[Allen wouldn't really know, wouldn't be able to tell Chase what real love felt like at all. He knows he loves Chase and Lavi in different ways... but he can't tell what those ways are anymore, because all his love for Lavi does anymore is hurt. The contrast, to instead be with someone that you love and feel comfort, like he does with Chase... it's almost bizarre, but it's part of why he clings to it. Can't let Chase go even though it would probably be the best thing he could do for him.
Allen smiles a very soft and just slightly nervous smile down at Chase, and he shifts a little before brushing the Crow's hair out of his face and kissing his forehead this time.]
...because you didn't. [He knows... that sometimes it probably feels a lot like Chase is the only one of them really trying in this-- whatever this is. And he's sorry it seems that way. But it's his way of showing that he wants it this way. Wants to try.
And for a moment, Allen wants to say those three little words. Wants to mean them with all his heart; and he's sure that if he did now, he would. But later on, he'd go back to his room with Lavi... and would he still mean it then?
...so he doesn't say them. Instead he lies back down again, curling up against Chase and humming. Unless he's stopped, of course.]
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