the things on my mind.

Tomorrow is Maddy's birthday. I'm really happy about that, but after her birthday I'll have to get back to work. Go back to working on my clothing line, my fragrance, and commercials for sponserships and photoshoots. I won't be able to spend all my time with Maddy. That's what makes me so stressed and sad. I feel wrong about it. Like I'm leaving her behind or something. But I'm not, I love her and she goes with me everywhere, we are always together..but for once..I'll be doing things by myself. She's not much for taking pictures so she never wants to do the photoshoots. My clothing line is girly, she doesn't dress girly..so it's like..I don't know. She hasn't said anything about it. Maybe I'm worrying too much?

It's not like she can't live without me. I mean she's usually just fine without me, I'm the one having a heart attack and going crazy. But I guess I'm just being silly. She hasn't really talked about what she's going to do during the time I'm away running around getting all this stuff done.

I wonder if this will change everything between us. What if it makes me a bad girlfriend? What if it seems like I never have any time for her? She isn't exactly the type to tell me something like that. If something bothers her emotionally she'll just close up. She won't talk about it. I just really hope everything is okay.

Just so much is happening right now. My aunt is really sick at the hospital and my mother called asking if my 3 year old cousin Atticus can stay living with me until the mother gets better. Which doesn't seem to be any time soon. We've been praying but she doesn't seem to get better. That's another thing I have to talk about with Maddy. My mother isn't in the kind of state or age to be taking care of a child and my aunt's boyfriend is a deadbeat and went when the going got tough. I doubt Maddy would mind. She's so good with kids believe it or not. But I have to talk about this with her before saying yes. This is her home after all. She let Riley move in with no problem but still. He's the cutest little boy in the universe. He is so spunky too. Maddy and Atty have never met but I bet if they did, they would get along perfectly.

I honestly wouldn't mind having the little guy around. We'd drop him off at his daycare and everything. We could turn my old room into a nice room for him to stay in because everyone knows I'm never in my room. I'm always in Maddy's room. Always Maddy and I. Always.

Hello Tomorrow!!

Sat, 09 Jan 2010 00:44:08 GMT

Yesterday, Maddy and I had such a wonderful time. It was such a beautiful and wonderful experience, it was an amazing surprise. She told me she had plans for me and that everything would be a surprise, just to trust her so I did. So around 3 or so in the afternoon I began to get ready and so did she. I took like two hours to get ready because I didn't know what to wear and I was really excited because she was being all mysterious and secretive. So at like 6 is when we went to the train station and bought our metro cards unlimited one day passes.

I was completely and utterly surprised. She had bought us tickets to the New York City Ballet..A Midsummer Night's Dream. She got us First Ring Front tickets. Okay, now you guys must be wondering, why did she even do something like that? And..why is this so important? So I'll explain. When we were in High School, there was a trip to the New York City Ballet and I was in love. Even though I struggled to see from where we sat, I was like a little kid in a candy store. It was like a fairytale. The dancers moved so beautifully, it was like a dream. Maddy pretended she was too cool to care and acted like she was sleeping. But I know she wasn't because I caught her peeking at me from under her baseball cap. But yes, I remember it, all of it. I had been so happy and excited I squeezed her hand and almost forgot to let it go. That was one of the first times I ever held her hand. She paid for the most expensive seats to make sure I sat at the best place and saw everything perfectly. She has always been the most generous and thoughtful person I have ever known. I held her hand through out the whole show and felt my heart racing. That is something that will never change. My heart will never stop racing when I am around her. I love her and adore her.

When the show was over, we talked about Shakespeare's A Midsummer Night's Dream and then the ballet itself. It was a mystical experience. It was just so..beautiful and breath taking. The show began at 7:30 and ended at 9:30. So then afterward, we took the train to 42nd Street, Times Square. I have always been in love with that place. I think it is secretly the center of the universe, it is so beautiful. We walked hand in hand through all the bright lights and then she made us go to Coldstone. Which is the best icecream place in the universe. So of course I had no objections. She got me my favorite icecream from there. One of the signature creations, Peanut Butter Cup Perfection! It has chocolate icecream, peanut butter, chopped up pieces of Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, and chocolate fudge syrup. Mmmmm. I love peanut butter and I love chocolate. I was having a party in my mouth.

Maddy ended up getting the signature creation, "That's How I Roll", how gangster right? That's to be expected right? Haha. Yeah so in that one, they use cake batter icecream which is soooo sweet. Cinnamon, pieces of yellow cake, and pecans. Since everybody knows, I love how Maddy's food tastes better...which will be an ongoing theme for tonight, but anyway, since you all know this, I was eating some of her icecream. So since I ate almost half of her delicious icecream, she ate half of mine. It was all very delicious and cold. Really exciting.

Then we went to Ripley's Believe It Or Not. Yeah, she had got us tickets for that too. She's sly isn't she? Planning all this and somehow I had no idea. I don't even know where I was or what I was doing that she did all of this without me even noticing. As you can see, there was a lady spitting fire, she was called Dragon Lady or something like that. Pretty wild, right? I know. I got scared she was going to set me on fire. So we looked at everything there, it was so awesome. My favorite part though was when we were playing pinball for a good 30 minutes over there. We were having a blast, we were making a very awesome team. We did pretty good. Oh, that's another thing. We had so much fun with the pinball machine, she suddenly wants to buy one now. I don't want her to though! She might forget all about me and love the pinball machine more than me!!! But don't tell her I said that. I made her buy me a two headed goat plushie, it was so cute and she bought some shark in a tube thing. That was so weird. The story goes something like this, those sharks are baby dog sharks? I can't remember, but anyway when the mother is pregnant, if she gets scared for any reason, her body automatically aborts the baby shark. Then the baby shark body floats to the surface and humans take them and put them in jars to do experiments and studies and then sell them in Ripley's Believe It Or Not for people like Maddy to buy it, believe it or not! Ha!!

After all of this, she then took me to dinner. Aww how sweet, to Applebees because we use to go there whenever we had money. It was always a big deal to me to go to Applebees. Maddy spent a lot of money on me, I mean...like technically, considering how much money we have now it's not a lot, but to me it still is a lot because she didn't have to but she did it anyway. Just because she wanted to treat me and take me to places and do things I like to do. Okay so this is the first time we go to Applebees since we got "rich" okay? So we got a bunch of stuff. So this is what we got!

1. Appetizer Sampler - A platter of Mozzarella Sticks, Spinach & Artichoke Dip, Cheese Quesadilla Grande (contains bacon), and Boneless Buffalo Wings.
$21.49

2. Crunchy Onion Rings
Thick-cut rings coated in bread crumbs and golden fried.
$9.29

3. Fajitas Steak Chicken Combo
Your choice of grilled steak, juicy chicken, or a combo of both, on a skillet that sizzles like the Southwest sun. Served with Southwest rice, guacamole, sour cream, pico de gallo, caramelized onions, green peppers and Jack-cheddar cheese.
$17.99

4. Chop Steak
A fork-tender, 10 oz. seasoned chopped sirloin steak topped with a rich, brown sauce and sautéed onions & mushrooms.
$17.99
( All steaks include seasonal vegetables and your choice of garlic mashed potatoes or baked potato. So Maddy got the mashed potatoes! )

5. Grilled Cheese BLT
This double-decker classic includes melted Jack, cheddar and Swiss cheeses, crispy Applewood smoked bacon, fresh lettuce, tomato and chipotle mayonnaise, all on toasted marbled wheat bread.
$12.49
( With French Fries! )

6. Grilled Chicken Caesar Salad Half Size
Juicy grilled chicken breast atop a bed of crisp romaine lettuce tossed in our garlic Ceasar dressing. Topped with challah croutons and shaved Parmesan cheese.
$15.49

7. Triple Chocolate Meltdown®
A magnificently moist chocolate cake topped with both dark and white chocolate. Its fudge-filled center will erupt upon first bite! Served with vanilla ice cream and hot fudge.
$7.89

Okay, so we went and ate all of that together. The Fajita thing was mainly hers and so was the steak. The grilled cheese and salad was mostly for me. The cake, we shared together, how romantic. I was feeing her big spoonfuls. She's too cute. But oh my god, we were so stuffed. We would've gotten more food if it filled in our bellies. But I was so happy. It was great. It was a whole bunch of fun.

I had the best time ever. Then we wandered Times Square for a little while afterward. Until we decided to go home. I knew Riley through a party without my permission, but it didn't even get me mad. So when I got home, and I saw Rant and Casey drunk, I was kind of unhappy but I was too happy because of Maddy to stay upset or unhappy. I just got over it. It was really crazy to wake up and cook breakfast and see Roxan. Which was probably the reason the house wasn't worse when I got back or the fact there wasn't a party still occurring in my living room. So I was happy to see her. She helped Riley out with whatever it was that she was going through. I wouldn't have had a problem getting involved, but she wasn't around for me to get involve and I figure I give her some space and try to let her "celebrate" her album release and all of that.

P.S. You're damn right I thanked Maddy all night long for how amazing that night was and all her wonderful surprises. We had to burn all those calories we ate somehow too, right? Well..I thanked her in the most perfect way that killed two birds with one stone..but wait..why do they even call it that? Killing two birds with one stone..First off, I just wanted to say I'm not a murderer and I did not kill any birds at all, with any stone, literally. There was no killing of any kind.

I believe in what we are and what we will be.

Tue, 05 Jan 2010 00:50:50 GMT

Maddy and I have known each other for years. For as long as I can remember she has been in my life. She was just a friend at first, the most interesting of all my crazy friends. But they all came and gone. My only constant has been Maddy. Maddy who always had an undying loyalty and faith in me. She was my support, my inspiration, my driving force. When it all started, I was just a skinny string bean girl. I was kind of real poor, my cool clothes all came from a thrift shop we lived near. I didn't really have style, I just was. I was really awkward. Maddy was always strong and sexy and beautiful and so smart. I was just a tall goofy flat chested nerd who she stuck by for reasons to this day I do not understand...well that's a lie. I know why she always stayed, she saw me for who I really was. Always.

Starting to get into music was a really big deal. I was really shy about singing in front of people. It use to be something I only use to do in the shower when I thought nobody was listening. When everyone else told me I was just being a dork for me to quit it, she said, "No Kali...sing for me. Don't stop until you have left nothing left in your lungs." We'd spend our nights on rooftops and she'd make me sing and tap in perfect unison to my heartbeat, in perfect unison to my melody, my song, my thoughts. She always understood me just perfectly.

I do not know why it took me so many years to just admit I was absolutely in love with her and that there would never be another. We have loved each other for such a long time but never truly realized and understood the extent until the touring began. Maddy was acting so weird, she was scared. Scared of her feelings, scared to lose me to Marky or Travis. If she hadn't kissed me when she did, maybe those fears could have been realities. I think I was too stupid to realize what she meant to me until that kiss.

The kiss that changed everything. It was the beginning and the end both at the same time. It was the beginning of us as a couple, it was the end of ignorance. It was an awakening. It happened at the end of one of first concerts during the tour. We were wandering around in the night near a big beautiful fountain. I turned around to look for her because she was trailing behind me, thinking hard, no doubt. When she looked up at me, she had the most determined and fiery look in her eyes that I have ever seen. It knocked the breath out of me. Then if the intensity in her gaze wasn't enough, she puts her strong beautiful hands on my face and kisses me in such a way that it was like..I can not describe how it made me feel. It was the most beautiful and intense thing I have ever felt in my life.

The feel of her lips on my own released me from a prison I never even knew I was trapped in. She wrapped her strong arms around me and my body was useless, I had no control over it anymore. My brain had melted. I needed more. I couldn't let her stop kissing me. I felt her passionate kiss everywhere, every single inch of me was left screaming for her the second she pulled herself away from me. My heart was thudding like a ridiculously exaggerated heavy bass from techno music in a club.

I have always loved my Maddykins. She has always been the one to save me. She has always been the one to protect me. To make me see things for what they really are. Without her I would be incomplete. Yes, we are exact opposites. But that changes nothing in how we feel about each other. I admire her for all the things she is and I am not. We are a single soul dwelling in two bodies.

Okay as for getting intimate, yes we do. We've been together since the summer. We were taking things slowly. We weren't in any rush. I mean we took years to finally kiss. We didn't need to jump into bed together immediately. Now for the big shocker. Yes, I was a virgin until Maddy and I made love.

Everyone gets real shocked about that. They were like "Oh my God, Kali! You didn't have sex until Maddy? But you're a fucking hot ass bitch." Um..that doesn't mean anything. I wasn't going to have sex with anyone who only wanted me because they thought I was hot. That is the main reason, I didn't stay in relationships for very long in the first place. I don't want to be desired solely because of my looks. I want to be wanted because of everything about me.

Maddy loves and wants all me. She made sure to make our first time real romantic for me. There were candles everywhere and soft music playing in the background. We were having an amazing make out session. All that girl has to do is look at me and then I'm ready to take my clothes off. So imagine after making out..her kisses are like hot candle wax, soft silky and hot. So hot sometimes it burned, I was burning with desire.

She slowly began to take my clothes off and I was taking hers off. She touched me so gentle but she was really aggressive at the same time. It was just so sexy. She took everything really slow for me. She touched every single inch of me, kissed every single inch of me and then went inside. It did hurt a little bit at first, but she kept going until it felt really good. And then..I was lost. I was floating away from my body somewhere far away.

That happens a lot with her. When we make love, whenever she touches me, I get lost somewhere. I have the hardest orgasms in the universe, it's like earthquakes take over my body. I always end up biting into the pillow to keep from screaming my lungs out. My toes are always curled up and my body hurts with the muscle spasms, I feel like I have arthritis on my toes. It's crazy. But it's so worth it. My heart goes super fast and then..it happens. I lose my mind.

We go at it for hours. She even does it with a strap on for me. Oh my God. She teases me so much. Every kiss, every lick, every touch is to tease me. I always end up near tears begging for her to just touch me. She always touches me like I'm the most fragile and beautiful thing in the universe. Sometimes, I cry because it feels so good. Sometimes I cry because I'm so happy. She always looks at me confused when I cry and worried like she hurt me but isn't sure how. But I always kiss her and tell her it's because I'm happy.

I love it when she gets on top of me. The reason why is kind of kinky...it's because I like her being all dominating. I love the things she whispers in my ear while we make love. She does everything flawlessly, perfectly, it can't get any better. She's so strong and sexy oh my God. We always try all kinds of positions too and do crazy things just to try it and it's always fun and sexy and I just..I don't think anybody has as much fun as us in bed. I doubt it feels as good as it does with us.

It's more than just physical. It's spiritual, it's mental. We just connect. My favorite thing to do to her is go down. I love kissing her everywhere, touching her everywhere. She has the body of a God or something. There is nothing wrong with it. Everything is perfect. I worship her with my mouth. The same way she worships me with her hands. But even while I do this, I love when she gets on top. I love when she growls, when she pulls my hair and goes wild.

As tame as she acts around me...I know she's wild deep down and I love when she shows it. I would never want to take away who she is. Once we start making love we just can't stop. I'm addicted to the high she makes me reach. My drummer has the perfect rhythm, and it shows in every thrust, in her tempo everything.

Making love is like making music with her. She always understands me, just what I need, just what to do, just how to do it. And I sing for her and I sigh and I scream until there's nothing left in my lungs. The sweet release. The sweet music. The lover's lullaby we turn into a symphony of moans, sighs and hard breathing, loving whispers, and sexy growls. It is all perfect..it is all beautiful. It is us.

I love her with every ounce of my being. I am happy to be spending the rest of my life with her. This is the way things were always meant to be and this is how it will be. Even when we're silly old ladies, we'll always love and have each other.

Mon, 04 Jan 2010 18:20:44 GMT

Okay, I know I wanted to finish the snow man stuff and to show pictures of everything everybody got for Christmas but I'm going to have to postpone all the pictures. I just want to mention a few really important points. The first is...why are they called snowmen? What about snowwomen? That's not fair. Anyway, I have a picture of a small snowwoman I made with Maddy's help and later I will post it. Along with a snow gnome picture. Second is, I'm going to make a list of what everyone got for Christmas.

MADDY
1. 32 inch TV that has a built in DVD player.
2. Xbox 360 Elite Limited Edition Modern Warfare 250 GB ( Whenever I say this in person I say Welfare instead of Warfare. )
3. Paint Ball Set
4. Ninja Umbrella ( It looks like a ninja sword! )

RILEY
1. Ikaroke for Ipods
2. Idog Limited Edition Kiss Version ( She loves Kiss! )
3. Eco Friendly Speakers
4. Nintendo DS with some games!

TRAVIS
1. Night Vision goggles
2. Manhole rug
3. Neon Bar lights
4. PSP GO

MARKY
1. Walkie Talkies
2. Handheld Digital Compass
3. Turntables
4. Personalized Rubix Cube with their albums as the pictures!

ME
1. Crochet Books, Needles and Yarn!
2. Chopsticks with my name on 'em!
3. Mesmerizing Moon Jar!
4. Stories of Love Pillow Cases from Bold Loft
5. Wii Bundle

RANT
1. Sweaters
2. Toys
3. Cologne!
4. Pillows!

Okay so that was a quick update on some snowmen revelations and a list of what we got for Christmas. Don't ask me why I got one gift more, that is Maddy's fault she spoils me. Now to my next entry which is really...a whole splurge of Maddy thoughts. I am dedicating a whole entry to her and me and us. Because I love us. She deserved a whole long entry all about how amazing she is and how much I love her and how happy she makes me. Because I don't think I say it enough.

Fri, 01 Jan 2010 03:33:07 GMT

This month has been an extremely busy month. Running around with Maddy and Riles to do some last minute shopping and fun Christmas activities. These holidays just keep coming. You snooze you lose! Basically. But I haven't been snoozing, no sir! Since we got back from our Japan tour in the late summer, I've been soooo busy. Me and Maddy have become a couple..incase it still wasn't clear. We've been spending so much time together and just having a blast. Enjoying the beauty of life with each other and I have never been happier. We have been going on random adventures everywhere on the spur of the moment. Recently my sister Riley moved on so we had someone else to spend the holidays with!

I STILL BELIEVE IN SANTA AND I AM NOT ASHAMED!
To show him I am real nice and just because I wanted to, I was performing random Christmas concerts!

Oh but that's not all! It snowed. And because it snowed, I wanted to see all the snowmen there were in NYC! So I made Maddy and Riles come with me. Mostly it was just me and Maddy because Riley was too drunk to move. She would hide in the bathtub giggling. Her loss. She didn't get to see those beautiful snow creations. But I took pictures! To show her. Because I didn't want her to feel left out. I'm going to show everyone these awesome snow thingies. Snowmen has been redefined by the people of New York City. This is the best city in the world and I am darn proud to live here and call this place my home! Woo NYC!!

Through the tunnel we go..

THE SNOWMAN THAT SITS!

THE SNOWMAN WITH A CUPCAKE AND LITTLE FRIEND

THE SNOW CAT

THIS ONE IS MADDY'S FAVORITE..
SNOWBATMAN

THE SNOWJOKER

Okay, there was more stuff we did after that. We checked out some of the big and awesome Christmas trees around NYC too. Here are some pictures of that, I actually randomly started singing Christmas carols at the South Street Seaport tree.

LOOK AT MY LITTLE FRIENDS WHO SANG WITH ME!

Holy crap! This entry has a lot of pictures and I'm not even done! But anyway! I guess I will just have to write up another one. A continuationium. Yes. Because I got creative when I started writing continuation...that I wanted to make it sound cooler. So I went and threw that IUM in there. So what? Everything sounds cooler with an IUM in the end. Examples...being Kalianaium. Maddyium. Rileyium. Batmanium. It's all scientific. Anyway I promise to finish this later! I pinky promise. With all four of my pinkys..pinkies? PINKE?! Both of my finger pinkies and my toe ones too! I gotta go do my SECRET SPECIAL RANDOM NEW YEAR'S EVE CONCERT NOW!

P.S. MOVIE MARATHONS KICK BUTT! I will talk about that later too!

interview

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 00:40:50 GMT

Q: You recently just got back from your big Japan tour. How do you like touring?
K: I love it. I love the travelling and performing for my fans and meeting them. I love seeing them so happy and hearing them sing along and cheer. It just lifts my heart up. It's magical. It's spiritual. It's just fantastical!

Q: Are you planning to go back on tour with Trendkill?
K: I think it would be amazing if that happened again. Going on tour with them was an amazing experience. The Manus brothers, Marky and Travis are incredible. They're so good natured and they have a passion for music. They live and breathe it. So we're at the same state of mind. They work great with Maddy and I.

Q: How do you feel about your success?
K: I feel like I'm on top of the world. I feel successful with not only my career but my life in general. I am on cloud nine. I don't ever remember being this happy.

Q: Rumor has it you're getting your sister into the music business, is this true?
K: Oh! You don't beat around the bushes now do you? Haha. Well, my sister has always had such an incredible voice. She always had a love for music. And now she's going after this love, pursuing it to the fullest extent. And I'm supporting her 100 percent.

Q: You're so busy right now working on your new album and just returning from touring, how is your love life? Do you still have time for love?
K: Oh, my life is full of love. I have an adorable genius girlfriend Maddy. I have a energetic furball Rant. And an awesome sister Riley, who's gonna be moving in with me and Maddy. Yay!!

Q: Are there any other projects you're working on at the moment?
K: I'm working on some top secret music projects. A clothing line and some charity work! Woohoo!

Q: What movie are you dying to see and with who?
K: Oh!! That's an easy one. Where The Wild Things Are! With Maddy!!

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 11:38:36 GMT

I'm sorry for the lack of updates everyone!!! I've been so busy but we got back to NYC from touring in Japan the day before yesterday!! (I have a whole story about what happened on the plane back too, yes Maddy is an insane woman.)

I promise to fill everyone in and everything that has happened and oh boy, it's been so much! And I also have gorgeous pictures to accompany them. Yay!! Right? Yeah, I thought so too.

Well, Maddy and I went on a date sorta thing yesterday. We went to Coney Island and we had a blast. We went to the Ringling Brothers circus. Wow, that was fun. I haven't been to the circus in so many years and Maddy had never even been to the circus, isn't that strange? How do you not go to the circus?

She of course was obsessed with all the fire and stuff randomly lighting up and the tigers. You know, the hardcore stuff apparently the acrobat lady was too girly for her to pay attention to. That was fine with me, I don't want her paying attention to any other girl but me!!! Hahaha.

But I was in total shock with how much the circus has changed. They played some of our songs and Maddy started drumming all her parts on some old man's bald head. I know, ridiculous, absurd but it was funny. P.S!! We had to wear disguises. Maddy had a hat and sunglasses and I put sunglasses on. Nobody really noticed us. If anything they probably thought we were still in Japan.

After that we went to go eat Nathans. That girl has never eaten Nathans either. Super weird? Well that's Maddy for you, absolutely uncontrollably weird. Somehow we managed to pack away in our tummys a whole large order of hot crinkly french fries (which are so adorable!! aww cutie french fries!) with yummy melted cheese and delicious bacon bits, not to mention 10 huge tasty chicken tenders..and the corn dog I made Maddy buy me. I tried to feed her some and she looked at me like I fed her a poisoned apple. For a minute, I thought she was going to collapse on the floor and convulse!

She apparently, does not understand the beauty and art that is THE CORNDOG. Yes, the big bad corndog on it's bad ass stick that it hangs out on like a throne. King of awesome weird food. Poor Corndog, you get no respect I guess. Next album, I will dedicate a song to the Corndog. ~~Do dogs ever get corns on their feet? Because then they can be corn dogs too...~~

After that we went on every single ride...and let me tell you, I was terrified of the roller coaster. I was terrified of the Saturn thing, of the Spooky ride and everything. I was screaming the whole time. Maddy just laughed the whole time. But I got the last laugh when we went on the bumper cars. That's all I'm going to say. ~~That's all I'm allowed to say, she said she'd kill me if I told you guys what happened.~~

In the end we spent time just walking in the sand together and looking for seashells!!! I love seashells they are so beautiful and mystical..Maddy said she was only in the sand because she was looking for shark teeth. ~~Yeah right, she wanted some cutiesy seashells.~~ She didn't find any. Instead...we found something more amazing than seashells and sharkteeth.

WE SAW JELLYFISH ON THE SHORE!!

I guess they washed up on the shore!! Maddy kept stepping on the baby jellyfish. They were like clear little beans or something so Maddy called then jellybeans!! So we saw the jellybellies and jellybeans and I had a big cup from the circus, I rinsed it out carefully with the water from the beach. Yes. Carefully. I didn't want to step on any precious jellies! Then I put some water inside and took my tweezers out and picked up jellybelly babies and put them inside, and a small jellybelly! I guess he was a jellybelly bean because he was inbetween! Then I closed it.

Now, while I was doing this would you believe me if I told you Maddy managed to stick her finger in bird poop? Yeah..well you should believe me because I'm serious. That's exactly what she did. She runs up to me stepping on the poor little jellybeans, waving her white fingertip in my face saying she poked bird poop because it was white and she thought it was a shell. Then turned red and said she meant shark tooth because shark teeth are white. ~~Yeah right, nice try. I know you wanted seashells!!~~

So we had to wash her finger but be careful jellybeans and jellybellies and jellybelly beans didn't attack her little white butt when she was cleaning up!

We took the train home. The whole time on the train, Maddy complained she was thirsty and would forget that my jellies were in the cup and almost drink them. Then she'd be all traumatized for a few minutes and do the same thing because she forgot again. As soon as we got home we took baths because Maddy came home smelling like the elephants from the circus and bird poop. I came home smelling like corndogs and jellyfish..~~if they even smell like anything!~~

Then we went to sleep in her big bed because her bed is always bigger and better than mine. I don't care if it's exactly the same size and brand and all that. Maybe it's her bedsheets. I don't know! Her stuff is always better than mine. Even her food! It's ridiculous. But we were so tired. I promise to show pictures of this all!! I'm about to go make breakfast right now. So when I'm done and I wake up Maddykins and all that I'll come back and update again!

I LOVE YOU GUYS! YAY!!

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 05:12:54 GMT

My camera and I.

Maddy isn't the only one who took pictures of the hotel! I did too..but her pictures were all better...except one. That she didn't even take! So I'm posting that one right now.

Here it is!

We put our stuff down. I'm so tired. I think the room is amazing. Rant is running around the whole room meowing at everything. Lots of stuff is motion sensored and when it would light up he'd tilt his head and meow it to death. Totally cute.

I want to sleep but not by myself! Maddy is walking around like a zombie but refuses to admit she's tired. I think she's trying to stay awake to make sure I don't sneak into her bed and steal the covers. She keeps telling me to go pick a bed and commit to it. But where's the fun in that? Both beds are secretly mine. I'm only lending her one. And you know the deal, the one she's in is going to feel better than the one I'm in.

I have no idea why she even bothers trying to fight. I get what I want! Lol. If anything I'll just tell her there's jellyfish lurking in her bed. That she needs me and Janice to protect her! Until then I'm gonna beat her up! Yeah! I'm gonna beat some sense into her with these pillows!

YAY! PILLOWFIGHT!

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"We're all here cause we lost control. We're-We're-We're lost..lost...lost."

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 01:21:59 GMT

See you later, cute room of mine!!!

We're on our way to the hotel already. The quote above is from Trendkill lyrics. The song titled "Die Tonight Live Forever." The LA RIOT remix for it is incredible. Speaking of losing control. Maddy was screaming that the plane was losing control when the plane just had minor turbulence. For someone so tough, she reminded me of a lost scared child.

She was so frantic and fidgety. She couldn't sit still. She kept screaming that we were all going to die. Rant was on her lap with his back arched and hair sticking up. They were both losing their minds. She was sweating and wouldn't stay still for a second. For everything she was like "OH MY GOD! KALI DID YOU HEAR THAT? WE'RE GONNA DIE!! HOLY FUCK!! BIGFOOT SMACKED US OUT THE AIR. NO! IT WAS THE ALIENS! NO IT WAS THE KKK! UGH I DONT KNOW! AHHHHH"

It was funny..and cute..I found it entertaining. My strong Maddy was scared. I took a nap and everything during her whole psychotic episode. I woke up when a flight attended kept poking me asking me why was she trying to climb inside the thing where people put their carry on bags. But other than that, everything went smoothly. Nothing out of the ordinary, other than that. LMAO.

Here's a picture of Maddy walking to get her bag. ICU CRANKY CUTIE CAKE!

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 00:13:02 GMT

I ended up waking up by myself in Maddy's bed. Which confused me to be absolutely honest. I figured maybe she woke up to go use the bathroom but when I got out of bed, I found her sleeping on the couch. Which is a first, she's never done that before. I usually wake up all curled up next to her feeling safe. I figured she's just nervous about the tour because even I feel jittery.. Shrugging my shoulders, I began breakfast!

Crepes (anorexic pancakes) with fruits and some delicious cream with toasted nuts on top.

Some toast, egg sunnyside up, sausage, breakfast ham and roasted mushrooms.

This is when things go back to normal. Of course, the smell of delicious food travels through the air. The aroma like a snake charmer captures the attention of my snake who happens to be sleeping on the couch, drawing her closer and closer to the kitchen. Yes, Maddy is that enamored with food. She was salvating at the mouth, practically foaming like she had rabies.

Dark circles were under her eyes, she looks like she hadn't slept, but I knew better to bring it up at this exact moment. I'll talk to her later. She sits down at the table and mumbles a good morning, not even looking at me. Rant watching us from the couch.

Whenever Maddy avoids eye contact with me, it's either when she's upset with me or when something is wrong..the thing with her is. You can't ask her what's wrong because she'll sink farther and farther away. You just have to let her tell you herself when she feels the time is right. She's always able to draw out my confessions, my worries, my deepest darkest fears and secrets. But I was never able to pull them out of her.

Soon enough right? Time will tell..

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 03:20:45 GMT

Mission Impossible: Packing my stuff.

Can't decide what to take, what to leave. What's important, what's not. Lipgloss? No lipgloss? Cute plaid skirt or awesome graphic jeans? Both. Everything. My whole closet? Maddy already finished and put Rant to sleep and I'm still here scrambling. My room looks like a tsunami just happened when no one was looking.

AND IT'S THUNDERING!!! I'M SCARED!!! It's so loud. I just threw whatever that was on my bed in my suitcase. I keep peaking into Maddy's room to see if she'll let me in. She keeps saying she won't because "I'm a stupid egg head" and because the Hello Kitty joke. ~~She really has Hello Kitty undies though.~~ I'm whining and she's being so mean.

But I know she'll let me into her room. She always does. Her bed is so comfy. I don't care if we have the same kind of bed. Her bed feels better. For some reason, her stuff is always better than mine. Even if we get the same exact thing. That's why I just steal hers. Yes, she's obligated to share. ~~But I don't have to share with her.~~

Yeah, look at how tough Maddy is. That's how she keeps me safe from the thunder.

YAY!! She's going to let me go sleep in her room. She said I have 10 seconds to get over there. K! BYErjksnjaskn!!

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 01:34:35 GMT

I'm feeling a million different ways right now. There's butterflies flapping around in my tummy. I'm excited, I'm nervous, I'm happy, I'm scared. It's just overwhelming.

I went from being..just some girl. To somebody important to so many people. All my feelings and thoughts became like an anthem to people and Maddy was the drummer who kept me marching to my beat. Always on the same level as me.

Sometimes I have no idea where I would be without her. We're the dynamic duo. We're opposites and compliment each other perfectly. She's my best friend, the most stable and constant thing in my crazy world. I'm so happy she's with me through it all, especially now. When so many big amazing spectacular things are happening so fast.

I never knew the world could be so exciting..so thrilling. We came a long long way and we have so much more left to go.

I can't wait to go on tour with Trendkill. Marky and Travis are amazing artists. They're music is so fresh and unique and if the originals were incredible, their remixes can be only described as mind blowing!

NEWSFLASH

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 22:00:58 GMT

This is in response to Maddy's witty little entry about the dragon creature. I have rare seen footage also, that I will share with you all today.

Footage of ~~Maddy~~ Bigfoot.

This is a photograph of his bigfeet..

His big head....

RANDOM THOUGHT. Why don't they call him Bighead? Instead of Bigfoot?

Full body shot of this sexy beast.

Tell me that wasn't amazing!

P.S. Maddy, if you try to get the dragon to attack me..I'll get Bigfoot to step on you like he's Godzilla. And sell your HELLO KITTY UNDIES ON EBAY! Yes. Your Hello Kitty undies that you thought nobody knew about. Mhm. I knew. All along! Hahaha.

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 18:00:24 GMT

NOBODY WANTS TO ATTACK YOUR LITTLE WHITE BUTT, MADISON.

Jeez, paranoid much? Jellyfish are so cute. I don't know what the big deal is. I wish I could just grab a little jellyfish and dance around in the sun with it and hug it and hold it like I do Janice.

They're so pretty and graceful. Keep talking trash about the Jellyfish and I'm going to put one in the tiolet to touch your butt next time you go use the bathroom. Then they'll really attack your little white butt.

I mean so what you can see through Jellyfish, nobody had a problem seeing through Casper right? Nobody has a problem seeing through glass and windows right? Nobody had a problem with Octopus thingies have all those tentacles?

With Janice...I do braids in her tentacles..so they're not hurting anybody.

Incase everyone forgot, Maddy was the one who got me obsessed with jellyfish. Remember? She bought me Janice! So there you go. And now look at my collection and just so you know, half of them, Maddy bought me!

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 16:18:41 GMT

Recently, the weather has been seriously psychotic. Yes, ~~psychotic just like Maddy herself.~~ crazy weather indeed. One minute it's sunny, the next I'm drowning in rain because I forgot how to swim.

We've just been staying at home watching TV together. Bunches of scary true stuff on National Geographic and Animal Planet. I made us watch stuff on Jellyfish. YES! So Janice can see her kind and be proud. Instead Maddy became paranoid and refuses to get anywhere near water. She won't take a bath or anything because she swears the Jellyfish will kill her and leave scars all over her body. ~~She should just come take a bath with me..~~

Some fun fact about "jellybellies!!!"
1. They do not have brains.
2. They have 360 vision because all their eyes.
3. They stay away from the color red but are totally blind to the color white.
4. There is no true antivenom for their..well venom. "Duh right? because antivenom isn't going to be like..to fight toothpaste..it's gonna be to fight venom..that's why it's ANTIVENOM" Quoting Maddy.
5. They do not float they navigate themselves...mhm even without a brain.

CONCLUSION
If jellyfish can do all this stuff without a brain..what is MAN's excuse..?

interview

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 00:21:37 GMT

Q: What's your favorite thing to do on a rainy day?
K: Usually I curl up with me and Maddy's cat, who thinks he's a dog, RANT and I read a good book or just write down some thoughts and sometimes they end up becoming songs. I watch some box sets DVDs of Jon & Kate Plus 8. I think they're so rad.

Q: Who's the one person you would count on for anything?
K: Maddy. Since I met her, me and her have been stuck together like someone crazy glued us. Like sure I could have said my parents but it wasn't like they supported my dream to pursue a career in music. No matter what happens, I know she'll be there. The same way no matter what happens I'll be there for her.

Q: Have you ever not been able to come up with a song/song name?
K: Yeah, I mean who hasn't. We all get the writer's block, or brain freeze! Usually Maddy just pops up and makes suggestions and it's like "Oh well why didn't I think of that!" and of course she has to throw in that "DUH!!" for good measure to make me feel like "WOW. Where was my brain?"

Q: Who inspires you the most to write your music?
K: It's more like a what instead of who. There's just things that happen that make me feel a certain way or give me a lot to think about. Things that happen, experiences, memories, feelings.

Q: What's the hardest part about song writing?
K: Well I always have a jumble of thoughts in my head. And when you write a song you have to put those thoughts together in order. You have to unscramble them so that your song actually makes sense. Usually I focus on making a song that I feel is true to me and my feelings and my views. A song that I would love singing. Music is a way of sharing myself to everyone.

Q: How did you get into music?
K: I use to be all about poetry. I have books and books of poems that I wrote. I've always loved music and took up playing the guitar and always sang in the shower. I would sing songs I heard on the radio and everyone keep telling me I have a great voice and that my poetry is great. So my poetry ends up becoming my lyrics. And I end up singing..and that's how it started.

Q: What's one random obsession you have?
K: I have a huge obsession with chopsticks. I love them. I think they're works of art. I collect them. I'm always eating with them. I think they're absolute amazing. And for my fans who are reading this..please don't throw chopsticks at me while I'm on stage. It might hurt! Throw them at Maddy instead!

I LOVE MADDY~!!!

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 18:30:18 GMT

So Maddy and I woke up real early this morning and she decided we should go explore the world. Those are her exact words. "LET'S GO EXPLORE THE WORLD!!" I was shocked because I was honestly expecting her to say something along the lines like "I AM GOING TO CONQUER THE UNIVERSE. PASS ME THE FRUIT LOOPS." but..okay moving on. We took the train and were all in our disguises. I was wearing my hoody and trying to be all incognito and all that. So we were in the store looking at stuff. But well the `razzi caught me..they took some pictures.

^ Seeeee! I was all trying to hide my face. They didn't catch Maddy, she was wearing her Batman suit so everybody thought I was walking around with Batman. She grabs me and starts running and I'm running right along with her. We escape from them..and suddenly we're like in Wonderland.

We find this pink jellyfish. And I fall in love..with..~~Maddy~~ the jellyfish. I forgot my wallet at home, yeah real dumb I know. But Maddy picks it up and was like "You want this jelly belly?" and I just nodded frantically. And she puts it down and leaves. She tricked me. I thought she wasn't going to get it for me... BUT SHE DID.

^ That's her right there. I named her Janice. Maddy is her father and I'm her mother! We're a big happy family. Oh and Rant is her big brother!

friend's only

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 18:08:03 GMT