I honestly don't know what to say to you. I should probably say something meaningful and heartfelt but I can't find the words to put into words. There's a lot of things you didn't see in that conversation between Smeth and I and yeah, I need to move on. I know I do but it's just...hard to do. I'm learning the hard way on everything it seems. I was swept up by Ron Jeremy and I shouldn't have. Yes, I know I've been referring to him as Johnny but that's to protect myself. And him. I know I still have a lot of maturing to do. Life goes on, I know it does. I don't know. I don't know whether to start dating again or just completely cut myself off from men. I know I'm not going to talk to Smeth for a while. It's just for the best. I love him so much Stell. You don't understand. I wish I could use a time traveler and turn back the clock. I...just don't know anymore.

And I know you'll always be there for me. If I didn't have you I think I'd go crazy.

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YOU SLEPT WITH A BLOODY PORN STAR? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? WHAT. THE. HELL. DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY DISEASES YOU MIGHT HAVE RIGHT NOW? WE ARE GOING TO ST. MUNGO'S RIGHT NOW ONCE I MAKE SURE SMETH ISN'T WORKING---A BLOODY--!

It's going to be hard. It's going to be very hard, but you have a family that's going to support you through everything. Maybe just hang out with your girlfriends for a while, maybe working full-time, just something. You'll be fine soon enough, making a great life for yourself.

I'm giving you until Monday to weep and eat lots of ice cream, and then you're completely done with all this drama.

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I didn't know who he was.

I've got some plans made and I've been saving money. I think I want to own my own hair salon. I think I'll concentrate

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That's brilliant! That'd be so cool, I will be your first regular, gossip away with curlers in my hair.

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Curlers? Oh no honey. Not curlers. Your hair is not meant for curler. Maybe some red highlights.

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Highlights! I've never done that before. Hmm.

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You'd look pretty with them. Red and a few blonde highlights. You'd knock Caden off of his feet.

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