§ha§ha ƒuиky §hake™ (zellywellywoowo) wrote,
@ 2008-02-27 02:11:00

Current mood:

stressed

Lately...
I have been starting to feel like nothing is ever going to work out. My life in general is fucked in one way or another. I am constantly in fear of my father dying ever since my mother died which is why i refuse to leave his house. I have been aggitated with him lately and rude because ever since his back surgery last month, the medicine he takes has made him forget so many things and he talks so damned much and he interrupts everything and says the most off the wall shit....thats how my mom was before she died.

Other than that, all my friends are thinning out. Guys who like me, I dont like back in that way. Guys I like, are taken, fucked up, too far, or not serious about their feelings with me. The band i am in has big plans but no one can ever work out a practice schedule and we have a show to do in APRIL that we are NOT going to be ready for.

I want to go to NJ but i know I WONT because of my feelings for Matt. I just want to cry it all out but it will be a waste since I know in 24 hours i will still feel the exact same.

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	kuroitenshi 2008-02-27 08:29 am UTC (link)
	Wow on the family part, that is very sad. hugs I totally know what you mean about the guy problems, I've had everyone of those. I would love to be in a band, I'm sorry that you can't work stuff out. hugs again (Reply to this)(Thread)

	zellywellywoowo 2008-02-27 08:02 pm UTC (link)
	Being in a band is definately fun but what good is it if we dont practice? lol our show is a little over a month away I bet we will have to cancel. Im pretty sick of feeling mixed up when it comes to guys. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	kuroitenshi 2008-02-28 06:38 pm UTC (link)
	nods on all of that It's sad, perhaps...you should beat them over the head until they go, okay. (Reply to this)(Parent)

	bebe 2008-02-27 06:39 pm UTC (link)
	I wish I could comfort you more but words can only do so much. guys are weird. sometimes I think they play more games than girls. one guy in particular, tried so hard to get me. and once I finally gave him that attention, he backs down. loser. usually waiting it out makes me feel better. (Reply to this)(Thread)

	zellywellywoowo 2008-02-27 08:01 pm UTC (link)
	I think waitign it out and not jumping in helps so that when things do come around u will know what to do when the time is right, leave or stay....jumping into things sucks (Reply to this)(Parent)

	pinklipstain10 2008-02-28 06:26 am UTC (link)
	Try bitch slapping someone!!!! (Reply to this)

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