Title: Lost Words
Day/Theme: 24. Talk
Series: Chronicles of Narnia
Character/Pairing: Susan/Caspian
Rating: PG13



I wish we had more time.

She still dreamed of him sometimes.

Small things. Quiet things. The way he looked at her that first time, eyes flickering back, dark and focused. The way he spoke to her. How firmly his fingers folded around hers; a fighter's grip, an equal's grip.

Susan had never seen the sense of diaries, but she had a better comprehension now; the need to confess to something, the need to spill it out like opening up a blocked pipe, so it spills out messily but at least abates. She wrote letters to him, conversations they'd never have, her hand scrawling with uncommon haste and disarray across the page.

She burned them all.

Her sleep got erratic sometimes, her fingers ink-stained. Susan packed all her heart into those letters and bit by bit, with each burning paper, it became too painful to remember.

To painful to even express the words that she would never, could never say.