shakespeare got to get paid, son   
05:22pm 25/11/2008
 
mood: good
yes, yes he do. thanks a million, married to the sea, for entertaining me for pretty much ever.

my house has a working furnace now. i'm warm. :3

and the weekend starts today. double :3
 
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let me swing by and axe you a question   
04:27pm 24/11/2008
 
mood: blah
music: Enrique Iglesias - "Bailamos"
so today was pretty sweet, i guess. i went to [info]luvotomy's house and we played silent hill 4, got closer to the end, ya know... ran out of health items. XD and i got my research paper back today. 90%. hooray. for some reason, i still have a fair amount to bitch about...

a) last night, i got into a pretty epic fight with one of my very dear friends. it made me crazy, i don't even remember exactly what it was about -- nor do i particularly want to -- but it made me really uncomfortable. i've had a pretty epic anger problem since i was a kid, and what tends to happen when people get me so mad is i say or do things that i don't remember. that or i can see myself doing/saying things that i don't mean, but i can't stop it happening. half the stuff i typed (online fight) to my friend, i don't even remember thinking -- let alone, typing. it was really unsettling because he wasn't mad at me... i'm used to people not talking to me for weeks, for less than the things i said to him, and he really wasn't mad at me...

2) i have an allergy to smoke. any kind of smoke. tobacco, camp fires, whatever -- i have problems trying to breathe it. this is awesome, cause both my parents are chain smokers and they have been since i was a kid. what i want to know is what makes them think that it's somehow okay to walk into my bedroom while they're smoking. besides not being able to breathe, i just plain don't like it. it leaves behind that disgusting smell that makes me want to puke (literally, most of the time). hell, it's not even "okay," so to speak, for them to open my fucking door. that stench floats in every time, because they hold the damn thing wide fucking open so they can talk to me about whatever stupid bullshit they're saying.
...yea, there's a lot of animosity here toward them. >_>

iii) why do people link me to shit all the time? i mean, i send people links but i don't always expect them to click them. i do it cause i'm bored... i <3 my friends, but seriously, i hate when people send me a link and then quiz me about it later. i don't always pay that much attention. i mean... did i listen to the song you sent me? yea. do i remember what was my favorite part about it? what are you, crazy? of course i don't remember. can you quote the stupid ass web comic i sent you last week? yea, didn't think so. hush up, then.

...wow. i really am a bitch, hm.

the mood is actually sort of a combination of blah/happy. but blah is cuter. and yea, that's right. check that music. XP

 
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hoshit!   
02:04pm 23/11/2008
 
mood: accomplished
music: L'Arc~en~Ciel - "瞳の住人"
so... yesterday only got more and more kick ass after i typed that other entry. i got home, typed an entry, then got a call from my friend aaron... i haven't seen that kid (who is actually older than me) since like june or july or some shit. so i went over to his fancy new apartment and he showed me around (he was still living with his parents last time we were talking) and all that stuff, and then we made spaghetti (i mostly just got in the way, because that's what i do when i'm in a kitchen with anyone else) and watched iron man. i fucking love that movie.

so after the movie it was getting pretty late and i decided to take my leave... then sharra texted me while i was driving home talking about how she wanted to make a pie, and obviously i would have to go over and help (get in the way). we went to the grocery store to buy stuff and soon got to the business of making delicious apple pie. from scratch. then i was over there till about 3am waiting for pie...

okay, it doesn't matter how tired you are; 3am pie is a wonderful idea. always.

...then i woke up at 1pm or so. yeaaaaaaaa.

and it's official: rhode island has the worst drivers in the country. that's not my opinion or experience; history channel just told me so. i'll believe it.
 
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izzat yo boyfriend? is he bringin' you some mike'n'ikes?   
04:01pm 22/11/2008
 
mood: disappointed
music: Children of Bodom - "Somebody Put Something In My Drink"
oh my. [info]luvotomy and i spend way too much time hanging out. consequently, we think we're damn funny, making fun of silent hill 4 like this. actually, scratch that. we don't think we're damn funny -- we are damn funny. XD

that game sucks, though. it is seriously my least favorite game ever, at the moment. seriously. i'm not saying i like ridiculously easy puzzles, but a lot of sh4 is just completely ridiculous, nothing really makes that much sense. and fuck walter sullivan; that guy is a douche.

shit. watching animal planet makes me sad. this pit bull got attacked by two bull dogs, and he's all hurt and sad. wait, shit. what? the owner's going to have it killed? bullshit! poor babyyyyyy. ;-;

oh yey, i found a subject for this entry. i fucking love dogs. especially so-called "aggressive" breeds. the count down of my top five dogs are as follows:
1. german shepherd
2. pit bull
3. rottweiler
4. irish wolfhound
5. rough collie
((6. tundra shepherd))
^- the tundra shepherd doesn't really count much, because i don't think i'll ever be able to get the proper license(s) to own one. D:
but note that the top 3 are the ones with bad reputations... and a reputation is all it is, let me assure you.

...wow. just because you don't like raccoons, doesn't make it okay to capture and torture them. apparently they were throwing scalding water on a raccoon they had trapped without food/water for a few days?? wtf. o_O i gotta quit watching this channel... it makes me sad.

 
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professor! professor!!   
04:43pm 19/11/2008
 
mood: content
music: hide - "TELL ME"
evidently i am watching some show about peruvian prisons... hm. it's all that's really on. whatever.

today was pretty nice. i went to [info]luvotomy 's house and we finished silent hill 2 and started on 4... other than that, not much happened, actually. i didn't go to spanish, and i don't have english class again until december.

it's also pretty nice outside today, so i'm not too cold in my room. as a result, i don't really have anything to bitch about today...

 
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this is how we do it   
07:00pm 18/11/2008
 
mood: cynical
music: Cher - "The Shoop Shoop Song (It's In His Kiss)"
abc family is counting down to the 25 days of xmas. they are counting down to the countdown to xmas.

halloween and thanksgiving might as well just stop existing officially. everything from september to january is "the xmas season" these days, and i swear it gets worse every year.

don't get me wrong, i love [winter holiday] as much as the next asshole... but seriously. there was a time when the xmas season didn't start until after thanksgiving. i promise, it was like that once. i even remember it myself, sometimes, on those cold winter nights in early december when i'm already way too sick of xmas carols because i've been hearing them for the past two-and-a-half months.

the really sad thing is that we all know it can only go downhill from here. i know i'm not the first to say it, but i think it bears repeating; for a time that's supposed to be about love, giving, and togetherness, the holiday season is considerably rife with selfish douchebags. people actually act even worse this time of year than they normally do. yet for some reason they still expect more... i don't think that's how it works.

me? i always put my change (and sometimes my $1 or $5 bill(s)) in the salvation army bucket when i leave a store. i'm no fucking star pupil or whatever, but i won't lie -- i do give myself credit for that. because it's more than most people do for anyone else all year.
 
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peekin' into my brain   
09:46am 18/11/2008
 
mood: bored
music: The Birthday Massacre - "I Think We're Alone Now"
who doesn't love some nice, trashy television? i don't have to leave to go to school for another hour or so, and there's not a lot to do other than watch jerry springer and maury.

trailer trash incest and a gay rapper whose ugly-ass boyfriend is cheating on him. now that is quality entertainment.

what the hell are these people even saying? that gay rapper sure is sassy, though.

why is the bored emoticon crying? shit dude. i'm not that bored.

 
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interspecies erotica; you got a goat, we got a show   
08:43pm 17/11/2008
 
mood: cold
music: 下村陽子 - "Waltz of the Damned"
this actually has nothing to do with that at all.

i'm bored. so... yay, journal entry? it's damn cold in my room... i'm working on my rpg stuff, actually, so i think i just sort of needed a break from making family trees and doing character sketches. i'm actually kind of disappointed...

one of my characters is an american indian, and i blame that on my attempting to rekindle tribal affiliation. the character is of the same tribe i am (or would be, if the indians knew how to check their email...). and back then, i had sort of hoped that someone would've been able to teach me stuff, and i could learn about my heritage, and all that crap. but anyway, i looked up some names for my character's family members -- mostly surnames, actually, so at least that is an accurate usage. but i stumbled across some first names, which i checked in an online blackfoot-english dictionary. so the problem is usage. one in particular is listed on some sites as being male, some as female, some as gender-neutral... my guess is the third. i tried a while back to get the basic idea of pronunciation and simple grammar of the blackfoot language, and i don't remember any words being gender-biased other than the obvious; his/her, stuff like that. so hopefully...

still it is kind of bugging me. the character may actually be the basis for an ogrot project proposal. i wouldn't want something published with such a glaring error. well at least i wouldn't be the first to make a stupid mistake like that. i've seen worse than that many times before.

and i still wish someone from the tribe would get back to me. it's been months, so i don't think they ever will at this point. and i'd heard that might happen, but still it's kind of a burn that they couldn't even bother to say something like "sorry, but no"...
 
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you only wish you had written this shit   
05:33pm 17/11/2008
 
this
is the
scribbld
entry that
pwns your
face. that's
because this
journal entry
looks like a
totally cool,
awesome,
bitchin, ass-
kicking, damn
nice, fancy-pants,
hardcore, completely
epic, high-flying, space-
exploring, planet-discoverin'
blast-off-ing
rocket ship.
entry over.
for
now.

mood: amused.
music: finntroll - "korpens saga"
the box messed up my rocket ship. >_<
 
 
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well hot damn   
06:11pm 16/11/2008
 
mood: accomplished
music: Cher - "Half-Breed"
i have just finished my research paper. completely. forever. and now all i can think about is *metal metal metal*... i'm actually kind of impressed with myself because i started the damn thing about a week ago, and it's due tomorrow. that's damn early for me. usually i can whip out a full research paper, research included, in under two hours. granted, this one is like 18 pages long... so a week seems pretty reasonable, i suppose.

we did a peer review on wednesday, also, and i managed to have a comprehensive draft for that. actually, we passed ours around with a sign-up/comments sheet, and there will be extra points for turning in the sheet and showing that we were there and we actaully had it there to be reviewed. i was making horrible,  morbid, black metal doodles all over mine.

seriously. i'll  be turning in alongside my research paper a sheet with these tiny pictures all over it. a decapitated pig head (black metal classic)... upside down cross... thor's hammer... crap like that. it's like i'm a high schooler. :P

note the music. yes, i listen to stuff like cher. metal and cher.
 
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gaming, yo   
12:03pm 15/11/2008
 
mood: excited
music: Soft Cell - "Where Did Our Love Go?"
alright, i'm pretty ashamed to say that i'm part of a game that uses the buffy the vampire slayer system. i'm in this game solely because i was assured that the game itself would have nothing to do with buffy -- i've never seen the show and have no intention of doing so, but the system is actually pretty alright. very straightforward and easy to use, a really good one if you're running/playing a game with beginners. but anyway, the set up is sort of like a television show in that we do it in seasons. so our season is about over, we've got like two more sessions in it, and then we may be waiting till next spring (it is a distinct possibility) for the new one. x_x

so my character is the only one in our party who is a hero (as opposed to a whitehat, the sort of classes... basically i started out with more points to spend but less plot points to use), and that's always fun. this is the first time i've actually played anyone who was central to the story in such a way. which is great, because i've put so much work into my character that he has a bunch of side-story junk going on that has actually integrated itself into the main story. the bad part is that this means my character is always running off doing his own stuff and leaving everyone else more or less completely defenseless.

...yea, he doesn't think about others much.

but anyway, i was really excited last night when i got home. after our session ended, we talked a little bit about what we're gonna do while we're waiting for the next season, and our gm mentioned that he would be interested in running a new game with another system, if we'd like to keep meeting. looks like that's what we're gonna do, but i finally realized my character type.

for those who aren't rpg-ers, what i mean is... well, each person i know has a type of character. for example... one of my friends always plays someone who is both mentally and physically weak and relies almost exclusively on magic. another of my friends always plays someone who is a complete tank, deals massive physical damage and is pretty okay at weapons use.

this is the first game i've done well in because i have stumbled across my type. my type is a hunter. this is good, because they're usually pretty well-rounded and i strive for that. generally they will be physically focused, but mostly in dexterity and secondarily will have a high strength. the mental stats are still generally average or above average, which is good, cause i don't have to play someone dumb.

i'm still massively excited about the game i'm in now. i want to know what will happen~ >_<

yea, that's right -- i listen to soft cell. so you see, it's not exclusively metal. XD
 
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oh, you criminal -- society!   
02:38pm 14/11/2008
 
mood: crazy
music: Children of Bodom - "Next In Line"
i certainly do loves me some good pre-anthropology conversation. we got into it (a compelling discussion, not some sort of argument) on society this morning, and i was kind of surprised that my professor actually agrees with me. perhaps not in these exact words, but the basic concept. this is something i've been saying for years now...

our society -- and my understanding based on conversations i've had with international friends is that this is global society where i had initially thought it was specifically the united states -- not only allows and perpetuates, but encourages and even rewards stupidity. this is a serious problem.

personally, i think we need to get rid of any and all safety regulations that should be common sense. anyone who doesn't know enough about what it means when something is hot to not iron her clothes on her body deserves to get burned in the process. these people also don't deserve to sue mcdonalds for giving them the luxury of hot coffee. (and yes, it is a luxury -- both hot drinks and coffee.) i'd go so far as to say that we shouldn't pity some bitch who gets raped because she's wearing a micro mini-skirt and a tit-bearing crop top. but even i admit that's pushing it.

that's not to say that legitimate accidents or attacks should not be acknowledged. i don't think we should blame any woman for being raped, but especially not one who wasn't walking the streets looking like a hooker in the first place.

okay, that's a bad example. well there's also my uncle. he actually had a lidless cup of hot coffee more or less thrown into his lap in a drive through. alright, it would be one thing if he had been tarded, and it would have been an accident if he had spilled it himself. but this drive through bitch caused damage to the seat of his car, not to mention his crotch. that kind of insolence is unacceptable. and my uncle was unable to sue, by the way. and that is the whole problem.

we reward stupid people with settlements and government aid. at the same time, we cheat and belittle injured persons, or in general anyone who has a legitimate complaint. mcdonalds made you fat? go ahead, have a lawsuit. it was their high calorie food that made you morbidly obese, not your lack of both judgment and self discipline. someone threw coffee at your crotch? bullshit. too bad for you. you get nothing but hospital bills.

what's that? you're a single mother with seven kids and you don't want to work? oh, you're on drugs, you say? alcoholic? neglectful? my god, you really do need these food stamps that you will sell in front of the liquor store in order to buy alcohol/drugs. alright, so maybe there are a few people on welfare or other government aid who actually need/deserve it. i'd be willing to bet there aren't many.

when i own the world, this thing will be more closely monitored. and stupid people will be forced into slavery or made to fight each other to the death for my amusement. gladiator style.

maybe i am just a morbid, cynical douchebag.

again, i'm impressed with how appropriate my song is for this entry.

i am the chosen, next in line
sent to slaughter all mankind

:3
 
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damn, nurse   
12:27am 14/11/2008
 
mood: productive
music: Mayhem - "The Freezing Moon"
i wouldn't call it marketing myself, but i've always thought an introductory post would be a good place to start a new account on the interwebz. how to introduce me? that's the hard part. especially when my profile tells just about as much as i'm willing to, at least for now.

well i guess i can elaborate. :P

i do very much enjoy video games -- any genre exept sports -- but also games of the card, board, and role-playing varieties. other hobbies include reading and being moderately well-mannered as often as possible. i'm college-ing and i plan to major in history. mostly just because it's easy...

in my free time, driving time, studying time, eating time, internet time -- so really, all of the times -- i listen to music. this really is more or less constant; i've only recently stopped leaving a cd on while i sleep. acceptable genres are anything other than country or rap, but my favorites are definitely black metal, classical, and disco (yes).

this is kind of boring. except for the "metal and disco" bit. i'm totally hilarious when you get to know me, i swear.

what an appropriate song to start off with, too. :3
 
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