I am so much older than I can take

Rushing is crazy. It's one party after another with tons of free food and alcohol. Not to mention hot guys everywhere. I could get used to this.

Apparently pledging isn't as fun, though. And a lot of the guys either talk only about girls and partying, or subjects I don't know anything about -- usually whatever their major is (there's a lot more philosophy majors than I'd ever expect in fraternities). And it just gets painful once they ask me anything about myself.

Classes are picking up and it's only the third day, so I'm steadying myself for a stressful fall. I've got homework -- homework; it's such a weird thing to say. I don't mind it, though. I used to read up on this stuff for fun, now I'm actually doing it for a reason. Harder than googling an article or two, but nothing I can't handle. Yet.

I dyed my hair. I went with blue and black highlights; so far so good. No one shouting porn quotes at me or anything. I think I did a pretty good job myself, though maybe I should've taken that Ino girl's help. The highlights are kind of messed up underneath, but it's not like anyone's going to see that.

Gonna get back to studying. Pool party in a half hour.

((OOC: Hair looks kinda like this with more obvious black streaks through it.))

I have my fall class schedule organized officially now.

CHM 2095 - Chemistry for Engineers 1
CHM2045L - General Chemistry Laboratory 1
MAC 2311 - Analytic Geometry and Calculus 1
JPT 4510 - Representations of Japan's Modern Empire
BSC 2010 - Integrated Principles of Biology 1
BSC 2010L - Integrated Principles of Biology 1 Lab

I'm looking forward to it. I'm trying to play catch-up with my math and biology knowledge in the meantime. College is such a foreign concept ... I have no idea what to expect. Still over a month away, though. I'm impatient for it to start already.

I was pulled over by a cop for speeding for the first time today. I almost ran from him before I remembered I'm legal now I have a license and the car is in my name. I got out of the ticket, though, because he recognized me. I guess a lot of people around here at least know of FGI and a few of the actors/actresses because it's such a big company. Or he's just a perv.

He said he stumbled on my website. It must be the one Deidara put up. I'd wondered how it was doing, if it's making any money or not. He said he wants more posters.

Just to let everyone know, Sasuke is in rehab (yes, again, haha) since Monday night (5/3) and won't have any phone contact for 15 days ... and he's technically supposed to be there for 30 but that's a long damn time not to do anything in the comm, so yeah I'll be cutting it short (and just 'assuming' 30 days passed or something). So yeah, I'll be scarce for awhile.

I don't even know what to type. I've been gone awhile ... obviously.

I started work again, so those of you who even recognize me, you'll see me around more often. Maybe. If you get into any legal trouble. Or just want to stalk my uncle.

Why are fun things only fun when you're drinking or on drugs? I feel like I'm missing something everyone else has figured out.

Whoever this 'Obito Uchiha' person is, you're not amusing nor are you clever. Stop fucking around. Madara, stop humoring him.

Practically forgot about this thing. Probably because I stopped working here for awhile. Well, I've got a job again finally. I'm an assistant to Madara's ... secretary. Or something. Who's a complete and utter bitch, by the way. All they do is argue constantly and she does absolutely no work. Yeah, this is what's occurring on the high end of this company. It's a wonder it hasn't gone under already.

It's exhausting, waking up at six in the morning. People actually do this on a daily basis? There's something absurdly wrong with waking up before the sun has even fully risen. I hate sunrises, anyway. It just emphasizes the long day ahead. Give me a sunset anyday. Nothing exciting happens until nighttime.

I know I'm complaining a lot, but it's not so bad. Beats what I did before.

Paperwork calls. Nii-san, if you read this, bring me coffee. I'm going to need it.

What does age matter if you qualify for the job? It's discrimination.

There's only so much you can do on the computer and so much you can watch on TV before you're just bored out of your mind. I did catch Kubrick's A Clockwork Orange on one of the premium movie channels, though. I remember seeing it when I was younger, and it only terrified me. I wouldn't watch it all the way through. Now I understand it. I think I'll read the book.

Has anyone else ever seen a movie that kind of ... lingered with them after it was over? One of those you just can't get out of your head immediately, like you can with most.

I'm bored. Humor me.

( Private to Naruto. )

( Private to Kisame. )

That's it. I'm not doing another sex scene until the lights work again.

When you feel like your life is never going to change because it's an impossibility, do you try to accept it and move on? Distract yourself? Find something else to manage the fact it will always be the same? It's only ... what's the word ... theoretical, I want to know. I've read and heard about plenty of people stuck in their life, and the majority of them never get out of it. So I wonder what goes on in their heads. If they just pretend to be content, or really fool themselves. Or if they just accept that this is their fate and that they have to endure.

I like that word. Endure. English isn't the most elegant language, but it has some good words.

Mr. Senju, I want to come in and stay at the Angel's Hell for as long as I'm allowed. I know I'm not scheduled straight through the weeks like that, but I'd prefer it at the moment.

( Private. )

((OOC: If anyone's wondering wtf is up with Sasuke, just refer to this.))

Started work at Angel's Hell this week. It's ... different. A lot of the rooms are themed. The dress code is specific. We wear what they tell us to. For me it usually involves tiny shorts. Whenever a customer comes in, we line up and they pick who they want. I thought it might be a little less demeaning, but ... it's not. I like doing movies better.

I turn nineteen in a couple days. I hate getting older. The older you get, the more useless you are.

( Private to Itachi. )

Hey gaiizzz. Just dropping another link to a little gossip that's going around. Feel free to have your char have come across it, and talk amongst themselves if they would give a crap. Haha.

K IM OUT.

This is a journal, but it's a public journal. So isn't it just talking to other people about your problems? That doesn't make any sense. No one wants to hear about other people's problems. Especially co-workers.

But I'll do what I have to do.

So I guess ... I can't sleep. I don't ever sleep unless I've downed pills. I already know most of the treatments they do. But what do other people do when they can't sleep? Maybe if I hear from someone normal I'll figure out what it is I'm missing. Or not doing right.

I don't know what to think of this thing. I'm probably not even doing this right.

((OOC: Strikes definitely invisible.))

Edit:((OOC: Scribbld can kiss my ass. Sorry guys, gonna have to re-comment or ignore this now.))