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Ruby did her very best to pull herself together, sniffling and rubbing furiously at her wet cheeks as Emma kissed the top of her head. "I s-sure feel like a fuck up," she muttered back, exhaling heavily and trying to let the rubbing of her back relax her a little. Every single time that she thought about everything though, the mess she had caused, it made her feel panicky all over again. They were safe for now, out here tonight, but what about tomorrow? Everything would look even worse in the morning, she was sure of it.

She cracked a small smile at Emma's story, lifting her head a bit to look seriously at the blonde again, squinting her eyes a little. "Mars knows things, y'know. I bet she could read you like a book," she teased her. Ruby had felt very much the same way though, if she was honest with herself. Things were just better with Emma, they just sort of went together in a way that other people didn't get. Even when she had been with Rob, she had always had more fun when she was spending time with Emma instead. Being separated was hard. She could still remember how scared she was that she would have to go to Blue Ridge without her.

"You're my lost puppy," she laughed weakly, her head resting heavily on Emma's shoulder again, kissing it through her shirt as the other girl rocked them in the sand. "He's gone," she whispered back, though that reality was still setting in. When she thought of him, she could still feel his weight on top of her, his unbearable beer breath, and the uncomfortable feeling of him sliding into her. But he was gone, Emma was right. He couldn't hurt them or bother them now. "Just you and me, he's gone. We'll just.. forget tonight, everything. Our secret, right?"

She knew that word would get around the school, when people found out that Mars had killed her boyfriend, people were going to assume she was involved. They would figure something must have happened. But she wasn't going to talk about it, and she wasn't going to take shit with people hassling her about it. Dealing with all of the bullshit would be a good, but rough, start to toughening herself up and taking over. It was nobody's business but theirs.

"Nobody else," Ruby agreed, lifting her head again and pressing a kiss against Emma's cheek, lingering a moment before pulling back. She squeezed Emma's pinkie finger again, pulling their tangled hands close to her chest. "I don't want anybody else, I didn't.. it wasn't supposed to h-happen, I swear. I wish it was you," she whispered, feeling herself choking up again.