Don't stop if we fall...

-fumes-

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 00:40:18 GMT

For a while now, I've come to know that I am a better parent than both my parents put together. They are fucking idiots when it comes to children under 10.

I was told to watch all four children, Sarah(7 mos), Katie(2 yrs), Stacy(4 yrs), and Shakiesha(4 yrs).

No problem.

I set Sarah on a blanket with some toys. She's almost crawling so she's okay doing that activity. The other kids were playing in the corner with their toys quietly.

So then I made dinner, and all the kids ate wonderfully. Then I played with them for a little while.

Then Sarah started to get cranky. That's where the issues began.

I tried feeding her a bottle, giving her teething medicine, walking her around, rocking her, everything I could think of. And she wouldn't stop crying, mostly because Shirley breast feeds her to sleep every night. So. I decided to just lay her down and cry herself out. I've read that self comfort is good for a child and if after 10-15 minutes, if the child is not asleep, then you pick them back up.

So I laid her down and what was the first thing my dad did? He turned the fucking light on and tried to comfort her. WHAT THE FUCK! I TOLD him to leave her the fuck alone and let her sleep. And as a result of NOT doing what I asked the baby cried harder.

So after my mum went in and my dad went in and both of them being complete idiots and only disturbing the baby more, they let me take over. So I laid the baby down and told them AGAIN not to disturb her. 13 minutes of crying resulted in a sleeping baby. Right on schedule.

So after that I got the other kids to pick up their toys and get ready for bed. Upon doing that my dad thinks it's a good time to 'check on the baby'. And how do you think he does that? He noisily clanks into the baby's room with his wheel chair and TURNS ON THE FUCKING LIGHT!!! OF COURSE THE BABY IS GOING TO WAKE THE FUCK UP!!!! Jesus Christ.

So then the baby cries and cries and I can't do anything about it because my parents are all over her trying to comfort her instead of letting her go the fuck back to sleep.

Then I go to put the other kids to sleep. I put Katie and Shakiesha on the couch and make Stacy a bed on the floor with chair cushions. I turn on the kitchen light and turn off the living room light so it's dim and then Katie starts crying because she wants to be on Stacy's bed. But of course my idiot father has to get in the way and turn on the fucking light. AND give them candy. IT IS THEIR FUCKING BED TIME!!! THEY DON'T NEED CANDY!

By this time I am pissed and I go to my mom, looking for her to side with me. Which is a stupid thing to do in the first place. So then my dad and I have a light war. I get the kids settled and the light dimmed, and he gets them all riled up and turns the light on. So this goes back and forth for a while and then my mum gets back from trying to comfort Sarah and tells me off.

So then I was like, "FINE. YOU DO IT." And left.

Then I hear her start bitching about how I didn't do anything right with putting the kids to sleep and I storm out and defend myself and lay the kids down again and go to my room.

So now I sit and from the sound of things the kids are in complete chaos. I've even heard my parents call for me a few times. But if all they're gonna do is say I'm taking care of them wrong. Fuck them. Let THEM do it.

I am royally pissed and I promise I will never let my children befall a parenting tragedy like theirs.

-Carol

SURPRISE!

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 14:34:27 GMT

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Okay....

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 02:03:11 GMT

My mother is... gah!

My MP3 player disappeared. Seriously. I had it in my pocket, I did the laundry, and I can't find it now. I tore up the house looking for it, and it's no where to be found.

Now Mum's telling me that if I can't find it she's not getting me my Christmas present. Okay, lets go back a little bit.

Christmas is a very hard holiday for my parents because with oil and everything it's hard to afford. So I always ask for cheap things of my parents at Christmas so the Giving Tree can give us a hand. This is the first year I've asked for something a little pricey, an acoustic guitar, or else a key board so I can teach myself piano. I've always wanted to play an instrument that didn't sound as strange as the accordion or the glockenspiel..... -_-

I'm not sure if my mother was getting me either of those, but she said quite plainly, "IF YOU CAN'T FIND THAT MP3 PLAYER YOU'RE GOING TO BE VERY DISAPPOINTED AT CHRISTMAS BECAUSE I'M GOING TO TAKE YOUR GIFT BACK!"

I was like, "When am I not disappointed at Christmas?"

And then you know what my mother accused me of? She accused me of losing my MP3 player on purpose.

...

OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!!

I've been WANTING a fucking MP3 player for three fucking years! I'm not going to loose the fucking thing on PURPOSE!

You know, actually, my brother was GOING to get me one for Christmas last year. But you know what I got instead? Socks. Why? Because my brother needed to take the MP3 player back so he could get oil for his trailer. I was heart broken. Then when mum came into some money because she canceled my birthday trip to New York she bought me an MP3 player instead.

Not as good but I was still VERY happy. So yeah, I really lost the fucking thing on purpose!

-_-

I fucking hate my mother sometimes. I wish I had moved up with Desi, then I wouldn't have to deal with this bull shit. I'd have a real fucking family instead of a responsibility.

Seriously. That's what I have. I have a dad who can't walk, can't hear, and is half blind that I have had to take care of since I was eight. And a mother who's literally too fat to get off her fucking ass and get herself a glass of water at a sink 5 feet away. Is it just me or is my family backwards? Aren't THEY suppose to take care of and support ME?

For fuck sake... I'm done with this bullshit..

-Carol

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 15:29:56 GMT

We are very excited for September to come. Why?

1). School is starting! School = <3

2). Fall is coming. Favorite season for most here.

3). (best news of all) WE ARE GOING TO NEW YORK!!!

Whewt! We are so frizzled about this! Carol has never been farther than Boston and now we are going to New York for a late b-day present to her.

We are in good spirits. We hope to find you all in similar spirits!

-hugs-

-Allabe/us

HEY ALL!

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 15:20:52 GMT

So, I know it's been forever since we've posted last. We're sorry. Change of plans for the summer actually. We're going to be back somewhere between the 2ond and 3rd week in August. So We'll be back for Carol's 16th birthday! That's the 25th. SO We'll be updating more often then. ^^

Love you all. Sorry this post is short! ^.^;

-Emmiline/us

New Journal!

Sat, 10 May 2008 19:37:38 GMT

Right then. I think I'm going to get my own journal like Meg did. I post the most on this one so I'm gonna let the others get a word in.

-Carol

ps. Once my journal is made I will post the link in this post.

scarol

Speeches

Wed, 07 May 2008 01:01:50 GMT

I won the in-class speech contest and got moved up to go against the sophomore class. I presented today and did well in my opinion, better than I thought I'd do.

I was very shaky and my voice trembled too. People got the point though. ^^

I got positive comments from everyone. And some even noted my shaky-ness but they didn't mind much.

Allabe shouldn't have been behind me though because her crush was sitting right in direct view of the podium and was making her nervous, adding to my being nervous.

-sigh-

All in all it went well though. ^^

-Carol/Meg

I Need This Daily.

Sun, 04 May 2008 22:08:30 GMT

Sun, 04 May 2008 17:43:24 GMT

I HATE FUCKING PRE-PAID CREDIT CARDS! THEY CAN ALL BURN IN THE DEEPEST EPITOME OF HELL!

Fri, 02 May 2008 23:20:11 GMT

I hate pre-paid credit cards.

That is all.

-Carol

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 02:31:09 GMT

Meg has her own journal now. It's spunoutonyou and she's added most of you guys.

Emmiline person meme

Sun, 27 Apr 2008 19:33:31 GMT

Big Five Word Test Results

Extroversion (64%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.
Accommodation (56%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex).
Orderliness (34%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, random, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of structure, reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Emotional Stability (66%) moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Inquisitiveness (62%) moderately high which suggests you are intellectual, curious, imaginative but possibly not very practical.

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A few eggs and a baby

Sun, 27 Apr 2008 15:35:39 GMT

This is our scroll and this is our other scroll

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 01:51:48 GMT

Carol: You'd think my friends would try and e-mail me.

Meg: No. I wouldn't.

Carol: Why?

Meg: Why would they? you've been in and out of the hospital, they're in high school, and it's vacation.

Carol: Gee, thanks for raising the optimism scale on my out look of life.

Meg: At least I didn't baby you like Em does.

Carol: -sigh-

Meg: Want to split an orange?

Carol: No. I'm not hungry. I haven't been since last Thursday.

Meg: You haven't eaten anything all day... except for that banana.

Carol: I'm fine.

Meg: Sure.

Carol: Really.

Meg: Yeah? Then why haven't you let anyone else back into the castle?

Carol: I need a break.

Meg: -sigh- I hope you're 'break' gets over and done with. I'm starting to miss Doug and Lestat.

Carol: ...

Meg: What?

Carol: Doug and Lestat?

Meg: ..... Yes.

Carol: Hah. I knew it.

Meg: I don't know what your talking about.

Carol: You have a thing for vampires. Doug especially. Ha.

Meg: No. I don't. I just like.... their... sarcasm. That's all.

Carol: Sure, from a guy that never talks.

Meg: Doug talks.

Carol: Two words a day.

Meg: You're lover Brandon said more than that, I assume?

Carol: That was low, even for you Meg.

Meg: ...

Carol: ...

Meg: I was out of line. I'm sorry.

Carol: ...

Meg: Hug?

Carol: No. I'm going to go read. My nightmares are better than this.

Meg: The meds don't help do they?

Carol: Nope. I still take 'em though.

Meg: Okay.

Carol: ...

Meg: Want to go to Debora's for tonight?

Carol: No. I just want to be alone.

Meg: Bye.

Carol: 'Night.

Still at Desi's. Going to be home Saturday. Living with her during the summer will be fun. I don't want to go home, though. Thinking about living with Desi and going to the high school up here. It's tempting but, I don't know. I'm hoping this summer I can think about it and decide. Bed now. Nightmares await. Meg's words still sting. Ow. Learning new coping skills will be right around the corner. No more razor blades. I have wine. Stole it from our Ray. I'll be in the garden if you visit.

~done

-Carol

^_^

Mon, 21 Apr 2008 11:26:43 GMT

Egg.

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 17:36:18 GMT

Ok. This is really starting to piss me off. Is anyone familiar with the The Keisha'ra Series? More importantly does anyone know how to find the characters full names? Like Hai's or Danica's?

Pictures!

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 23:10:02 GMT

Da Hairzzz!

Before:

After

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 22:11:14 GMT

Got our hair done.

LUUURRRVVVVEEEEE it.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Squeeageofthedoom-

We'll se if Daddy August or Sadie will take pictures!

-Carol/Allabe

Policy thingy

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 00:25:23 GMT

1. Ask us if you want to copy/paste. Surveys don't count. We generally don't mind unless it's something personal.

2. We do not like the drama llama. Please don't start it with us. We are neutral territory. Switzerland if you will. Flist members having fights will be ignored. No sides will be taken. Thnx.

3. We do not care if people talk about us. It is only human nature, people are bound to talk. Point: We don't want to know who's talking about us. plz n thnx.

4. We are a good spirited people. We don't make harsh remarks. We tease, yes. But we aren't mean. We'd like the same courtesy.

5. Do not make racist/sexist remarks toward us please? I mean, we don't mind the occasional 'Women/men' or 'dude, this black guy was weird!' But saying things like, 'Christians need to die'. Well, we respect your opinion, we'd just rather not hear it. You can post about it in your journals or whatever, just keep it out of our comment boxes and things thanks.

That's about it. If you have questions, don't hesitate to ask!

-Emmiline/Us.

Dragons

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 23:32:31 GMT

Hatchlings:

Purple Dragons:

Stone Dragons:

Storm Dragons:

Green Dragons:

Black Dragons:

Fire & Magi Dragons:

Mint Dragons:

Vine Dragons:

White Dragons:

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 15:58:57 GMT

Name: Carol
Nicknames: Scarol, Cay-Cay
Birthday: August 25th
Age: 16
Sun sign: Virgo
Location: Maine
Martial status: Single
Natural Hair Color: Brown.
Current Hair Color: Black, red, brown, pink, and a few others
Eye color: Different shades of blue, grey, and green.
Height: 5'6"
Weight: MYOB
Siblings: Brother and two sisters
Nieces? Nephews?: A niece and a nephew
Kids of your own?: Six.
In school?: Yup
Job?: Nope
How much money do you make?: $50 a month.
What do you drive?: Yellow porshe 911 turbo with tint, all wheel drive, and a spoiler.

Preferences

Black and white, or color? Color!
Black or white? Black
Red or blue? Blue
Cats or dogs? Cats
Roses or daisies? Roses
Beer or liquor? Liquor
Boxers or briefs? Boxers
Short or long hair? In the middle
Boots or shoes? Shoes
Mexican or Italian food? Italian.
Dark or light? Light
Day or night? Night
City or country? Country
Solid sheets or animal print sheets? Solid sheets.
Dominant or submissive? Submissive

Favorites

Color: Crimson
Animal: Black cats
Flower: Butter cups.
Beer: Heiniken
Liquor: Vodka
Soda: Mountain Dew
Food: Anything good.
Book: Twilight
Author: Meyer, Pocoult, King.
Band: My Chemical Romance
CD: Bullets
Director: Many
Country: USA
State: Maine
City: Portland
Extracurricular activity: Reading
Non-alcoholic drink: Energy Drinks
TV show: CSI
Cartoons: Yes.
Day of the week: Tuesday
Month: I like the beginning of June

Do you...

Dye your hair? Yes
Have tattoos? Yes.
Piercings? Yes.
Own a web cam? No
Ever get off on the computer? No.
Sprechen Sie Deutsch? Einige
Hablar Espanol? Si!

Have you...

Been in a wreck? Yes.
Been arrested? No.
Stolen a car? Yes.
Stolen anything? Yes.
Smoked? no.
Done pot? Yes.
Been too drunk to remember your name? No.
Been too drunk to care that you'd forgotten your name? no.
Posed for nude pics? No.
Considered a life of crime? Yes, Bonnie and Clyde Style.
Considered prostitution? No.
Maybe a pimp? No.
Been married? No.

The good stuff...

Had sex outdoors? No
What are you listening to? people arguing.
What are you watching? The Computer
What time is it? 11:57
What are you wearing? Hoodie and pants.
Hey baby, nice shoes: Go away.
What are you drinking? Nothing.
Eating? Nothing
Got both hands on the keyboard? Yes
Who are you talking to? No one.
What other windows do you have open? Microsoft photo editor.
How bored are you? not at all.

Simple questions

On a date, would you rather stay home or go to the movies? Movies!
Watch TV or talk on the phone? Both!
Ride a motorcycle, car, or four-wheeler? 911 yellow porche turbo.
Do you go to school? Yes.
Where? F.A.
Do you have friends? Yes.
Are you weird? Yes.
Are you crazy? YUP!
Do you like someone? ... Allabe does.
Have you ever been to a beach? Yes.
Ever been to Hollywood? no
Do you read books? Yes.

Do you sometimes suddenly get urges to...

Fight? Yes. Though it usually ends up with Debora slugging someone.
Slap someone? Yes.
Scream? Many times through out a day.
Kick? No.
Kick someone? No.
Bite yourself? Yes.
Bust something? Yes.
Are you irritable? Sometimes.

Do you enjoy...

Rain? Yes
Snow? Yes.
Tornadoes? Yes.
Hurricanes? Yes.
Singing? Yes.
Talking? Too Much.
Music? Yes.
Do you play an instrument? Harmonica, Accordion, Piano, guitar, drums, flute, recorder, glockenspiel, xylophone, the triangle, and many others.
Do you want to learn? Yes.

Aren't they cute?

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 01:42:41 GMT

GUFN!!!

Wed, 19 Mar 2008 13:36:30 GMT

I am grounded until further notice. Or until the end of two weeks. No computer for 1 week. No going anywhere for two (excluding things to do with school).

Why?

Mum gave me a list.

1. Tracy and Sadie were supposed to pick me up.
2. I was only supposed to go to Settelers Green. Not Portland.
3. I didn't even call and ask. I went free lance.
4. I went to Portland!
5. Tobias was driving. And he's not over 21.
6. I was in a car full of people older than me.
7. I was in a car with teenagers with hormones and God forbid, money!
8. I was in a car with a stranger.
9. I was in a car with two different strangers at different times.
10. I didn't bring my own money.
11. I am not an adult.
12. I could have died.
13. I could have been raped.
14. I could have been mugged.
15. We could have been pulled over and she would have had to come and get me.
16. I WAS IN PORTLAND!

And so on and so fourth.

Ah well, life will go on and you can expect more posts like this. We have reason to go to Portland now.

Ah! And notice that my mother didn't acknowlege Us as a plural? -_-

Yup. It wasn't ONLY my fault that we stayed out until ten, without calling, on a school night, woman! I have teenagers in my head that pop up around Tobias&! They are just as much at fault as I am!

AND NO, FOR THE LAST TIME I WILL NOT POUR YOU A BOWL OF FUCKING WHEATIES!

Urg.

-Carol

Also! Another song that I think fits well with this post!

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE LYRICS
"Teenagers"
They're gonna clean up your looks
With all the lies in the books
To make a citizen out of you
Because they sleep with a gun
And keep an eye on you, son
So they can watch all the things you do

Because the drugs never work
They're gonna give you a smirk
'Cause they got methods of keeping you clean
They're gonna rip up your heads,
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the murder machine

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

The boys and girls in the clique
The awful names that they stick
You're never gonna fit in much, kid
But if you're troubled and hurt
What you got under your shirt
Will make them pay for the things that they did

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

Ohhh yeah!

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

All together now!

Teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me
[x2]

Schedule

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 21:47:59 GMT

Right. I went to Ms. Smith's office and know exactly what I'm going to take my Junior year.

Junior year:

Geometry
English III level 2
Botany
P.E.
Theater
Latin (This being the reasoning behind the latin bit. I CAN'T READ ANY OF IT!)

Pretty good 'eh?

-Carol

We've gone a bit dragon-crazy.

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 20:34:29 GMT

Emmiline's Brood

Carol's Brood

Adults

Debora's Eggs

Brood de la Kids

Ray's Brood

Mylinn's Brood