I'm getting married in SIX DAYS. Again! I'm getting married again. I never thought I'd say that. Can you believe that? I can't. Oh my goodness this is---I'm going to go insane and there's really nothing to worry about

EXCEPT EVERYTHING because what if Marcus decides he hates me? Which he has every right to I think because why should he just have to deal with a woman who's not his mum and then JACOB Jacob he's never had to share anything and Marcus has never had to share and then I mean there's just that is just THAT IS ONLY THE BEGINNING AND--- why is it so very hot in this room? The windows are open and I should be freezing but I'm not and it's hot and I need a drink--

--oh, thank goodness for these privacy wards I sound like a bloody maniac.