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halloweentown!!! ([info]halloweenish) wrote in [info]politico,
@ 2010-01-14 01:20:00


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Entry tags:murphy, vegas

murphy, vegas
The nearest hospital to Adam Banks' place wasn't very close to Vegas' home, but he and his parents were on the next flight out, as well as Seth. Vegas was waiting anxiously in the waiting room, pacing back and forth while Seth stood off on his own by the window. The man looked haggard as hell, and nervous, and Vegas wondered what Murphy was going to think of Seth when he saw him. What he would think of all of them.

First his parents went back, and it felt like forever before they came out and his mother told him that it was his turn to go and see his brother. For a moment, he stood frozen to the floor, and he felt like he might be sick. What was he suppose to say to Murphy after all of this time?

But within seconds he was on his way down the hall, and the second he was in the room he just started to sob as he went to clutch a hold of his brother on the hospital bed. Murphy looked a little grey, thinner than he should have been, and Vegas could tell that he must have had an attack during the rescue because he had an oxygen tube up his nose.

"Oh my God," he muttered softly as he squeezed his eyes shut and held onto Murphy desperately, afraid he'd disappear if he didn't hold on tight enough.



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mika is like, 'i told you so'
[info]wednesday
2010-01-14 07:34 am UTC (link)
Today had been a stressful day and Murphy was teetering on the edge of sanity. He'd always been fairly fragile as far as his health was concerned, but the three years spent in the little cage in the basement of Adam's home left his mental health deteriorating and today it threatened to snap. He'd said goodbye to all of the other boy's, watching as they went with their loved ones. Parker with Callaway, Shay and Elijah together. Reagan with Liam. Murphy was the last to have any family show up and by the time they got there he had been crying for almost an hour. The nurses kept trying to calm them down but he just told everyone to leave him alone. He didn't want to be around anyone, didn't want anything but to go back. He was too broken now for the real world, and he wanted nothing more than to go back to the safety of that tiny little cage. But he didn't have that luxury. When his parents came back he was quiet. he let them hug him and he promised them he was all right. They talked to the doctors and helped him through his breathing treatment. He'd gotten so worked up over them being there that they had to put a tube up his nose just to keep him breathing regularly and that made him feel even worse about the whole situation. When Vegas came back he was on the verge of crying again but he kept it together. At least until Vegas grabbed a hold of him. He wrapped his arms around Vegas and he just started sobbing, finally feeling like maybe this might work out. Just maybe.

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mike and his teeny tiny mika sized bed
[info]halloweenish
2010-01-14 07:40 am UTC (link)
Vegas squeezed his eyes shut and swallowed hard, thankful that he was getting some sort of reaction out of his brother. His parents had said that Murphy had been so quiet, not at all like himself, and Vegas knew that it was going to take a lot for things to even be remotely all right. His brother had been through a very traumatic and scary experience, and now he'd been conditioned to reject the real world for a much smaller one. That was terrifying to think about, but Vegas knew the reality of it because he could feel it from Murphy just as easily as he could breathe in air.

"Murphy," he said softly as he held onto his much frailer twin. "I missed you so much, so so much. I love you, I know this is all scary and I know you feel overwhelmed but I'm here and I'm not gonna let you go through any of it alone, all right?"

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he loves his teeny bed
[info]wednesday
2010-01-14 07:55 am UTC (link)
Murphy just clung to him, his arms wrapped so tightly around Vegas that he was threatening to crush him, but he was weak enough that it didn't really matter anyway. "I missed you." he whispered to him, afraid to say it too much louder because he didn't want Vegas to disappear. "I didn't want to leave there, I didn't want to leave because I thought you wouldn't love me the same." but he could already tell that he did. "Is Seth here? Did he wait?" he wasn't sure if he would have or if he was dating someone else. Happy with someone else.

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mikA btw not mike my fingers messed up his name and ask for forgiveness
[info]halloweenish
2010-01-14 08:01 am UTC (link)
"I'll always love you the same, always," Vegas whispered in a tone that said it was very much a promise, and one that he would always keep. He sniffed and swallowed hard, not willing to let go or pull away just yet. "He's here, he's waited. But he sort of fell apart without you," he said softly, honestly. "I told him you wouldn't be happy about it, but he didn't know how to cope all that well. I think he blames himself." Vegas could understand that feeling very well. "But he's here, he loves you, and he's here."

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lmao he says its okay
[info]wednesday
2010-01-14 08:08 am UTC (link)
Murphy didn't know what to think at the news that not only had Seth waited for him (though not sober) but was there waiting to talk to him now. With a sigh he just clung a little tighter and kept his head down. "I missed you." He said, not touching on the comment that Seth had fallen apart. "I thought about you every day, I could still feel you. I knew that you were always all right and that was all that mattered because you were safe. And then Adam told me that he talked to you and I just couldn't even handle it, I lost it completely."

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[info]halloweenish
2010-01-14 08:11 am UTC (link)
"I missed you so much," Vegas said again, feeling as if he could never express properly just how much, that he could never say the words enough. "I felt you, too. I knew when you were having the hardest times, I hated that I wasn't there for you. I'm sorry," he whispered as he kissed Murphy's cheek and finally pulled back some so that he could look at his brother's face. "Mirror, mirror on the wall," he said softly with a tearful smile. It was something they'd say to eachother when they were little because they looked exactly alike.

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[info]wednesday
2010-01-14 08:24 am UTC (link)
Murphy couldn't even say the rest of it. His face just crumpled and he closed his eyes. Lifting his hand up, he brushed his fingers beneath his eyes and tried to just wipe away the tears that he knew were spilling down his cheeks. The little saying was making him start to sob all over again because going back to his normal life was effectively going to destroy the one he had created for himself in that damp basement. "I want to go home." there was no specification to what he meant. Whether it was the apartment he'd shared with Seth or the cage in the basement at Adam's or back to his parents. He just needed to be somewhere that wasn't the hospital.

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[info]halloweenish
2010-01-14 08:26 am UTC (link)
"Don't cry," Vegas whispered as he tightened his arms around Murphy again and held him close. "We can go home with Mom and Dad, I'll stay with you," he said softly. "Talk to me, tell me what you're thinking. You can tell me anything, Murph. Anything. No matter what it is, I won't judge you, you know I won't."

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[info]wednesday
2010-01-14 08:33 am UTC (link)
"I am scared." Murphy whispered to him. "I'm scared that everything is going to be too different. I'm scared I am never going to see any of them again. I am going to miss them." he hated admitting that and he knew that it was really fucked up and he knew that the next part of what he had to say was going to upset Vegas. "I'm going to miss Adam." he knew that Vegas probably had felt all the confusion on his end. How hard it had been for him to be with Adam. Half the time he was terrified of him and the other half he was just trying to make the man realize he was worthwhile and he hated seeing him upset. "He's going to lose it when he finds out we are all gone."

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[info]halloweenish
2010-01-14 08:36 am UTC (link)
For anyone else, it might have been difficult to understand, but Vegas was so intune with Murphy's feelings that it made it easier to grasp just what his brother was trying to say. Yes, it was difficult to swallow, but he understood, and he wasn't going to judge Murphy for any of it.

"He took you away from us," he said softly, "But he took care of you. He probably really believes that he loves you, even. All of you. And you are such an empathetic person that you could feel that, and see that. And you care about him, and that's okay," he added as he pulled back to look at Murphy. He lifted a hand to wipe at his brother's cheeks as he swallowed hard. "I understand."

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[info]wednesday
2010-01-14 08:44 am UTC (link)
Murphy smiled at him a little bit. He knew that Vegas would understand. Out of anyone he could have admitted that to there was no one that would get him the same way that Vegas did. "I just want to go home with you. Mom and Dad were smothering me when they came in here to see me and if you send me home with them then there is a real chance that I just survived the scariest ordeal of my lifetime to be killed by our own flesh and blood." it wasn't very nice for him to say things like that but right now he was starting to feel like maybe this was going to be all right. "I want to get out of this hospital."

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[info]halloweenish
2010-01-14 08:49 am UTC (link)
"Well, I'm don't know if I can convince Mom of that, she's missed you so much, Dad too," Vegas said with a faint smile as he smoothed a hand through Murphy's hair. "But if I go home with you, then I can make sure that they give you some space. I'll try to talk them into letting you go with me, but we all just got you back." He dipped his head down and brushed a quick kiss to the corner of Murphy's mouth, something he did out of comfort and habit over the years, and he sighed. "The doctor is talking with Mom and Dad right now, I think they said you can go home, you just gotta take it easy."

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[info]wednesday
2010-01-14 08:54 am UTC (link)
"Can you take this?" he handed the small piece of paper that Parker had given him to Vegas. He'd had a death grip on it since the boy left with Callaway and even if he had no intention of calling Parker he wanted to make sure he didn't lose that in case he ever needed to. "It's Parker's phone number. Just keep it for me. I don't want to lose it and I am getting so tired." he didn't have pockets or anything in the scrubs he was wearing. "Are we driving home or flying home?" he didn't even know how long the drive would have been, he wasn't entirely sure where they were.

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[info]halloweenish
2010-01-14 08:58 am UTC (link)
"Flying, a short flight," Vegas said softly as he took the piece of paper. He didn't need to ask who Parker was, he all ready knew that it had to be one of the other boys. He tucked the number away inside of his pocket and he brushed his fingers back and forth through Murphy's hair as they sat there together. "Would you like me to go get Seth?"

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i need sleep but this is a good place to stop after you respond bc ene can get in to this
[info]wednesday
2010-01-14 09:08 am UTC (link)
"All right." He said softly, nodding as he leaned back a little bit more. "Thank you." He knew that the number would be safe in Vegas' pocket and he was trying to make sure that he was ready to go home. With a soft sigh he rubbed his eyes again and he nodded. "Please. I need to see him." He just hoped that Seth still cared. Hoped that Seth actually still wanted to be with him. That he hadn't waited this long for nothing. "Can you come back right after?" he didn't want to be apart from Vegas for long.

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word
[info]halloweenish
2010-01-14 09:13 am UTC (link)
"I'll come back with him and be right outside that door until you're both ready for me to come in," Vegas said as he dipped his head down and kissed Murphy's forehead. "I promise, Murph."

He gave his brother another long hug, resisting the urge to break down and cry again before he gently pulled back and got to his feet to head down the hall to where he'd left Seth waiting.

"Seth," he said waving his hand, "Come on. He'd like to see you."

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[info]impotentwaffle
2010-01-14 05:52 pm UTC (link)
The cheap cup of coffee in Seth's hand was his lifeline. He'd been staring down into it like it held all the answers, or like it at least held a shower. The call had been agonizing, heart stopping, and he was left to wonder if he could even handle Murphy's return. That's what he'd been thinking about on the flight over. In a deep dark section of his brain, he was so fucking ashamed of himself that he never wanted Murphy back just so he wouldn't have to face his own utter failure. Catching a glimpse of such a horrible thought in his mind only made Seth feel worse.

When Vegas called his name, Seth turned on his heel and held onto that cup of coffee for dear life. "Did he actually want to see me or am I just next in line?" He wasn't drunk right now, but it was easy to tell that he'd picked it back up again.

He followed Vegas back, finishing his coffee and chucking the styrofoam cup into the nearest garbage bin before he walked into Murphy's room and just stood in the door.

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[info]wednesday
2010-01-15 06:25 am UTC (link)
Murphy was sitting on the end of the bed, back to curling his hair with his fingers just to calm himself down while he waited for Seth. He had no idea if the boy was even going to want to be near him or if he would see him and change his mind. Hearing him come to the door, Murphy finally lifted his head up and looked over at him. Swallowing, he tugged on his hair and then dropped his hand into his lap. "Hi." He barely could even say it at all. In fact now he just wished that he had asked them to take the damn tube out of his nose and to let him comb his hair or god he didn't know. If he could have gotten up he would have run across the room and jumped into Seth's arms, but he was stuck sitting on the end of the bed.

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[info]impotentwaffle
2010-01-15 06:42 am UTC (link)
He'd seen Murphy in the hospital before, but those times he'd brought the other in himself, or had ridden with him in the ambulance. Not to mention, those times Murphy hadn't been missing for three years. His feet were absolutely frozen to the ground and he glanced down at them briefly, willing them to move, but they refused.

"Hi," he said back, voice scratchy from perpetual dehydration. His arms dangled at his sides, hands fisting in on themselves before relaxing again, over and over as if he was trying to work blood back into them.

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[info]wednesday
2010-01-15 07:01 am UTC (link)
Murphy had seen the way Callaway was hanging all over Parker and he had seen Elijah and Shay all over one another and Reagan and Liam. And Murphy had thought maybe it would be like that but Seth was just standing in the doorway looking at him and he bit his bottom lip. This wasn't what he thought it would be like all the times he'd fantasized about being rescue. Lowering his head down he looked at his hands and then lifted one to start twirling his hair again. He'd done it before, when he was nervous or scared. He didn't even realize he was doing it, but Seth would know what it meant.

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[info]impotentwaffle
2010-01-15 07:26 am UTC (link)
That made his feet move. That one little gesture broke the lock he'd so firmly placed on himself. He couldn't just stand there and watch Murphy be afraid. "Are you really here?" he asked with a shaky voice as he closed the distance between them. "I used to see you places. I saw you in the kitchen once. You were just standing there, leaning against the counter. I came home from work and you were there."

He took Murphy's hand and brought it up to his mouth, kissing his palm and then up to each fingertip. When he was done kissing all of them, he pulled Murphy into a hug.

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[info]wednesday
2010-01-15 07:35 am UTC (link)
"I didn't think you'd want me anymore." Murphy mumbled as he laid his head down against Seth's shoulder. He wrapped his arms around him and held onto him as tightly as he could manage. He'd already cried so hard and so long but there were tears in his eyes again. Murphy was trembling as he clung to his boyfriend and he curled his fingers into the fabric of Seth's jacket. "You were the only thing that could make me want to live sometimes." he whispered. "When it would get really bad and nothing made me want to live I just thought about you."

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[info]impotentwaffle
2010-01-15 07:43 am UTC (link)
As he exhaled, Seth's body seemed to get even closer to Murphy's as if air had been the only thing holding them apart. "I don't deserve that. I've really messed up, Murph. I didn't keep a life for you to come back to and now you're back and I don't know what to do. I want you so much." There was nothing he wanted more, but he was scared he'd destroyed everything with the force of his mourning and now there was nothing left for his lover.

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[info]wednesday
2010-01-15 07:45 am UTC (link)
"This is where we started." he whispered to him, looking up at him so that they could look in one another's eyes. "We started right here and I helped you get through it once and I can do it again. I'll do it again." he wanted to be with him, needed to be with him. If Seth couldn't help him rebuild their life then he knew he was going to fall apart. There was no telling if he'd ever make it back.

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[info]impotentwaffle
2010-01-15 07:56 am UTC (link)
Seth's promises were all well and good now. His aspirations were real, but his ability to make good on those desires the first time around may not have been up to par. It would be a hard road and right now all he wanted was to promise Murphy that it would be easy. Instead of saying anything, he pressed his mouth to Murphy's, quick at first, breaking away. But then he kissed him again, and again, and again until it melted into a long and needy gesture. The warmth of his tears mixed with it and he swore to himself that he wasn't going to fuck up--not even once.

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[info]wednesday
2010-01-15 08:04 am UTC (link)
Murphy wrapped his legs around Seth's hips and he kept his arms around his neck as they kissed. All of the little kisses had melted into the type of kiss that he had always dreamed about. Whenever Seth was in his dreams they had kissed like this and he had always woken up so lonely and so sad. Now he had it and he was sure that if he died right in that moment it would be just fine.

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[info]impotentwaffle
2010-01-15 08:14 am UTC (link)
"I'm never going to get a cold again. I'll wash my hands so much that the skin will come off." He clearly felt bad that he'd not been able to see Murphy because of his illness. That was when Adam had had the chance to take him.

He pressed their foreheads together and stared into Murphy's eyes. When he'd been especially bad off, he'd gone to see Vegas play, just to pretend that it was Murphy. But it never worked and he only came out of it feeling worse because the looks in their eyes were so different. Now he was drinking in as much as he could of that.

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[info]wednesday
2010-01-15 08:27 am UTC (link)
"I'll just get sick with you and I'll spend some time with my breathing machine and it won't even matter." He had gotten better at dealing with his asthma attacks and getting himself under control because he hadn't had his breathing machine or his inhalers. At least not the strong kind. "I just want to go home, let's go home." he'd asked Vegas for the same thing but he had assumed that Seth wouldn't want to see him like this.

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[info]impotentwaffle
2010-01-15 08:43 am UTC (link)
Seth winced at that. "I lost our apartment. I have this shitty little studio now." He bit his bottom lip and looked physically pained by having to admit that to Murphy. But he'd moved all of Murphy's stuff into that little studio. "Do you still want to come home? Please still want to come home." He wanted home to mean himself and not just the place, but he felt really fucking guilty for losing the apartment they'd had together. It had been the nicest little place and Seth had just stopped paying rent until he was kicked out.

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[info]wednesday
2010-01-15 08:48 am UTC (link)
"I don't care where it is as long as you are there." He kept his arms around Seth, not even caring that Seth had lost their place. "Vegas said that Mom and Dad want me to come home with them for a little while but if I go there then I want you to come to and then we can go to our studio. I don't even care, we could go to a hotel or a cardboard box, I don't care, I just want to be with you."

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[info]impotentwaffle
2010-01-15 11:52 pm UTC (link)
"It was pretty close to a cardboard box for awhile there," he noted. As he spent more and more time with him, it started to feel real and his body felt less like it would blow apart into a million confused little pieces. He squeezed more tightly, pressing his cheek down against Murphy's shoulder as if he thought he might be able to climb into him.

"I'll stay with you at your parents if you want. I know they missed you too."

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[info]wednesday
2010-01-16 07:11 am UTC (link)
Murphy kept his legs around Seth's waist and he kept his arms around his shoulders. There had come a time while he was with Adam that he thought this moment was never going to come and he was so fucking grateful that he was there that he coudln't even let him go. "You waited for me." he whispered. Even if Seth had gone back to drinking, he hadn't ever gotten with anyone else. "You waited for me for three years."

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[info]impotentwaffle
2010-01-17 05:45 am UTC (link)
Not even when he was in the depth of his drunkeness did Seth go so far as to look at anyone else. They weren't Murphy, and touching someone would only have reminded him of the one he wanted. "You're impossible to replace, Murphy," he murmured with a sigh.

"When did they say you could leave?" He wanted him out of this place, and back where he belonged.

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[info]wednesday
2010-01-19 03:52 am UTC (link)
"Tonight. They let everyone else go already." They'd kept Murphy a little longer to make sure that he was all right but now that his family was there and they'd all been reunited he was certain that they were going to let him head out. "I really just want to take a shower and do my breathing treatment and curl up in bed." Preferably with Seth or maybe with Seth and Vegas together. "I haven't showered in private in forever." Sure the others couldn't see him when he was in there, but it just felt like he needed an entire bathroom. Maybe even to take a bath instead.

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