I don't know. I guess I should want to take it back but I feel like idek.. like a new person? Like I can actually breathe? As long as I don't think about everything.. I mean, like about him and stuff. I'm not sorry he knows. He has to know because I can't hide forever. I'm scared of everyone I shouldn't have to be afraid of dad and I'm not anymore.
And I'm not telling you what to do cause obviously you're not gonna listen but can I just veto this find yourself a boy and try to suffer through?? Cause fyi, years of experience speaking here and all, but it doesn't work.