Ok so I never got around to my suspicions about what I thought was going on. I think everything has settled down now. There is a car I want....a beetle. It's cheap and I want it so damn bad. I'm tempted to sell my car, give the money to them, and see if i can give them like $75 a week and drive off in my beautiful new beetle. GAH! I want it so bad!

Things between me and Toby are going great. We are taking a "break" nothing serious we are just gonna stay how we are me here him at his house and we agreed to take care of ourselves first and get ourselves help and then we'll meet in the middle and he'll move back in. So yeah I am looking into a couple of places to where I can go for my depression and see what kind of counseling I can get and possibly anti-depressants.

I hate not updating this poor thing as I should. I just get so busy during the day that I don't bother turning my laptop on unless I am looking for a crochet pattern or a youtube video. Yeah I've been busy lately. I have some laundry to do tonight so I am going to end this here and i pray that I can update soon.