So i went to the jail for a field trip last week and when this guy was just talking about stuff i started sweating really bad i felt dizzy and scared and turned white. Ive had that once before but lately ive been have axiety and freaking out in class...its really affecting my life..so fucked up? but yeah friday i went to katie hansens suprise party it was neon themed..ill have to post pics later if i can find my camera cord thing. didnt stay for very long becuase there was a better party across the street. and then after that a bonfire like a block away. im finally finding out by meeting more ppl like 100 ppl live in my neighboorhood that go to my school lol? but anyways i didnt really drink cuz im scared ill have another panic attack when i am. UGH. Me and alex's 4 months is on saturday..it feels like a lot longer. feels like a year...we are so close. I'm always really close to my boyfreinds but it's dif this time. I cant find anything wrong with him...we havnt had one fight yet and normally i always fight. so yeah prom is on the 7th and im really excited our group has about 40 ppl so we rented 2 party buses and then going to jeffs house for the after partyyy! Then senior skip day is that monday so prob goin up to one of my friends cabins but who knowssss ill def update this after prom....so my pool should open soon and that means summer 08 here i come babbbbby=) IM SOOOOO excited for new jersey in august alex is flying there with me to the beach house and meeting all my familyyyyy including my cousins new baby cuz shes due next monthhhh! I guess im just going to have my grad party there since i have no family here but yeahhhh thats it for now<33