g ↔ f ↔ ρ (chickidy) wrote,
@ 2009-02-26 20:54:00

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[GIDEON] Gideon, we have to talk. [/GIDEON]

	Gleny gideon 2009-02-27 03:03 am UTC (link)
	Yes? ~~Please don't say you're pregnant I love Tristan but~~ (Reply to this)(Thread)

	Gideon chickidy 2009-02-27 03:23 am UTC (link)
	I When you get home? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Gleny gideon 2009-02-27 03:33 am UTC (link)
	Want to give me a hint? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Gideon chickidy 2009-02-27 03:46 am UTC (link)
	No Please please please understand, I don't know what else to do, and--- it's you aren't saying anything and it's I don't think--- that you should... play quidditch anymore. Professionally. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Gleny gideon 2009-02-27 03:48 am UTC (link)
	Why? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Gideon chickidy 2009-02-27 03:59 am UTC (link)
	Or--- ~~Oh Merlin, oh god why am I saying this, I shouldn't be I should just---~~ not be as involved with the Order. Anymore. At the same time--- doing both of them at once, I mean. I don't think it's--- safe. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Gleny gideon 2009-02-27 04:01 am UTC (link)
	You want me to choose between the game I love and saving the world? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Gideon chickidy 2009-02-27 04:11 am UTC (link)
	~~Yes~~ I just can't--- Gideon, I can't lose you! I can't, I can't--- especially with Tristan now, it's--- I just can't even think about, I don't even know what I would do if--- I'm sorry. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Gleny gideon 2009-02-27 04:21 am UTC (link)
	You're not going to lose me. If this is about Dorcas and Dearborn, I'm not them. I'm not a Gryffindor and going out to duel with Voldemort and I'm not a spy. I play a game, I come home, I play with my son, I love you and I'm not going to go like that. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

Gideon

chickidy
2009-02-27 04:35 am UTC (link)

You don't know that! How do you--- it doesn't matter, the point is that-- what if-- people who aren't even trained Death Eaters can find you and take pictures and know every single thing that's going on in your life, then it would be so easy for them to just--- I just can't live like this, not knowing-- and worrying that you'll be next because---

You know how you're going to--- you don't know that!

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	Gleny gideon 2009-02-27 05:04 pm UTC (link)
	The stupid reporters find me because I don't go anywhere else but practice and home. Our house is covered in wards, reporters and Death Eaters can't come in. Have I ever had a picture taken of me at the Order house or going to it or on a mission? No. But really, you don't want me to quit quidditch, you want me to quit the order. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

Gideon

chickidy
2009-02-27 08:26 pm UTC (link)

That's---

You don't

So what, Gideon--- we stay in the house for the rest of our lives? That's no way to live, especially for a child, Tristan can't, it's hard enough worrying about him, but what happens when he wants to go out, or he thinks going out to fight Death Eaters is acceptable because his father did it ~~if you we're not killed first~~ We are not that family, and I just can't sit by and say nothing while more and more people are being killed or kidnapped or having their lives torn apart!

I don't-- just both things at once isn't--- I had to--- you have to know how I feel.

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	Gleny gideon 2009-02-27 08:37 pm UTC (link)
	He's only seven months old, he doesn't need to be outside. Plus, our yard is warded too, the whole property is. This isn't going to last forever, we will win. No, I don't know how you feel, I don't understand where this is coming from. I've never gotten into trouble or been attacked. I love quidditch, Gleny! (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

Gideon

chickidy
2009-02-27 09:01 pm UTC (link)

You don't--- you don't know where this is coming from? Gideon!

Marlie--- is dead, they murdered her whole family, Vinny is gone and--- Dorcas was an auror, one of the best and now Derek can't even--- his whole life is changed forever! And--- and-- they hunted Caradoc down, Gideon! Into another country--- all in six months! Six months, it hasn't even been a year and already-- you don't know how long this will last! Nothing changes, it's all the same--

How-- how can you not--- understand? Eventually you'll become more and more involved, and already everyday wondering if I'll ever see you again and or come into work to hear about your death and I can't---

You love quidditch and the Order more than you love me?

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Gleny

gideon
2009-02-27 09:46 pm UTC (link)

But I'm not them! They targeted Marlie's family because of her sister, Dorcas was an auror, I'm not. Derek never told her to stop doing either of these things! They hunted Caradoc down because he was a SPY. He was different. I'm none of those things, I'm not them!

The only way I will get more involved is because you force me to quit quidditch. If I quit quidditch, I will go insane being at home all the time. What will I have to do but work on Order stuff? Playing quidditch keeps me normal, keeps me from being James and Lily.

And that's a stupid question Gleny, of course I don't. You and Tristan are always first in my life. That is why it's so mind boggling that you, YOU of all people, are making me choose between the game I love, the one that I've worked so hard on and took me forever to decide on so that it just feels right to be playing it and the group that's doing everything to make the world right again.

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	Gideon chickidy 2009-02-27 10:04 pm UTC (link)
	Sometimes you have to make hard choices, Gideon, especially in a time like now and--- I just can't keep living like this. You have to--- make a choice. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Gleny gideon 2009-02-27 10:06 pm UTC (link)
	It is absolutely ridiculous of you to ask me this! (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Gideon chickidy 2009-02-27 10:21 pm UTC (link)
	No it is not! Don't-- Please Gideon, you aren't involved as much as the other members, it wouldn't be-- Why can't you understand. I've never been more terrified in my life and you don't even seem to be-- Please understand where I am coming from. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

Gleny

gideon
2009-02-27 10:27 pm UTC (link)

You're scared, that's where you're coming from, but you're not the only one! Things are looking up though, look at our minister! We're going to win this, Gleny.

Giving up our normal lives is what they want us to do. They want us to be too terrified to do anything but roll over and let them kill us! We have to keep doing what we do, the normal things and celebrate the good stuff in our lives, not to let this terror take over us. I'm not stupid, I'm not running out and getting into fights with no-scruples Death Eaters.

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	Gideon chickidy 2009-02-27 10:48 pm UTC (link)
	I can't I just can't--- You don't understand that's not what I'm I think--- I'm going to go stay with my parents for a bit, with Tristan. Let me know when you've decided what you're going to do. I'm sorry, Gideon, I just can't--- it's too much. (Reply to this)(Parent)

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