| Diary // Marlowe (Locked) |
[Oct. 14th, 2008|07:16 pm] |
Still no news. I've heard it said that no news is good news, but really I'd just like to hear something. Even if it's bad news, is that terrible of me? This not knowing is awful. I know I get so ridiculously jealous sometimes, but if I were to find out tomorrow that he's just been shacked up with some bitch girl the past few weeks, it'd be a relief; just to know nothing's wrong.
I'm so freaked out about the undeliverable mail. I've wracked my brain over and over again, and apart from... I'm not even going to say it. It's just... what could it be? Maybe if he's hiding out, or something, and his location is spellbound? That could stop the mail. But someone would have to know where he was to spellbind the secret, and if he didn't tell me or Aiden then who on Aylasia would he have told? Reed didn't seem too worried about it, which is a sort of comfort. They're such a close family; if he didn't think it was something to have a panic fit over then it can't be as awful as I'm making it out to be.
He was pretty wonderful okay to be around today. A calming influence, I guess. Didn't try it on or anything. I'm... I wouldn't say I feel better about the situation, but I don't feel worse. It was nice to have someone there for me.
It felt comfortable. Natural. That's... emotionally conflicting. |
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