love is just a dialogue

Tue, 02 Feb 2010 05:35:02 GMT

I feel like I'm fighting myself all the time.

I know it's probably just the return of my old friend, Self-Sabotage (we go way back), but it's harder now.

Because this time it counts.

It matters.

It's like:

I've been crusing through school for so long and now I can't - a PhD just won't let you - and I have to undo the way I do everything and start again.

And I don't know if I can do it.

I mean, if I try - if I actually try ... what if it isn't good enough? It might not be. It really might not be.

That's -

it's terrifying.

And I feel like I'm stuck in this place between doing and not-doing, knowing and not-knowing.

Will You Let Me Slip Away/ Into an Armchair for the Rest of My Days

Sat, 23 Jan 2010 05:56:27 GMT

Camera Obscura and Slow Club tonight!!

I'm going to have to skip out early, unfortunately, to get the last train back, so will miss about half of Camera Obscura which is a little disappointing, but still OK because I still get to see Slow Club!

I'm very excited about them - can you tell? ;)

A Long Time Between...

Thu, 21 Jan 2010 08:10:58 GMT

This place had completely slipped my mind! I suppose because there are already a plethora of online journals, very few of which are active (including this one) ... it was inevitable really.

Nevertheless, I have decided to play around with this one on occasion once more. Perhaps as a more personal space? I'm not sure. We shall see.

The Post That Hurts the Most

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 05:05:18 GMT

First post, that is.