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May 26th, 2008

06:41 pm

argh
so the past four nights i cant go to sleep..ill just be getting tired around 4:30 and its getting insaneee...So much has been going on.my boyfriend is back and called today<3 that and me and tims little rap battle were the highlight.I dont want to see her regret her decision.but if its what she wants ill be there 204575673% anytime she needs me...So yeah.i have like this thing for falling for family friends without knowing.honestly its like twisteddd..dfjkgbdfgjkdb bahhh...i honestly dont see how he loves me im soo weird.if he only heard me and catherine on the phone ohh jeeze..and if he heard you know catherine...id cry myself to sleep lmfao.so i was like bed bound today.but i refused so i was walking around.i hate him i want to tare him apart for all this shit..i swear to god..try to come near my sister and ill be back on the cape within seconds.WATCH ME.you sick nimrod.i miss jamesss....and bearcubbb and andd timmmyy and catherine and dann and putting ketchup on kyle..man josh thinks im hyper now..wait till the day im wide awake and actually had a monster 10 minutes before seeing him.i miss the graveyardd..argh..i feeelll soo baddd for douglas.and i couldnt being to imagine if i lost tim.he was a cool dude..didnt know him that well but when he was over my house and that time at bonkers..kay im done..ill write tomorrow....

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April 26th, 2008

07:07 pm

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moving is a nightmare.
so here i am with a mixed up mind.I have someone i love back home.and a old lover here im dating.the one back how is extremely close to me.and i gave him everything.he is amazing.me and him the same exact personality and we fit in each others life perfectly.he told me he loved me.whenever were half awake we tend to tell each other the truth.and things we've kept from each other.and he would always tell me how much he loved me and how much he wished he could tell me to my face.then i have this guy here.my boyfriend.hes 18.im 15.the one back home is 4 months and 4 days older=P but the 18 year old one.has changed alot.couldnt handle the distance.then when i finally found love again he asked me out.and i said yes.because yeah im still not over him.so i moved back.and only hae seen him once.still feels like long distance.doesnt call.doesnt hang out.but the guy back home i talk to him like 24/7 and he does the littlest things to make me laugh and smile.and he was gonna come here for april vaca but he didnt have enough money.i wish i could tell him i still love him.i would do a long distance with him.from the first day i met him i liked him.and if you only knew the things we've talked about.the things we've done.the things we've talked about.the kid is kinda a player.but were both the most important person to each other.and i know ive changed him for the good.like he has with me.but the 18 year old one i dont think really cares im back and really loves me.cause if he did.wouldnt he of tried a long distance? and i havent hung out with him for like a month and a half.and ive been back for like that much.ONLY SAW HIM ONCE!..so im torn between..old love..and new love.and they both seem like its true.and i have no idea what to do!.
lmao that rhymed.the kid from home knows me inside and out.he makes me feel extremely beautiful.and i feel comfortble around him.like i hate my body.but he makes me feel comfortble in my own skin.and the 18 year old has changed.and just some things turn me off about him.but when i kiss him it feels soo right.and when i kiss the one back home it feels like its just to make out.like it didnt feel like anything.but if it didnt why do i still constantly think about him?

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