| Still Searching. Week Number 2 |
[Jan. 5th, 2009|05:17 pm] |
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| [ | Current Music |
| | Senses Fail - Can't Be Saved | ] |
So its week 2 of the year.
and yeah i guess this year doesnt feel to good.
I don't know why. but i havent had a happy day yet.
and i have a new scar
grim
ill get right back up again.
i promise you.
I want to sort my life out more than ever.
hence the no drinking.
i think i may actually last a long time this time.
cause my head needs it.
thats alll this lack of drinking is over.
i need to sort my head out.
its not a resolution.
i just can't be doing with feeling that low.
oh and im back on the weights aswell.
haha lets see how that pans out. but thats always good for feeling better.
Infact that brings me to picture of the week.
it was going to be a picture of the weights.
you know for a new start etc.
but no.
noticed the song of the week?
Can't Be Saved by senses fail.
well thats also to do with the picture :
Yes its ".Can't.Be.Saved." written in fancy writing.
this is what i want to get as my first tattoo.
and ive kinda fully decided on that fact this week.
the font just seems perfect for me.
and as for the meaning. well it means alot to me.
plus its a nice way of showing my pessimism.
i fucking cannot be saved.
(how pale the song just came on my windows media player. its on random)
I know it's hard for you
To understand what I'm going through
But now I sit here to remind myself
You're always dressed to kill
And you feel like you owe it to the world
But you owe it to yourself
And you're, you're not here
And I can't stop pretending
That you're forever mine...
I really fucking hope next week's blog is just full of happiness
cause this one makes me sound suicidal.
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