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I can't stop thinking about him...

He is literally the last thing I think about before I go to sleep at night and the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning. Gray... Ollie... Jase... I still enjoy hanging out with them, but Benjy is different. He's... better. I can't explain it.

Do you think it's because he was the first... well... the only? He's always been different, but that difference is different. Does that make ANY sense?

I just know that I want him to be near me all the time. I want him touching me all the time... even if it's just holding my hand.

Ugh.

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So.... which of you hotties are taking me out tonight?