i sure hope today gets better ... 'cause so far I've spent most of it pissed off!!

Today has gotten better, yay!
I went to the dentist, and for once --- no cavities! :D

I've talked to my mom a bit more, and we're not upset at each other anymore. I find that as of more recent, I've been honest/open/blunt with her about things, and usually with a better result. Actually, it seems I'm being more open and honest with people as of more recent. Sometimes I have to be blunt with them, because it's the best way to get my point across.

I've started reading "Battlefield of The Mind" by Joyce Meyers -- and so far it's really good, and she's right. I've only read about 20-22 pages, but when she got to fictional character of John as an example, I read it, and I was like 'Oh my word! This is my dad's life story!'

John in the book, has a mother who put him down saying 'he would never make anything of himself' -- which is like my dad, only it was his dad who told him that. His dad never believed in him, and never encouraged him. John didn't like confrontation, and let the wife handle the children, the finances, and everything, and sinked into the TV and sports realm -- something my dad does a lot. He's involved with us, but my mom handles a lot of the finances and everything. John avoids confrontation, and when he has been involved with it, it seems no one listens to him anyway, so he's like 'why bother?'

I read that to my mom, and she agreed that it fit dad pretty much to a tee.

I'm reading through this book, to see if it might help my sister. I was shelf reading one day @ work, and it seemed to jump off at me, as something that might be good for her. So, I'm checking it out, and so far, so good :D

I didn't pass my driver's test today. At first I was really pissed about it, but now after some time has passed, I realize that she probably did the best thing by not passing me. I crossed to far into the other lane of traffic while making a turn in the parking lot, which disqualified me. I also must've gotten quite a bit wrong on the eye test --- so I'm gonna have an eye exam and then re-take the test -- also hopefully with a bit of more practice going around the curves more. I think I was a little nervous about that too ' cause I'm always afraid I might hit the curve... so I'll have to work on that more :D

hope everyone has a nice monday (and relaxing too :)
love & hugs,
~* Kelly ^_^

Please pray for my Dad... he's drinking a lot, and he's saying God doesn't love him.... he's letting the past come back to haunt him. my sister just talked to him, and he's feeling awful about his friends during the Vietnam War who died and he can't remember them. He feels that God will hold it against him for what he did during the war... he was in the Air Force, a crew chief for C-130s, and he never killed anyone, but he feels because he contributed to others killing, and he feels that God won't forgive him for that. And he brought up David... David made a lot of mistakes, but he realized that, and God forgave him. David was a man after God's heart --- God used him for great things!!! Just because you were/are a soldier, I don't believe God holds that against you at all!! He knows the predicament soldiers are in, He also knows that a lot of times you don't want to be there, but you are, and I feel that God holds a special place in his heart for soldiers.

I know God loves him and forgives him, but he needs to know and accept. If you could pray for my dad, I'd really appreciate it. He needs more than what he's living for now.