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Fri, 04 Nov 2011 07:41:30 GMT

[PLAYER]
name/journal: scarlet!
e-mail: eisRequiem(at)gmail(dot)com
timezone: PST GMT -8:00
characters played: modhat-- i mean none.

[CHARACTER]
name: Yuu Kanda (first, last). he goes by Kanda.
series: D.Gray-Man, manga
canon point: chapter 188! After being headblasted by Wisely but before waking up in North America branch.
age: ~18-19
gender: male
appearance: As a man in his late teens, Kanda stands at about 5 foot 11 inches (180cm) and weighs in at about 141 lbs (64kg). He has long, dark hair and similarly dark eyes with faint blue accents. His appearance and his name suggest that he is Japanese, but this is debatable, and it is not known why exactly he looks Japanese. (See: synthetically born out of a hole in the ground.) His build is lean and toned, no bulging muscles, and perhaps just slim enough to seem womanly. He is canonically referred to by Rhode Kamelot as "beautiful" (though whether in the physical or metaphorical sense is unknown) and was mistaken for a girl by Lenalee Lee once, though he was a child back then. His hair doesn't help with that very much, either.

Regarding posture, Kanda generally stands straight, shoulders back-- stiff, but comfortably so. An Exorcist is not an official soldier, but Kanda prefers the rigid posture over something more laid-back. It's very rare to see him slouching or leaning more than usual.

It's a different story when he has his privacy. When no one is watching, he can unwind, he can let out weary sighs, hang his head, hold his face in his hands, and just basically mellow out in his own way.

background: it's a link because it's too long. alternatively can be found at wikia! both links contain spoilers up to 208.
previous game canon: n/a!
personality: At first glance, Kanda is an indifferent young man with a strict personality, often bordering rude. He can be labeled as a grump, anti-social, perpetually angry, and sometimes a complete pain in the ass to deal with, often times with questinable mental stability.

His attitude towards unfamiliar people is curt and short, but in a polite manner; he doesn't care about them enough to be pleasant, nor does he have any immediate interest to bother them in any way. When he addresses Exorcists, it's usually in the same fashion. Depending on who it is, though, he may be less willing to indulge in extended small talk. Finders receive the most bluntness, as Kanda mostly views them as little more than cannon fodder, hardly thinking of them as very useful on the battlefield.

Though Kanda is generally not one to say much, he is entirely capable of carrying on a conversation, or at least able to speak in a civil manner, such as when he explains the strange occurrences of the Innocence to Allen and when he obtains the release code from a dying Finder. However, he also has the habit of throwing back what is given to him, in terms of attitude and treatment. During the Thief Ghost G arc, he approaches Inspector Galmar calmly at first, but when presented with misplaced irritation, Kanda starts showing a bit of anger himself. Contrary to this, attempts to be overly friendly with him result in irritation as well

In the past, he wasn't as cold and ill-tempered. As a 'child', his only friend that was relatively his age was Alma Karma, and even then Kanda wasn't exactly what you'd call a 'good friend'. He and Alma fought and argued and threw insults, but they ultimately were 'friends' (though Kanda would never admit it), able to understand each others' pain of the testing they were forced to go through. This, added to the truth that he eventually learned about the Project, gave him a rather cynical view on the Order.

During this time, he reacted to most of Alma's friendly gestures with scowls and frowns and irritated glares. All this carries over, in a sense, even to after he has 'grown up'. Any attempts to become his friend or curry favor are generally met with a cold shoulder. Those that persist, however, do manage to gain a small place in Kanda's heart-- or something to that degree. Lenalee, for example, has earned Kanda's grudging respect, and he treats her with more politeness than he does others. People like Komui and Lavi receive Kanda's version of 'tough love'.. without the actual love. He cares, but it's never shown in a way that says it outright. It's through snappish remarks intended hurt as much as help. Frequent death threats are the norm whenever either of them does something stupid, though they're rarely ever fully carried out. Otherwise, as mentioned above, Kanda treats most everyone in the Order with the same blase temperament unless provoked into something else.

At his core, Kanda is aware that Exorcists are viewed by the Church as no more than tools of war, and he will treat them as such. He takes his job as strictly what it is: to destroy Akuma, collect Innocence, and get rid of any other enemies. He tells Allen on their first mission together that "I don't care if you're on the verge of being killed, if I find that you're a nuisance, I'll leave you behind. In war there are always sacrifices, so don't think of us as partners." Comradeship and saving people are not in the contract. Hypocritically, however, he ends up protecting Allen on their first mission from what could've been a fatal attack while he himself was badly injured with the reasoning of hating people who break their promises more than he hates naive people (like Allen).

From the moment he was created in the underground Sixth Asia Research Facility, he was spoonfed (likely biased) information and explanations about the Akuma, Dark Matter, Innocence, Noahs, the purpose of the Exorcists and the Order, the goal of the Earl, things that construct the mindset he bears on his shoulders.

Akuma, Noahs, and the Earl are the enemies. Innocence and the Innocence-compatibles are to be rounded up and collected for the Order to use (he is shown demonstrating his knowledge of Innocence at times, and does not hesitate to suggest removing a 9 years old boy from the orphanage to become an Exorcist). Exorcists are tools of war; destroyers, not saviors. He will carry out the orders given to him, because that's what he is-- an Exorcist, a tool, a weapon. He will not add his own opinion, because he knows it doesn't matter. In fact, he hardly cares about the War or the Order itself. During the flashback chapters, after he finds Marie and starts looking for Alma, Kanda's thoughts are clearly displayed as "I've got to get [Alma] and get out of this place. I don't care about the Order or this war. Anger, grudges, I'll just swallow it all, so long as we're together."

It's to be noted that some of Kanda's acts of indifference and unkindness are actually a front. He wound up saving the life of a Finder he claimed to not care about in the first D.Gray-Reverse novel. The Finder, Goz, even says to Kanda that "If you really were a cold-blooded person, you'd have left me to die. I'm really sorry for saying that about you." Kanda protects Allen on their first mission from what could've been a fatal attack while he himself was badly injured, with the reasoning of hating people who break their promises (Allen, if he died) more than he hates naive people (like Allen in general).

It could be said that the harsher his treatment, the more he actually cares. That, or you're just being particularly annoying (like Lavi, Allen, or.. Komui). Women, however, may be exempt from this clause; there aren't enough females in DGM to really make a solid point. Lenalee he treats neutrally enough both out of respect of her strength as one of the few female Exorcists, and because her brother can get dangerously scary, but he is not shown interacting much beyond a line or two with Miranda, Klaud Nyne, the Head Nurse, or others.

All in all, Kanda is not simply a flat, constantly annoyed man. His initial approach on things is to be distant and not let anyone close. Being an Exorcist with constant missions that keep him far away from others is rather helpful in this case (and may be the cause of some of it). Even so, after being in the same field for 9 years and living with other Exorcists in the same tower, it's impossible not to grow attached to them in one way or another. An example of this is with Alma, whom he appeared to harbor a great dislike/disgust for. Kanda simply did not like the way Alma could remain so optimistic and happy in a place as harsh as where they were. Near the end of the flashback chapters, though, it's shown that he does see Alma as a sort of friend (in fact, he is even seen laughing with Alma at one point). After the incident with killing Alma, however, he seems to be even more reluctant than ever to let people get close, albeit in a somewhat calmer manner.

And despite how much he pretends that everything is fine and dandy (in his own gruff, scowl-at-the-world way), there is, more often than not, a lot going on underneath. For example, when Kanda is with Asia Branch Chief Bak while waiting for Zhu, he remarks on how "brilliant" it is that the Order is now turning people into half-Akuma to feed on other Akuma. Bak, knowing Kanda's past and being the son of the two scientists who were at the head of the Second Exorcist Project, tries to apologize on behalf of the Order for having potentially hurt Kanda's feelings by making the Third Exorcists. Though Kanda denies being hurt and even punches Bak for 'misunderstanding', stating that he doesn't care what the Order does, it's still clear by his expression afterward that he's more affected than he claims to be. He doesn't like seeing people being used by the Order this way.

inventory: clothes on his back, Mugen, stuff in the pockets. earring communicator.
abilities: also linked and on wikia.

[SAMPLES]
log, action, OR voice post sample: action sample

Plus a log sample because I can:

If one were to ask Kanda what he dreamt of, he'd reply with silence.

Kanda dreams what he sees in reverse. He sees flowers blooming, blossoming beneath his feet with every step he takes. He breathes their unreal fragrance, feels their petals as they brush across his cheek. He sees a little garden atop an endless bog.

He dreams of it rotting.

The world he wakes into has neither; no flowers, living or dead (or dying), no petals, and no bog. It doesn't take more than a moment to realize what he's wearing-- or isn't wearing. Far too light and far too thin, what the hell even who would dare change his clothes while he's unconscious--

--Lavi and Komui and likely Allen aside.

Kanda swats the crackling radio aside and half expects a lotus to fall on his hand. It doesn't happen.

He reaches up to his ear to check if the communicator is still attached, but-- that's missing to. So someone decided it would be a good idea to divest him of his clothes, his communicator, his weapon, and throw him into some box-like room in a fucking hospital gown. Well.

He's been wanting to revise his count on how many punches it takes to turn a face black and blue for a while now.

got a question?: does your milkshake bring all the boys do the yard

i don't want to go to heaven

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