The tears had gotten bigger and more, they were running down his face more and more, and he didn't even make them stop any longer. He knew he would not be this little cry baby in the morning, it was just now in Dean's bed that he just couldn't help to hold back the tears. Dean was right, he wanted their friendship back too, and what if this couldn't work out, maybe he couldn't stay in a relationship, he had never really tried for real to tell the truth, but he kinda wanted something like that with Dean. But still friends, friends were nice, but then Stewart would be everywhere Dean was and how would they be able to be friends then? A small sob escaped from him and he stroked hand over his eyes and his bottom lip was shaking even worse than before, it felt horrible, because the thoughts in his head made him feel like he was an about to get a stomach ache. "I leave the school, Dean. That's the best thing. Think about it? No more sleepless night.. I can eat.. I can go wherever I want.. I don't have to watch you and him.. I'm leaving school, I should leave school." He kept repeating to himself, before he stopped and yet another sob escaped from him, this even more sad.
"If you are not able to choose. I can. I'm leaving." He looked up and nodded to Dean, it felt weird, his 6th year wasn't even over yet, had just started and here was thinking, yeah almost deciding to leave school now for good. "It's just a big nightmare, Dean. I'll be alright on the outside, wake up from this.. and get in contact with my father's connections, just as he once planned for me. I.. yeah, that's how it's going to be." He dried the last of his tears away and tried to sit up more straight, see clearer and stop to being such a cry baby. His fist was sore from the hitting the wall thing, and he slowly rubbed it and looked up at Dean, and felt a little bit better actually now that he might have a end for all of this, how horrible he was feeling. "Yeah.. it's late I.. you want me to go right?"
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