She took another deep breath, and scrached the back of one hand with her short nails. "I know that getting paranoid is a bit extreme, but I mean--Naruto got glass, shards of glass. If this is the first step, I don't even want to know what the next will be. I just...want to figure it out before we start getting dead kittens in the mail or something like that."
She paused, and looked out the window for a bit. Avoiding her companion's smart look, and her own doubts. "It would've been easier if maybe it all didn't happen today. Finding out the reason behind their fight, and now...tonight, I'm supposed to meet Naruto--I don't even know how I'll react. I don't know if I'll hit him for not telling me, or what. I don't--it's like our friendship is a fragile little thing, and that every time I want to get angry at him, I feel like I shouldn't because the fact that I always left when I was a kid is my fault. And then I get jealous because he has other, better, friends, that stick by him and write and leave notes, and I don't even know how close to him he thinks me to be anymore..."
She looked down at her hands, words falling out of her mouth, fast. "I love my friends. Even when they annoy and anger the hell out of me, I love them. And I have--I can't stop feeling guilty for whatever pain I caused him, but god, I was only thirteen. People at thirteen don't have brains to beging with, so I just..."
A sigh. "I'm just barely learning self-suficiency at twenty years old, and it's embarrassing, yeah, compared to how my other friends are all independant and great, but I take my time. I take my time, and I'm still in a coccoon, and I'm afraid of taking my time because I feel like that's another thing they--he--could blame me of."
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