| Sins |
[24 Mar 2008|01:46am] |
I only title this entry "sins" because I am currently talking to Alexis about how the pope added 7 NEW deadly sins to the ancient list of 7 deadly sins.
Hey guys, now we have the 14 deadly sins...
This, boys and girls, proves to me that religion is bullshit. Well, duh.
"The new deadly sins include polluting, genetic engineering, being obscenely rich, drug dealing, abortion, pedophilia and causing social injustice."
I'm going to hell.
This should have been the opening scene to the movie Idiocracy.
Anyway...
Uhmmm...
I lost my charger. Went to Tmobile. They gave me a brand new charger for free, but i bought a prepaid phone because i needed a new phone. I'm excited because i can give Drew the prepaid SIM and my old phone. I also went to bath and body works and bought this midnight pomegranate stuff and the coconut lime stuff. It's amazing and i am satisfied.
I came home and Nakita came over. We went to eat at China Bell and it was AMAZING. We rented movies...which all turned out to be about suicide.
Movie overview:
Virgin Suicides- Amazing. I'd never seen it before. Kind of sad. I was upset because I felt that I was left in the dark. There was no real resolution. No happy ending. :(
He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not- Audrey Tatou (Amelie) is the star. It's a CRAZY love story. I loved it. It made me pretty emotional, but it was so worth renting and watching in my opinion. Audrey is a phenomenal actress. I recommend you rent it, but you'll have to read, because it's a french film.
The Suicide Club- Japanese film. It was really weird and I kind of didn't get it. Basically something happens in Tokyo and suicide becomes "the thing to do".
This band of little kids is behind all of the "murders"/"suicides". It's really gory with terrible effects. Also theres some weird guy that looks like a japanese michael jackson/bowie thats in the mix of the suicide club.
Basically mass suicides all over and the police investigate and theres some message their trying to get accross about being connected to yourself. Its a really trippy movie. I can't really decide if i like it or not. I think I did, but you'd really have to have a weird taste to like it.
Its really cute though. Like...gory creepy and funny cute.
OkAy...the opening scene is 55 really hot little asian high schoolers in uniforms from different schools are in the subway station and they all hold hands and jump in front of the train and die.
and another part this guy jumps off an building and hits his girlfriend who happened to be walking down the street. She gets pissed at him for trying to kill himself and all he says is "what a coincidence".
Silly japs.
Well today I wake up with Nakita. We shower, get in spring dresses, get pretty, watch the Virgin Suicides, and wait for my mom. Mom doesn't show. I start to color eggs without her but can't because all the cups in my house are filled with dip spit sitting in the living room because of chris. The trash is piled to my chest of shit because Tyler just keeps piling shit instead of doing anything. He quit his job and doesn't have another so he just plays video games. He owes me money and trashes the house. I start to take out the trash. The trash can is filled with mold and nasty shit from wehre chris's dip cups have spilled inside it. Tyler is still yelling at his video games. That does it for me.
This place is literally tearing me apart. I can't live like this. I have no car because my dad is a low-life piece of shit father who fucked me over and wasted my money. He won't pay me back either. If i had his number I'd call him and tell him to come get the piece of shit, and give me my fifteen hundred back. My house is embarrassing. Everything is covered in dirt or grease from the guys. There are 10 cars in my front yard that is now mud and not grass because they keep driving on it. The dishes are all over the counters and the living room everything is strewn out in the middle of the living room floor. My room is the only room thats remotely clean. I was furious that mom blew me off. Furious that Chris and Tyler are scum, just like every other guy I've ever known. My dad, Chris, my brother, my uncles, every boyfriend or male friend of my mom, dad, brother, or uncles have all been low life lying sacks of shit.
The few decent men I've ever known are probably Drew, Taylor, Kutter, and David from work. I mean, everyone has their hang-ups...but they are amazing.
I wish I had somewhere to escape to. When Drew was around, he was my escape. The Warehouse was my escape from Eric, Tyler, Mom, and my home life. Drew's always been the one to save me from whatever bullshit was at home. He's not around anymore though...
Nakita isn't around. Amanda is so hung up on Taylor she doesn't realize I'm beginning to hate her.
Alexis is amazing, but she has a baby, and responsibilities. I still don't have a car. I would be in the way all the time if I even was allowed to stay there for a few days. I can't exactly drive over there and say hey...and she can't come get me because she's so busy.
It's stressful. I don't know what to do with myself or my time.
...after i tried to clean
i started crying.
I called mom, no answer, so i left chris a voice mail screaming about how much of a fat pathetic peice of shit fuck he is.
Then i cried a lot more. Nakita is amazing. She doesn't make me feel awkward that i was crying. She helped a lot. I loved having her around so much.
Then I called Drew crying.
There's no doubt in my mind I'm completely in love with him.
Within a minute I was laughing and smiling. Literally.
He and Nakita are the most amazing people I've ever known.
I got tears in my ears from laying on my back and crying. So Nakita and I are thinking about getting tear tattoos on our ears. That's exciting. I've been wanting a tattoo there, but I didn't know what.
Mom told me they're doing the tax refunds by the last 4 digits of your social.
Guess what mine is! 0834! that means I will be among the first to get my refund. Only 300 because I'm a kid, but that's still exciting. I will be putting my check in the bank soon too. I should already have my taxes back though. It's directly deposited so i really don't know if i got it or not.
Built to Spill is amazing.
Oh and appearantly
David Ware and Ashley McBride told Ty and a bunch of people that Drew and I are trying to have kids.
This blew me away. I told Ty to tell them I'm already 5 months pregnant. That's too funny.
Also, I just realized my camera usb cord and my phone charger were together. I think they're at Amanda's. I'm sure if thats comforting or just pisses me off more.
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| early update |
[24 Mar 2008|12:21pm] |
Tyler beat me to the shower because I made the dumb decision to get online.
Mom woke me up to invite me to lunch with her.
Yesterday it turns out she went to Wal-mart to buy us a new microwave and some shampoo and conditioner.
She really is extremely thoughtful. She literally works like 65 -70 hours a week.
That's absolutely insane and it makes me feel bad for her.
I feel bad for moms. I have more sympathy for moms than crime victims usually.
You basically give up your life, plans, and ideas to take care of your children.
You love your children so much that you risk everything to make them happy.
And no matter what they will go through a "I hate my mother" phase where everything she does is wrong.
I could kill Tyler for the way he talks to her sometimes...
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