05:56 pm - ekkk
Sometimes I get so anxious from the resentment you hold that I wish I would get hit by a fucking car. I go through everything you do minus the breastfeeding. I get stuck in the house too, by myself; just like you. I'm worried about how we're going to make it too, but I have faith. I worry about us, I fear for us... I don't see much hope for that; honestly. I think that's what you want to hear. I get too anxious to breathe sometimes, but at least I have a release. I wish you had that. I wish you had something that made you happy other than Nolan--don't get me wrong, it's great that Nolan makes us both so happy, but you need more. I feel like I'm in constant panic all the time right now, like I could faint or throw up without warning. You WILL go through school... I will make sure of that. If I have to work 80 hours a week, you'll go. You'll go before I do, and I don't expect you to stay after that. I just don't want to FEEL your resentment anymore. I would cut off my left/right nut to get this feeling off me.