Current mood:

lonely

I am terribly sorry guys...
I am flooding this site with entries today. I will give it a rest tomorrow I promise but I just had my biggest fears confirmed just now.... I really feel like nothing I want will ever come my way. I will never be with anyone I want to be with and i am not destined to be happy.

I feel like a worthless piece of shit. Im upset, sad, depressed and confused.


Do you know how bad it hurts to love someone and have to keep it to yourself?

You can't tell that person you love them because it will ruin EVERYTHING they have going for them and it will possibly ruin your relationship with that person. Then when they tell you they love someone else you feel your heart being ripped out of your chest only they have no idea they are ripping you apart as they tell you cuz you have kept it a fucking secret so that they could be happy with that person....

I should have known it was too good to be true.

I want to die.

That's all I want....