Temari Loewe

[Aurora Post] Touching Base and Meme Time

2009-07-25T01:17:13Z

Okay. I have made the promise to myself many times to be better about keeping up with this thing, but I mean it this time. Since that date I had was such a disaster and work has been coming up with one dead end after another... I'm going to try putting more effort into posting and commenting on other people's posts.

I'm also going to find someplace to hide until all this Masenshi business works itself out. And I hope that nobody on either end of this conflict does anything rash and stupid that might catch innocent people in the cross fire. In the meantime I'm going to lay low so that I don't get caught up in it... and I think that everyone else should just stay out of the way too.

I found this Personality Test online, though it sounds a little kooky (I know it does okay)... I still went ahead and gave it a try.

My Personality


Neuroticism	41
Extraversion	36
Openness to Experience	1
Agreeableness	1
Conscientiousness	86

You are a calm person who is considered almost fearless by some, however you are not generally self conscious about yourself. People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You prefer facts over fantasy and are more interested in what is happening in the real word. You feel superior to those around you and sometimes tend to be seen as arrogant by other people, however you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You have strong will-power and are able to overcome your reluctance to begin tasks. You are able to stay on track despite distractions.

Test Yourself

More on my Neuroticism score-
You are a calm person who is considered almost fearless by some. You do not usually get angry too easily but some things can annoy you. Mostly your emotions are on an even keel and you do not get depressed easily. You are not generally self conscious about yourself. You do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find yourself tempted to overindulge. High levels of stress can lead to you feeling panic or confusion, but usually you cope with day to day pressures.

More on my Extraversion score-
People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You like crowds but sometimes feel overwhelmed by them. Sometimes you feel like you need some privacy and time for yourself. You like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. You are usually the leader in group activities. You lead a moderately paced life. You like some energetic activities, but also like to relax and take it easy. You enjoy some excitement and risk taking in your life. You are not prone to spells of energetic high spirits.

More on my Openness to Experience score-
You prefer facts over fantasy and are more interested in what is happening in the real word. You are not interested in the arts and do not display aesthetic sensitivity. You tend not to express your emotions openly and are sometimes not even aware of your own feelings. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. You enjoy a certain amount of debate or intellectual thought, but sometimes get bored with too much. You prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition.

More on my Agreeableness score-
You generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. You believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You do not particularly like helping other people. Requests for help feel like an imposition on your time. You are not adverse to confrontation and will sometimes even intimidate others to get your own way. You feel superior to those around you and sometimes tend to be seen as arrogant by other people. You are not affected strongly by human suffering, priding yourself on making objective judgments based on reason. You are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy.

More on my Conscientiousness score-
You believe that you have the intelligence, common sense, drive, and self-control necessary for achieving success. You are well-organized and like to live according to routines and schedules. Often you will keep lists and make plans. You find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining and are sometimes seen as unreliable or even irresponsible by others. You strive hard to achieve excellence. Your drive to be recognized as successful keeps you on track toward your lofty goals. You often have a strong sense of direction in life, but may sometimes be too single-minded and obsessed with your work. You have strong will-power and are able to overcome your reluctance to begin tasks. You are able to stay on track despite distractions. You are not an overly cautious person. You will think about alternatives and consequences but make up your mind fairly quickly.

Test Yourself!

1? REALLY? In Agreeableness AND Openness to Experience? Does that mean that I'm just mean and refuse to do new things? Because I do new things all the time! Well... some of the time, but I think I deserved more than a 1. And I do so like the arts. It's not like I'm taking this serious or anything but those two parts make me sound so, well.. bad. I think it might be broken or something. Could you guys take it too and see what you get so we can compare? ):

... and I guess I could try doing something outside of my comfort zone a little more often. Taking chances though... it's kind of scary.

I should be getting to other stuff now. Remember to take the test and post your results! I can't wait to see what you guys got.

[Aurora Post] OMG! I'm still here!

2009-05-28T04:46:07Z

Sorry for the disappearance, but my computer exploded on me. Well, not literally, but something inside of it did catch on fire after it finally broke down. That's right. It was ON FIRE. I thought that kind of stuff only happened in the movies and on TV. Then my computer has to make this loud popping sound and start spitting out smoke to prove me wrong. I guess that's what I get for bitching about being bored.

I totally missed out on talking about that stuff with the KV, but it's over now, so yay (right?).

Okay, so I have this problem and maybe someone out there can help me out with it. You see, there's this guy at work that asked me out, and I'm really excited about it because he's quite the catch (as my parent's would say). But... I'm really not sure of what to do for our first date. I don't want to give off the wrong impression or seem easy... but I don't want to scare him off either. How can I give him the green light without it being a neon sign that says 'COME AND GET IT BIG BOY'?

And... I don't want to be thinking this, but it was kind of sudden, so should I have played a little hard to get? It seems kind of pointless to act that way, but now I'm starting to wonder... why me?

Also- Sorry guys for not responding to all the comments in my last post! I promise to get to them, sometime! Really! Probably after I stop freaking out about this date. ..... I hope it goes well.

-Aurora, out!

[Aurora Post] Is it just me?

2009-05-19T02:50:01Z

Maybe it's just me and I just don't get out enough... but has anyone else noticed how boring things have gotten lately? It wasn't so long ago that it seemed like every day there was something or another exciting going on in the second district... and now... well it's kind of dull.

Probably for the best since I need to start focusing more on finding an open audition and not wondering what every one's up to... but seriously guys, is there anyone out there just as bored as me?

I've also got the worst craving for some fried chicken. Can anyone help a girl out on where the best place to go is?

That's all I got for now! :)

-Aurora, out!

[OOC] Temari Application

2009-05-10T17:58:13Z

Character: Temari Loewe
Age: 23
PB: Yvonne Strahovski
Classification: Blonde
Occupation: Police, Classified Espionage Division 'CED' (Spy operative)

Background History:

The story goes that a young beautiful girl falls in love with a handsome boy and the two live happily ever after.

That was how the story went, but it's not how it is when they are from different worlds. The young woman from district 1 wished for something more than the loveless (and childless) marriage and successfully hid her affair with the boy from district 2. Though when she became pregnant, circumstances arose that prevented her from ever returning to the second district and she never told anyone about the fact that her daughter's real father was brunette and not blonde. It was the type of secret Caroline should have taken to the grave with her...

Temari wasn't born into a very powerful family, but both her parents seemed perfect enough by most people's standards and had their sights on climbing higher within the society of the First District. Caroline and Frederick Loewe lived respectable lives, though Caroline came from a more well known family within the district they weren't famous, but certainly the marriage was a step up the social ladder for Fredrick. Since Temari was the spitting image of her mother, nobody thought she was anything but as pure as her parents. Well, nobody thought any differently than that besides her parents. She was born after doctors said her father possibly was incapable of having children and she was the only child they ever had. Her father was aware that she was not really his, but since his wife had more status than him and also didn't want it to come out that he was sterile, he never openly accused his wife of having another man's child. He never would have guessed she had gone so far as the 2nd district and assumed that she had just had an affair with another blonde man.

Throughout her life, her mother was very strict and insistent on emotional control. To most people it just looked like she was very diligent about insuring her daughter would become a perfect citizen. The truth was that she really was doing it to protect herself. She feared that since Temari wasn't pure she was defective and that someone would be able to notice something was wrong with her and that it would expose her mother's infidelity. It took years for her anxiety to cease once she realized that Temari was very gifted and had exceptional control over her emotions.

Since both of her parents were apparently concerned about status, they pressed their daughter into pursuing a career in the Police. By the time she was a teenager Temari forgot that the idea was not originally hers and had grown attached to the career path. Since she excelled at hiding her feelings and thoughts, she was chosen to be part of a special unit used solely for infantry and espionage among the districts. They don't call themselves 'spies' openly, and because there are few people that even know about the existence of CED, very few people know what her real job is. The right people would know that she also works to expose people that may be causing problems that would hurt the welfare of the City and it's most pristine citizens, but most people would just assume she's a normal officer on the police force.

It wasn't long after she finished her extended training and joined the CED when disaster struck. Her mother died. But before she passed on she called her daughter to her side and in private shared with her the secret that she had not told anyone else before- That Temari's real father wasn't from the first district. After the funeral, Temari set off with nothing but a name to find the man that could jeopardize her career, her reputation and her entire life. She wouldn't let any Brunette ruin everything that she worked so hard for, and if that meant she had to kill him... she didn't think the world would miss a dirty bastard from the second district. (I'm not going to actually have her mention his name just in case someone would like to take him later on and give him a name.)

Personality/Likes & Dislikes:

To most people, she would come across as very quiet and serious. Her range of emotions are normally very dull, which makes her seem very impressive when she's undercover because of the apparent change of character. In truth, when she is 'undercover' she is acting naturally while when she is 'normal' she is actually holding back so it's a bit of a role reversal. This also is one of the reasons why she is so anxious to do a mission because it's often less exhausting than being out in public as herself. Anyone that has seen her when she thinks she is alone (for instance, her parents) will know the difference and she will sometimes act abrasive and heartless in order to be left alone so that she can relax.

Temari has never questioned what she's been taught about social order and truly believes that darkhaired people are inferior to her and other blondes. She isn't cruel about it and think they're a waste of space, but she is convinced that they all have their own place... which happens to be below the members of the first district. The blondes are the peacekeepers, lawmakers and are better suited to lead to a more prosperous future, while everyone else would only lead them to ruin. It will take a while to undo the lifetime of brainwashing, but that isn't to say that she will never be open to other ideas. That would be very far down the road though, and only after many instances that would impact her dramatically.

If she came across a brunette she would treat them civilly, and would even come across as friendly to them until they did anything that overstepped their station. Quickly she would point out that they were not strong enough or smart enough to do anything besides what they have been told they can do, but she would think that she's 'helping' them by saying so. After all there may be other blondes that would shoot them for acting out of their place. Her first inclination is never to trust them, thinking that they just don't know any better and would not be surprised if anyone with darker hair tried to take advantage of her or do anything illegal.

Within the police, she follows orders without question and has never thought of intentionally apposing them. She goes where she is told to when she's told to, and offers no resistance even if there seems to be something 'off' about it. About the only thing that she will be hesitant about would be killing needlessly. She isn't very big on shedding unnecessary blood and will try to avoid killing someone that isn't a deadly threat. Even those in lower castes she will show mercy to because they may be genetically defected, but they are still people so she wouldn't murder anyone in cold blood without good motivation (like her real father).

While growing up, Temari was continuously coached by her mother to not show much of her feelings, especially the ones that could be used against her. She spoke her mind, but was careful to not always disclose her true feelings. She wasn't emotionless, but she was not seen expressing many except when she was trying to fool others. People could be manipulated by emotion and by the time she was an adult Temari was pretty good at saying the right thing and doing the correct gesture to trick others. This was one of the reasons she was picked for the CED because she could easily gather information and get in close enough to targets to capture them when they least expected it.

Temari has only been on the force for a little more than a year, so she doesn't have much presence among the other officers and is still given the jobs that nobody else wants. She wants to prove herself, but holds back from showing any impatience. If the right opportunity came her way though, she wouldn't hesitate to take it.

Because neither of her parents showed any genuine affection toward her, she's very emotionally stunted. It is hard for her to sympathize or understand when anyone shows any sort of concern or anything resembling kindness toward her. She believes that people act like that when they are trying to manipulate because that is the only reason she has learned to show those types of emotions.

She spends most of her time working, or doing things that make her better at what she does. Training, researching and observing people takes up most of her free time when she isn't on a job, but there are a couple things that she does that aren't work related.

If she needs to clear her mind, or focus if her emotions seem to be too much for her, she tries to clam herself by using Baoding balls. She has a dark purple set of three of these Chinese meditation balls, though they are not called that any longer. She tries to carry them around in a black cloth pouch all the time, and is rarely without them now that she knows about her real father. She doesn't know anything about how genetics, but still feels that being the child of a brunette makes her different and fears that people will discover that someday if she loses control of herself. So unless she is acting in an espionage mission, she keeps her feelings stoic by rotating the meditation balls in her hand when ever she can in order to regulate her emotions if she thinks they may get out of hand.

She has a small collection of four wind chimes hung up in different areas of her apartment so that when a window or any door is opened or closed the draft that's caused will catch the chimes. The sounds are soothing, and if she has a particularly stressful day she will sit in the living room with all the windows open so that any breeze will make the wind chimes go off so she can listen to them.

Temari also has an alias online that she uses for gathering information and for arranging to set up potential law breakers she finds online. She does have a personal account for herself but she is extra careful not to mix the two. Her own account is locked so that only people she has listed can see her entries (well unless they hack into it of course) and her alias account is for Aurora; A young woman living in the second district that dreams of one day becoming an actress. Most of her lines have little meaning to them and only made to 'fish' for people. Normally she doesn't get any leads, but it's not completely useless and plans to use it more now that she is looking for the man her mother mentioned.

Her fighting skills are decent, but she seems to excel more in ranged fighting. She is good with a gun and can also throw a knife with impressive accuracy. She isn't a quick draw, but her aim is very good and she rarely misses a mark. Which is good because she rarely shoots with the intention to kill so she can inflict wounds that aren't fatal without much difficulty. But when she does want to kill someone... they have very little chance to escape once she has a weapon aimed at them.

Other Dislikes---

She seems to be active enough that she has a very healthy appetite, eating a wide variety of foods, though she is not very fond of foods that are spicy. She has a low tolerance, so she would only be able to handle a small bite before she'd need to drink something to waste away the taste and then not eat anymore. Sometimes even the smell of spicy food causes her to lose her appetite.

When people complain, or make excuses, she tends to step forward and take things into her own hands. She wouldn't offend anyone with a higher station than her, but anyone from a lower caste would be free game for her ridicule for being incompetent. And if they happen to be a man that would be seen as lower than her, she would not hesitate openly emasculating them if she thought they needed to be put in there place.

Temari can easily lose her patience and hates listing to long winded explanations. She will often ask for a short description and cut people off if they prattle on without giving her any useful information. The only time she would ever speak out and act rudely to someone in a more superior position would be in a situation where she thinks they are wasting her time, though her objections will most likely be very lame. Anyone else, she will tell them to shut up and even threaten them if they are avoiding to cooperate with her.

Sample Post:

First Person---

I look at the lilies adorning her casket and feel ill. I want to rip them off, toss them to the wind and tell everyone here what a traitorous whore she was. I have to bite down on the inside of my cheek and am able to control myself. I am not an amateur and know very well what is expected of me. I will stand here, dressed in black, hair pulled back without a single strain out of place and aside from the movement my chest makes as I breathe, I will remain still as the dead woman several paces ahead of me while other people talk like they really knew her. Maybe I should even run my fingers over my eyes to wipe away the tears that should be there...

Acting out on my feelings would not be productive. It wouldn't make me feel better, and it certainly wouldn't make her feel worse. She had confessed her sin to me... why? Did she think doing it would free her of some burden that could have prevented her from passing on peaceful? Shit. She didn't deserve to pass on peacefully. She should experience all the hell that could have been reaped onto her. An eternity of damnation and pain. She should return to this world as a dirthair. That is what she deserved.

The world was never fair, so of course she got a funeral where people were talking about what a model citizen she was, the perfect wife, mother and woman anyone had the pleasure to meet. I suppose that I should be thankful that they were fools, otherwise they'd know, or at the very least expect the secret she told me. Bitch. Just because your life was ending, that gave you no right to end mine too. If anyone found out... I'd be ruined. My career, my reputation... sure I wouldn't be kicked out of the district, but I wouldn't be treated the same if others knew, my life would never be the same. I know that He would never tell anyone because he couldn't live with the shame if people found out that his wife turned away from him and went to a brunette instead.

But that other man...

I don't know what my mother has had to do over the years to keep him from doing anything to expose their affair. She must have been doing something. There couldn't be anyone in the second district that wouldn't leap at the chance to weasel their way into the first. Even living as a slave would be a better life... so she must have been doing something all this time, and she just had to die before she could tell me. So I'll just have to deal with him in my own way to make sure he doesn't go and do something stupid like my mother and tell anyone.

Third Person---

It was a loss for the Loewe family. Such a lovely ceremony where so many people stood before the others to speak about all the good Mrs. Caroline Loewe had done. Then the time came for the last speaker to step forward; her only child, Temari Loewe.

A younger version of the dearly departed, she rose to her feet and stepped closer to the casket before turning to face the room.

"I don't have to tell anyone here who my mother was, because it's all been said before." She turned her head down slightly, watching her hand while her fingers brushed lightly along one of the white flowers set on the deep red casket that was her mother's new home. "We all have to deal with losing something important." Like always, Temari was a difficult read as she spoke. Even the people that have known her all her life couldn't tell what she was truly thinking about from the expression she wore and the cool tone that she spoke with. She could be thinking of her mother, about the fried egg she had for breakfast or contemplating killing a person she didn't even know existed a week earlier.

After she pulled her fingers back from the casket, she lifted her head to focus on the crowd. "Once the shock is over, we remember our memories of better times, simpler times..." Standing at attention, her hands folded together in front of her and feet spread apart, she holds her head high. Being strong, and not letting her emotions get the best of her. Who would expect any less of her?

"And we do what we must in order to move on into the future. My mother wouldn't want us to spend any more time thinking of the past when we could be doing something for the future." Her head lowered and she paused for a moment while her eyes narrowed in deep thought. If she was going to make any other confession about her mother, now would be the time... but she had already made her decision about that minutes ago when she was waiting to speak. "I will remember everything she taught me. Everything she's told me, and I will do my duty to be the person she hoped I'd be." She would become a perfect blonde, with no ties to anything less than that. The corner of her mouth twitched with some kind of emotion before she said lastly. "Thank you all for coming." And then she stepped over to stand next to the man she had called father all her life.