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[17 May 2008|11:08pm] |
i hate how i always worry too much.
and how i take things the wrong way.
i hate how my voice sounds,
and how i can't seem to write melodies.
i get nervous in front of big groups,
and i never know what to say or do.
i just sit there.
i hate how when someone's trying to help
i can be so oblivious sometimes.
i hate how lazy i can be.
i'm so unorganized,
i'm so unwilling to work.
I hate how i expect something out of people.
not an unreasonable amount,
just something.
I hate how i pick myself apart,
how i feel like something doesn't add up.
how i feel like it's not them, it's me.
but i love that megan can accept me the way i am.
i am flawed, and she knows this, and she continues to love me.
i love how she makes me feel.
like i'm strong.
or funny.
or smart.
all i need is her to make me feel wanted.
i love how she makes me see the good in all the bad.
i feel like i can protect her.
teach her.
learn from her.
if there was anyone the could ever make me feel better about myself,
it would be her.
she knows me better than i know myself.
i also know she can take all my flaws and show me just how good i can be.
i love her for that.
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