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mood •  calmmusic • what I say and what I mean by the like Alright 2 posts in one day. I'm on a roll. So I've been thinking about senior projects for fucking ever. I've had so many ideas including but not limited to: But I think I have finally found an idea that excites me to no end, and I can afford. This project is a t-shirt line. This line will be promoting peace. Peace of all kinds. Peace with the world, peace with other people, peace with yourself, just peace in general. Truthfully, it is ridiculous that there is so much hate in this world. I was also thinking about extending this to all major issues. I was going to take special orders. Like whatever color shirt you want with a certain color of paint. I was going to stencil everything. I know this is going to take forever, but it's worth it if people will listen. I was also thinking of contacting 17 magazine and Cosmo Girl, because they are really big on peace with yourself, like loving yourself and the body you were born with. I think that is really important because you were born with it, and you can't really change it. Don't be ashamed of it, it's yours and only yours, for a reason. Everyone is perfect in their own way. I was thinking about doing minor reconstruction of the shirt to make it a little cuter, like not so t-shirty. I don't know about that though. My mentor will be my grandma, so that will be good. I was also thinking that I've said "I've been thinking" way too damn much. Oh well. I'm going to say it like 5 more times. Anyways, I was going to sell them and the profit I got I was going to keep enough to keep making the shirts and buying the supplies, but donate the rest to the Peace Corps. or something like that. Or maybe make a scholarship. I have no idea. But I've got the foundation...and that's important. I'm so excited. I'm pretty sure the board will approve. My angle will be how being stressed and unhappy affects your health or something like that. To those of you who don't really understand senior projects, they are the single most important thing you have to do when you are a senior. You do it, or fail. End of story. It takes you all year, and you don't really do much else your senior year. It's huge. So lately I've been contemplating things. I can't believe I'm a senior already... I don't feel mature enough, I don't feel old enough. I don't want to grow up yet...I'm just not ready. I'll be 18 in September. That's insane! I'm not mature enough to be an adult! Anyone who knows me will agree. Have you ever been thinking about past relationships and thought "I would really like to try that again..." I've been thinking that lately. I've just realized how truly immature I was. I know a million ways to handle things that used to just ignore. I still realize that all of the variables are the same. There is still 350 miles between us. His mom still hates me I bet. His friends think I'm a huge bitch because of the immature way I handled things. I was talking to Wade the other night and I was like... Fuck, I miss talking to him. I told him that too. I was like, I hope that's not weird to say. But yeah, I just realized in that moment how much we've grown up and apart...but back again. We're still the same people. I can still open up to him like a fucking book, in a way I could never open up to anyone else. It's just so fucking weird. I hate that I'm still not over him. I want to be over him, and I want to be with other people. But when you make future plans, you have things set up just the way you want them set, and those dreams of a perfect future are hard to erase. In the back of my mind I can see up ending up together because we really are perfect together. I bet anyone a million dollars that we would still be together if we went to same school. That sucks, and I hate it. The only thing that still has my mind boggled is why I still haven't had a real boyfriend. I think it's weird that online I have all of these boys saying I'm so hot, beautiful, and if I lived near them they would date me in a second... But here in fucking Indiana, the place that actually matters, no one likes me. That sucks... a lot. I just don't understand. I wish I could just get a real answer on this. I would really like to know. *sigh* Anyways, I think I am done for now. I think I've done good today. I also think I've said "I think" 5 more time like I said. ha. <3 megan |
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music • none. So my grandma is coming home today (Friday). I'm pretty happy about that. She will be on oxygen though, but it's better for her. Not being about the breath properly must really really suck. I mean, I know what that feels like. Ever since I was little I've always gotten this thing called croup. I was born with a really small throat and stuff, so every time I think about getting sick my throat swells up. Especially when it goes from hot to cold or vice verse quickly, but mainly from hot to cold. I hate not being able the breath, I almost died from it when I was 2. So yeah, hopefully, after all of this, she feels better. Today I had guard. That was fun, as always. My sisters birthday party is this weekend, which means there is going to be 28 screaming 3rd graders at my house....yay. I was going to make my sister a dress for her birthday, but I never got around to getting the black fabric I needed, so maybe I can fuck around with some old shirts I have.... or maybe I pillow case, because she's still little. I got my jeep back! Finally, after like...9 months. It was smelly and dirty, so I swept it out, and tried to get all the dust off of the insides. Then I washed the outside, but I realised it was really dirty so I said fuck it. Maybe I will take it and get it washed at a car wash place. The inside needs to be like...shampooed, because the air conditioner was leaking before I wrecked it, and the carpet it all gross. My dad said that he's going to order me seat covers. Thank goodness, because the seats are atrocious. Anyway, I better get to bed. Good night everyone! |
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If I could choose only one it would be teleport. Flying would be cool, and obviously so would being invisible, but if I could teleport then I could go anywhere I wanted in a matter of seconds. I love to travel, and I love seeing new places. It would be like a dream come true. My summe is sooo boring. I don't think I've ever had a summer so boring. I watched the whole second flag video last night. There are some challenging things on there. I'm excited about it though. I can't wait until I get to the weapon videos. Those will be very fun. Speaking of those videos, I was looking up stuff about guard, and my band instructor paid $400 for the 4 videos and workbooks. Not to mention how much he is paying this Marc guy to write our show. I had no idea they would be so expensive. the sectional this week went very very well. The same people showed up as last week, but I think from now on we are going to have a phone tree thingy. Where I call someone and then they call the next person on the list, and so on. That way everyone remembers and they can't use the "I forgot" excuse. If they are actually talking to someone, then they are more likely to give a reason. That's all I want. A call and a reason. But no one calls and tells me they won't be there. Bitches. lol. Well anyway, I finally got all of the lj entries on here. That only took forever and a day. For real. I don't think I posted this yet but I finally got my jeep back. I'm so glad to have my own vehicle. I can't even begin to explain my frustration at having to be late for various reasons that I couldn't control. I hated it, but now I have no reason lol. At last, I must go, I have a sister who is craving attention. <3megan |
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Who introduced you to LiveJournal? Why did you first open an account or get involved? No one really introduced it to me. I've always know about it, but I had always liked greatest journal better. I first opened an account because greatest journal took a shit, well I mean, it's still running, but no one is there anymore...so it's kind of pointless. So I got an account here, and it hasn't been to bad. So yeah. So this week we are going to start learning drill. How weird!!! Usually we wait until band camp to learn our show, but it seems we are going to be finishing the show at band camp. So that is pretty awesome. I need to go and get some paint pens, beacause the pens he gives us are cheap. God I am so excited about this show. Wizard of Oz/Pink Floyd. It's going to be awesome. |
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Vampires or werewolves? I'd venture to say...vampires. |
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music • none My journal is rated NC-17 I did the quiz real quick because I obviously wanted to see what my journal was rated, but dang! I didn't realise it was that bad... It said that I had the words fuck (10 times), fucking (7 times), pissed (3 times), kill (2 times), and bitch (once). First of all, I didn't realise kill was a bad word...no but really. Maybe I really should try to stop cursing....yeah fuck that. |
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music • none So last night I said that my grandma had been put in the hospital. Her results came back. The fluid in her lungs isn't pneumonia, it's from the cancer. The tumor she has is still shrinking, but the PET scan showed that there is not another tumor on the other side of her chest. This means that her cancer is starting to spread. It will start spreading to various areas of her body, and once it gets to her brain...game over. They are moving her down to Indianapolis to give her some special chemo. They said that she would be down there for a minimum of 5 days. So this isn't very good. I'm going to go see her tomorrow morning...or rather, this morning around 9-ish. I'm still going to refer to it as today as in Thursday....because I haven't been to bed yet, there for it still seems like Thursday for me...anyway... Today I had guard practice. Saturday is Pioneer Days so we learned the school song, which I already knew, and our band sounds like shit this year. We are so ridiculously small. It's horrible. We're having a dunk tank, that should be really fun. Tomorrow, as in Friday, I am having Eden and Hope over. We are going to guard things and then swim, pretty much just hang out. We will probably watch more videos and stuff. Probably work on the dance stuff so we can teach it to the new/non-senior girls. It should be fun. My dad doesn't have to work tomorrow so I don't really have to watch Mallory. Well, I must go, because it's late, and I need to get up fairly early. <33 megan |
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mood •  sadmusic • none Alright well, I was planning on going to bed, but I seem to have a lot on my mind. My grandma that has cancer has been getting really bad lately. Her white and red blood counts have been down lately, she can't hardly catch her breath either. I'm really worried about her. Grandpa took her to the ER today around 10:30-ish am. She has had 2 blood transfusions and multiple breathing treatments. I haven't been to see her yet, we just found out tonight. Nice of grandpa to let us know....at 6:30. Mom said she sounded better on the phone than she had the last couple of days. I know it's inevitable that she dies, but who the fuck wants their grandma to die? She was the best grandma ever. It's just really upsetting to know that its closer than what we thought. |
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What should cheese go on, and what should cheese NOT go on? Cheese...cheese should go on just about everything. Everything is better with cheese. If you were exiled to outer space, where would you be sent and what would you bring along? If I were exiled to outer space I would be sent to Jupiter... because its a big planet. I would bring along a big space ship so I can live. On that I would put lots of food and beverages. I would bring along a lot top with satellite internet. I wonder if it works from that far away... In short, I would probably bring everything I own. |
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mood • calmmusic • sweet november by tegan and sara If you knew it was your last day on earth, how would you spend the time? If I knew that today was my last day I really don't know how I would spend my time. There are obvious things I would want to do, you know, like travel, little things that no one notices until its gone. Like have the best milk shake in the world. Things that aren't really realistic to do in one day. I would want to be around my family and friends. I wouldn't want it to be a sad day. I would want it to be hella fun, something that everyone else could remember and be like, hey that was a good fucking day, I wish every day were like that, and I certainly hope my last day is like that. I would get that crazy hair cut I have always been to nervous to get. I would try things with out hesitation because I know that whether or not I could get hurt, fuck, its my last day anyways. But yeah, I would just want it to be fun. Because I love fun. ^_^ So I guess the video isn't that bad. The first section was, but the rest is pretty good. I've been learning some new things. Yeah I've taken notes too. Fuck this is summer, what the hell? Anyways, yeah. So I'm just hangin'. Tomorrow night is Kayleighs party. Kayleigh is my cousin, and it's her big graduation party. I'm kind of nervous to go, because I will be going by myself, and I like to be around people I know, because I'm really bad with meeting new people. I don't know. Like I said...anxious, nervous... This summer kind of sucks so far. You know how you build things up to be so much, but then you get there and you're like fuck this is kind of boring... That's my description of summer right now. I've realised that I've been cursing entirely too much lately. That sucks. Whatever, I don't really give a fuck. Oh there I go again. I'm not going to try to stop. I like it. |
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