Soo... hey there.
It's been a while, I know. Last night I had the opportunity to talk to Ron on Skype for the first time in literally forever, so she has had the benefit of hearing this already, BUT let me explain what happened to me.
So as ya'll know, I moved to Japan in March. I was not sure about my activity until I got settled in, and I highly underestimated the time it would take me to both get settled into my new home and job and for things to stop being quite so crazy. Mentally, I was really really stressed out about the job until... well, probably until this month. Having-time-wise, though, I settled in around June or so to where I was more comfortable and had a system going with my lesson planning and feeling comfortable with the material and all of that.
I could have come back to Valesco around then, and I actually TRIED. But here's the part where it gets strange and unexplainable (and also where I get douchey and flakey, because I am not saying part of this is not my fault). The MINUTE I tried to access Scribbld from my laptop in Japan, it locked me out entirely. It wasn't just a page not loading--I was getting to the site, but I was getting a default directory page. I Googled specific pages for our comms and threads and journals and it was doing the same thing. I could not get in at all. It looked for all intents and purposes as if Scribbld had just up and shut down and was sitting as an empty domain. I tried again and again periodically, but I never got a different response from it. I thought it was definitely dead. I searched ya'll's IJs to see if the game had moved there and found nothing as well, so I figured the game was gone. This is where I am the douche--I definitely could have taken the time and asked about it. AIM wasn't working either on my laptop, but I know I could have contacted someone on FB about it and I didn't. I was mentally stressed over my job and didn't have tons of time yet anyway, and all signs seemed to point to it being gone, so I just... let it be. I kept checking like once a month, or whenever I thought about the game, but I never got anything.
I've been back in the US for winter break since the 20th and I got a new laptop. My old one had problems going on with it besides the AIM thing--fans were dead, sound card shoddy, etc. Well, I just figured I'd try ONE more time to access Scribbld now that I had a new laptop JUST in case.. Well, I'm posting here now, so you can probably guess the rest. I'm guessing it was just a problem I was having with that laptop--which started to die literally RIGHT after I got to Japan, same time I found I was unable to access the site. I don't know wtf kind of weird shit quirk that is, but there you have it. It did a LOT of weird, selective things that no one can seem to explain.
Honestly, I didn't think about what I'd do if I loaded it up and Valesco was actually there. Really I was most concerned with all that writing not being lost, cause I still liked to go back and read old threads and stuff even when I wasn't active before. I figured no one would want me back after all the doucheyness, so I sat here three days just reading until Ron and I happened to really IM for the first time in a very long time. I told her that I was sort of terrified of coming back because I know I'm at fault and if I was you I would probably be done with it. In other aspects of my online life, I cut inactive people for far far less than what I've done here. Especially as I heard you've had activity problems lately with people vanishing and I'm no one to talk about any of that. I absolutely do not want to add to your burden there.
So tl;dr I am not posting this just sweeping in like an asshole saying I'm back. I don't think I deserve that courtesy no matter what history I have with the game. I'm going to leave that up to you guys, and no hard feelings either way. I'm simply going to post saying that I am ABLE at this point to handle it and that I do miss it and I'd like to make up to you how horrible I've been over the past years. I am also sorry to muck up the OOC with all these dramatics, but I felt like a two-sentence HI GUYS would have been even ruder so. There you have it.
Regardless of what happens, I want to say that I'm beyond relieved that the game is still going and it makes me proud in a way to see something that I used to have a hand in is still running strong after so many years. You guys have given me a lot of fun times over the years and it was heartbreaking to think that all of that history was just gone in a flash. So keep on keepin on, either way. I'm leaving this one up to you, cause it's your hearts that are in it now.
