Something unstoppable set into motion

The Power of Christ COMPELS you!

2009-04-26T01:53:26Z

So Bendis might have just killed off the Son of Satan, after subjecting him to horrible writing, of course.

Oddly enough it wasn't as bad as Warren Ellis's run, but I think that might be that he wasn't in enough scenes for him to be portrayed as badly.

Oh Marvel, why do you doom my favorite characters so? What's worse- why am I sort of glad you killed him off, and hope he stays dead for a while, until Quesada and Bendis leave? Why must I fear that he isn't dead but this will kick off whatever arc with him in it where he will be ruined even more than he all ready has been?

Oh Marvel, why do you have to suck so much right now?

Face meet palm

2009-04-20T17:05:26Z

Dark X-men? Seriously?

Creeeepy (X-posted to LJ)

2009-04-20T03:39:26Z

Ugh. So my head hurts today. Not majorly, not anything like it did before or the day after I had three sodas (not doing that again) but enough that I notice it and it bothers me. It might be that I maybe forgot my pills yesterday but I'm not sure if I did or not. Anyway that's not what I wanted to post about. That's a whole new level of fun.

Yesterday I went swinging at about 7:30. I've posted before about the park that I go to as being kind of shady (saw a joint right by the swings one day, there was an incident as I was living a few years back where about 5 or 6 police cars pulled up, stuff goes on after dark) but I figured as long as I got back before dark I was gonna be safe.

So it's about a five minute walk to the park and then once I get there well I notice there are two guys- one on one side of the park, I think he yelled something but I couldn't make it out and didn't know if he was talking to me so whatever. He was gone when I started heading back so he's inconsequential. The other guy was maybe in his 50s or so and he was leaning against the playground set. This creeps me out. I don't see any kids playing so he's just there on his own.

O.K., creeped out but I can book it if something comes up. I'm thinking I passed several guys working on a yard so if I have to I can scream for help and make a break for it.

So I go up to the swings and start swinging. Not five minutes after I get into it creepy guy walks over and then when he reaches the swings asks me "Did you go to the tea party?"

And I'm just... what the hell? I mean what? Seriously? Why is he over here asking me about that stupid "teabagging" (insert snicker) thing? Is this some weird come on and he'll try and drag me off and rape me?

So after asking "what?" and him repeating the question my first response is "fuck no" because- I mean, still looking back on it my reaction is just "what the hell?"

So then he walks around in front of the swings and asks if I knew what the tea party was about. And I ignore him because the hell. Go away creepy guy! Go awaaaay! And he briefly explains about taxes being baaad (eyeroll) and then I just tell him "I'd like to be alone, mister." because dude- swing time is zen time. I don't even like to talk to cute little kids during swing time (actually cute little kids turn into annoying kids during swing time because I have to make sure they don't run in front of me). So then he says something that I think was (it's hard to hear when you're swinging) "Do you have a problem with Republicans?" and I just ignored him. I think he said something more and kind of gestured down the path out of the park and walked off.

After he's walked out of sight I see down the park that there's a CAR there so I'm thinking "awwww fuck. If he's getting a gun of chloroform or something I'm in trouble." So now that he's out of sight- he can't see me- no one else is in the park now so I just stop swinging and jog out of the park (which ow, out of shape, need to fix) and quickly walk back home.

Life, the universe, and everything

2009-04-09T21:00:03Z

So I should actually put something here. I have no idea how often I'll be using this but I think I might use it about as much as lj, do crossposts, start building up a nice place for me when lj goes down (because I think it will crash and burn sometime, this is why I backed up my journal entries cause I don't want to lose about 6 years of writing).

Anyone reading this is going to know me, unless they accidentally stumbled over this, so everyone will know I lost about 6 months of my life to a killer migraine that wouldn't leave. And that's how I feel, like I just lost that time. Even when I was awake I was in a haze of pain. I'm used to chronic pain but at least I was healthy enough that I wasn't in pain nonstop. These headaches were nonstop and it wore me down that I couldn't deal with it. I was fighting just to not go mad and give up.

As much as I hate Ben for killing himself (and I say hate as in I'm just angry, so so angry, I love the guy), I think his death did help me keep going because I knew just how bad it was to lose someone. The suicide rate for people witch chronic pain is high and I can understand that completely now. The thought of the pain just going on without stop... dear God that was horrifying.

Thank God it's gone. Since then I've started exercising regularly. I got out to swing every day, and it's a nice walk to the park so I'm not only getting exercise from swinging but also from walking. And now that Lucy loves going on walks I can walk her too. I only do that with my mom because I get lost very easily thanks to my spatial disability. It took me a while to get the path to and from the park down.

Life is kinda hard. I'm not in school right now, I'm not at where I wanted to be when I saw myself turning 22 (which will happen shortly) but life never works out the way you expect it to. And you know what? I'm good with that. I'm pretty happy right now and I'm going to enjoy doing stuff while I can and try and stay healthy.