I don't even know what I'm thinking lately.

There's so much going on in my head, but there are so many more important things to deal with. So many people that I know knew Addy pretty well, or more than that. Keegan was good friends with her, Michi and her were close, and Leon...

Poor Leon. I couldn't even imagine...

But I can. Too easily, I think. If something ever happened... could I?

No, no, no. See, this is the problem. Who cares what I think? There are people hurting, people grieving in their own ways, and I should just forget whatever it is that I'm thinking, or not thinking about, and just try to help them. I can't stand to think that there's someone who if they would just talk about it, or if they just needed someone around to be there for them... I don't know.

All I do know is I don't even feel like leaving my room anymore, but if I don't then people will worry. And I don't need to be worried about. There's too much going on for anyone to even notice, thank the gods. I don't want to have to explain things. I don't even know how I would...